Please Don't leave

the first time I saw her something happened my heart did this skip jump thing it always does when I'm around her but it was the first time something like that had happened I thought to put it down to something weird and kept living my life but something told me to go to her at the time we were in 7th grade so I started talking to her about everything she seemed happy but hiding something she always wore these bracelets on her wrists and seemed distant at times but there was something making me talk to her
in 8th grade we were pretty close but she was still distant and her and Ally seemed inseparable the boys started to see me hanging around her more so they started to get to know her and ally that's when Calum and Ally started to have something.
in 9th grade she ran away for a while she stayed at my house the whole time she wouldn't tell me why she ran away that's when I found about what was under those bracelets the scars and cut made me cry "why" I asked "why risk your life to hurt yourself"
"because no cares for me Ashton not even my parents lets stop talking about this ok" I wouldn't drop the subject so she went home
year 10 was the year we had a fight she was still cutting and I said some stuff I shouldn't have she tried to get herself hit by a car I saw her jump in front of it she says she didn't but I saw my died that day to know she kill herself that easy it was like she had the rope on my heart tugging and tugging trying to hurt it that was also the year Ryder came into her life and the rope was cut but that hurt more he had her heart now.
year 11 that's where we are now she still loves that jerk Ryder even though he's been cheating on her and she knows she just doesn't have the guts to say anything where distant now though because I know if i get close to her again it will hurt to even look at her.

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i hope you like it <3