Still dont understand
Home but not really
Alex's POV
I walked in the front door to my house. I havent been home in such a long time it feels like havent lived here all my life anymore. I feel like I ruin everything in my path, I'm the terminator. I ruined my friendship with Max, Harry, everyone. I was supposed to call Jack when i got home but i ruined my relationship with him as welll. No one was home so I just turned on the TV, not even bothering to unpack. It's been at least three days since I made any contact with Kenzie and to be honest, I'm extremley affraid to do so. I dont want to crush anymore people than I already have. The show that came on was StarStruck, an original Disney movie. It reminded me of LA, Harry, Max, Jack, and all the others. I miss Harry, his curls, his eyes, his lips, his everything. If I could do anything in the entire world, i would change the choices that i made in LA. I regret my decisions everyday. But can you blame me? I eventually fell asleep during the middle of the movie and was shaken awake by my mother.
"Sweet heart! I missed you so badly! Why havent you called or texted or emailed or anything!? I was worried sick!" She engrosed me in a tight hug, and I just hugged her back tightly.
"I was extremly tired so i just decided to sleep for a few hours. I'm sorry if i scared you, but I just didnt feel like talking". When i heard my own voice it sounded hollow, empty,depressed, sad.
"Honey, I love you so much and it hurts me to see you like this. Do you want to go shopping, eat out, do something?" I just shrugged and then nodded, going upstairs to get ready. I was done in under twenty minutes (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=139301526) not really caring if i looked bad or not. It just worked for me today. I kind of hated the fact that my shirt says it all though. We went to all my favorite stores but bought nothing because I hated everything I tried on. I only did it for mom so she doesn't send me to some therapy type shit.
Jacks POV
I was in the kitchen drinking a coffee at 4:30 in the morning. Alex should be home by now but she still hasn't called. I cant believe i kicked my own neice out of my house. Damn it, I cursed under my breath. I got up and just decided to call her myself if she wont call me.
Ring...Ring...Ring... 'Hey its Alex Jacobs! I cant come to the phone right now so if you-" I hung up half way through not bothering to leave a messege. I only wanted her to be happy so i told her to leave to escape the drama. She's not avoiding me, her mother wouldnt let her do that. I'll get a call in a few days. I crawled into bed not bothering to over think it anymore.
Notes
What do you guys think?! I'mso excited about this yay!!! Luv u <3
