"Mom i miss you so much" I sit by her stone . " Dad i still drinking a lot, and i am no longer dating parker" I lean up against the stone. The wind is whipping my hair around my face. my hair is dirty blond like moms and my eyes are a gray blue just like moms also.

"Why you wonder? Well he never loved me so I fell for a player and i don't know what to do" I hugged my knees and felt tears come down my face again. What was i thinking mom doesn't even hear me she died.

"Well I'd better go before i get caught again." I got up and started to walk home. I pulled out my phone and started to scroll through twitter. I had gone through all the members of One Direction last tweets.

Liam's:
hey how is everyone today?

Niall's:
we just landed in chicago who is going to the show?

Harry's:
Airplanes are so boring , what's up everyone?

Louis': How are my carrot eaters? :)

haha louis and his carrots. Of course zayn didn't do any tweeting.

I commented on louis' and Liam's and Harry's tweets

Hey guys how do you get through a boy using you or someone?



I really hope they answer because i really feel like they are the only people who are the light in the darkness now.

I keep scrolling through different people until my notifications told me parker tweeted something. I opened it to see : Sabrina is such a slut and a little whore she should just go kill her self, she is just a waste of space on this earth


I walk up the stairs to get into my house just looking at my phone in disbelief. All of the sudden i feel like my heart exploded in my chest and an elephant was sitting on me. My phone dinged again with a comment from one of parker's friends: She should its not anyone liked her any ways why do you think her mom is dead now.

That was it i ran to my bathroom and grabbed my razor and slit my wrist so many time I started to feel light headed, I quickly tried to clean up the counter and sink. My arm slowed down on the bleeding so i put a sweat shirt on and went to bed

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