True love exists
Chapter 2
I woke up squinting my eyes at the bright lights coming from my window, the thick smell of dust and sex filled my room. I let my head hang low in shame as this week replayed in my mind, I don’t want this life…I don’t want to be forever stuck to doing this with men, id rather be beat…
I slid out of bed and turned on the shower insuring the water was hot enough to scrub away the filth on my body. While I waited for it to warm up I picked some dark blue ripped skinny jeans, a white tang top, black pea coat, and some black convers. I laid them on my bed with my matching black lace langera and stepped into the hot shower wincing as it hit my sensitive spots. My upper arms were laced with light bruises along with my sides, breasts, thighs, and ass. All because of the groping hands of the men from nights.
I pinched my eyes shut letting the tears and silent sobs fall, I curled up in a ball on the shower floor. I just want this to end…I want to be free. I thought. Theres only one way for that, but I promised my sister I would hold on for her…I would stop cutting for her… so far its been 3 months since that promise and Ive held on. I haven’t cut since then, but that doesn’t meen the thoughts left my mind.
I slowly stepped out of the shower and dried myself off. I glanced at the clock picking up spead when I realized I had an hour before she would be there waiting for me. I threw on my outfit and put my hair in a messy bun ignoring the make up for now. I grabbed my back pack and climbed out my bedroom window. If I go downstairs father will surely try and get at me himself.
I let out a breath as I jumped from the window, my feet thumping into the wet grass. I looked around at the cloudy sky’s the thundering rumble of the inner war that lies above. A rain drop hits my nose and I smile as natures beauty surrounds me. the blissfull smell of rain and fresh plant life fill my nose. A cool breeze plays at my hair. This is a true moment in which I love. Freedome surrounds me, not a single disturbance to corrupt the events of which nature creates. A life I dream of.
I take in one last breath before darting on to the wet paved rodes. My feet carry me a few blocks until im met with the bright green scenary of the park. Its empty due to the weather meening itll be even more quiet then usual. My eyes land on the bushes that hide me and my sisters spot and I smile as the outline of a umbrella, peeks out of the hidden area. I take my slow steps through the wet grass and slowly approach her. When im around the corner I see her sitting wrapped in a brown and red plad blanket. Her eyes fixed on the Sydney harbor as waves reflect the clouds and a peaceful music is created. Her golden blonde hair lay slightly damp on her back and she clutches the blanket in one hand, and a hot coffee in the other. Her ice blue eyes closed as she enjoys this moment as much as I do.
“serine?” I whisper. Her eyes look to me and she smiles, holding the blanket open for me to sit.
“hey sis.” She says wrapping her arm and the blanket around me once I snuggle in.
“how was your week?” I ask. The same smile she always gets creeps on her face and she looks at me with eyes that glitter with happiness.
“amazing…im in love with jack, sara…he…he propsed last week.” She speaks. Her hands slips from under the blanket and I see a silver band on her ring finger. My eyes widen and I look at her in amazement.
“do you love him?” I ask.
“of course…I love him so much it hurts.” She says returning her gaze to the harbor. I look out as well at a loss for words. Love? My sister found it…I thought that it was a fairy tail…maybe serine just got lucky in the rarest…something I will never experience.
Ive never met jack, hes seen pictures of me and serine tells me how she always talks about me with him. She said he really wants to meet me but she has always told him hed have to wait. She nows my fear of men… I don’t think I could ever trust one. Just being near them my heart picks up and I feel I will faint.
“youll find it to someday. I promise.” My sister whispers taking my hand in hers. We speak but our eyes never leave the harbor. She tells me of how her and jack got a house. And in 3 months when she takes me from my father she plans on having me as her maid of honor. I smile at the thought. My sister hasent completely been through what I have. Yes she had the sex slave life for a year or two, but dad always charrished her more, hed never beat her… ever... Maybe its because he loved her …something I don’t know what is…the only love I no is of my sister and mum.
“and when were married…jack wants me to let you no your welcome at our home whenever, sara…he loves you even though he hasent met you…” she squeezes my hand and I give her a half smile as tears spill.
“do you think ill ever be able to look at guys differently…” I whisper. My sisters eyes turn to sorrow and she uses her hands to cup my face and pull it to her view.
“of course sweaty. No matter what you will, someone will see you and there first intention will be to protect and yes…love you.” I bit back more tears as the words stung my broken heart. I just gave her a nod as she layed my head on her shoulder letting my cry into it. Her small hands stroked circles on my back till I had calmed when she pulled away.
“I hate to leave…I have work…tomorrow?” she says tucking some hair behind my ears. I nod looking at the harbor once more.
“maybe….maybe bring jack?” I whisper nervously. As terrified as I am I no how much it would mean to her for me to try. Her eyes light up and she smiles.
“are you sure?” she whispers un able to hide her happiness. I only nod. She kisses my forhead and stands.
“take care sara, ill see you tomorrow.” With that shes gone. I sigh looking out onto the harbor as the birds fly high on the shore line. The rain has seized and the clouds linger in the after math. My mind drifts off.
~~~ Flashback~~~
“mummy mummy!!!!” I cry as I sit on the floor. My mum has serine on her lap and there playing a game while im on the floor with my dolls.
Im 6, serine is 10. Were both relaxing while daddy gets the car ready.
“whos ready for the zoo!!!” my father comes In cheering. He scoops serine from my mother spinning her and my mom balances me on her hip smiling down at me.
“what do you wanna see sara?” she asks rubbing her nose on mine.
“HORSEY!” I shout, ive always loved horses. I look at my mums features. Her long carmel hair cascades her shoulders like mine and emerald green eyes sparkle. Daddy always said I was a spitting image of mummy.
“well before we go im going to get some gas in the car you two stay with daddy!” she laughs while setting me down. I jump happily and run to my dad clinging to his leg and he chuckles plopping on the couch.
~~~Skip wait~~~
Its been 3 hours since mummy went to get gas…
“daddy weres mummy!” I whine.
“I don’t know sara.” He replies walking away. I frown looking at the t.v show daddy had on for me and serine. Suddenly it cuts out.
“This just in, a 3 way collision on highway 6 going towards howard street has occurred. Theres 2 known deaths, and 3 survivors. The dead are john michaels, and Alana Tylers. Theres no known information the family knows yet but our hearts go out to the families. Stay tuned for further update.”
A picture of mummy came on the screen and I saw serine was in tears. I didn’t understand.
“daddy why is mum on the news!?” I say pulling on his pants leg. He just staired at the screen.
“daddy!!” I whine. Suddenly his eyes shoot from the screen to me. he runs a hand through his blonde hair and his ice blue eyes go dark and cold.
“daddy!” I whine once more. He grits his teeth and shouts louder then my daddy has ever shouted at me.
“YOUR MUMS DEAD AND ITS YOUR FAULT!” he yells. For the first time ever im sent harshly to the ground crying out in fear as daddy hits me. serine is in a corner screaming and begging daddy to leave me alone, but for the next minute or two I have become his punching bag.
When hes done he stands from my small body and walks out the door. Leaving me on the floor in tears and serine strokeing my hair as she pulls me in her lap. My vision pricking with black as my clueless mind falls into a unknowing sleep that this is forever my life, and my mum is gone.
~~~End of flashback~~~
“NO!” I scream shooting up. I realize im asleep on the bench, the sun has began to set and im alone. I must have been tired I think.
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