True love exists

~~~Saras POV~~~

I woke up groaning as the familiar soreness filled my lower half. I couldn’t come to calming myself in these moments. The thought of a simple man overtaking me every night was consuming. I was terrified…yet to the beatings id receive for refusing, I would zone out.

“SARA!” my father called from downstairs. I let out a sigh as I dragged my naked body from the bed.

“SARA WERE GOING TO BE LATE HURRY YOUR FUCKING ASS!” my dad screamed. I winced at his loud tone and hurried into my closet. I looked through my cloths trying to decide what would be good for today…ugh today…

Ever since my mother passed my father has rejected and blamed me ever since. I was 6 when she died…and for 7 years he did nothing but beat me…then for 2 years he decided his ‘needs’ could be fulfilled by me…a terrified 15 year old girl. I shudder at just the thought of the memories. And then finally when I was 16 he decided he was done working. He quit his job and told me I would be doing the money making from now on. Me…A 15 YEAR OLD GIRL! Turns out that job was my start to not only fearing, but despising men.

He takes me to meetings all week, meetings were men illegally make offers on girls for one night to do with as they please were ever there ‘owners’ allow. My father only allows it at his house so atleast I wont get kidnapped… either way I hate it. I hate my life. I’m ugly, I’m fat, im a slut. Im disgusting. The one thing youd wipe off your shoe. My only friend is a razor. The one thing that helps distract me from my nightmare life. That and song righting. But to hell ill ever sing, id rather stick to my dear cuts then show myself off to more sex craving animals you call men.

“SARA GOD DAMNIT HURRY OR YOULL GET IT!!!” my fathers voice booms. I wince at his harsh tone and throw on a black skin tight dress with slits on my sides starting under my armpits and ending on my lower hip. Next I throw on some light make up and brush my carmal brown hair over my shoulders. When im done I throw on some black heels with red under, and walk quickly but carefully to my dad.

“sorry father…” I say as I look into the black menacing eyes of my father.

“good lets go.” He says placing his hand on my lower back. I sigh looking at the ground through my lifeless green eyes. when were in the car I watch the dark streets of Sydney Australia glitter in the moon light. The wet pavement providing a canvas for the lights. People walking down the street fixated on something or smiling at there partner. I sigh as a couple walk hand in hand, eyes locked and smiles so wide there faces turn red.

“its just a fairy tail…” I whisper to myself.

“oh please sara, give it up! Love doesn’t exist, and if it did I laugh at the thought of you ever getting something so rare. You’re a slut! Look at you!!” my dad laughs. I take a deep breath trying hard not to cry at the harsh words. If I look bad dad wont make a sale and ill get beat.

I dab my eyes with a napkin ignoring his comment and continue my frozen watch on the streets. The car suddenly jolts to a stop and my fathers is honking constantly. I look up front to see tons of girls with posters and sighns surrounding something. I look out my window and I lock eyes with a tall and handsome figure. The street lights give me enough view to see his beautiful toned body. His muscles, and brown semi messy hair. Hes got a bandana pulling it back and his eyes are fixed with mine. I wish the light was brighter so I could see the color but its to dark. I feel my heart skip a beat as a smile plays at his lips. Dear god what is this infatuation I have found, I think.

Suddenly the car jolts forward and the gaze is broke. The beauty is out of sight, but not out of mind. I shake my head from the thoughts reminding myself as handsome as he was hes no better then the other men. He’ll use me for sex and go.

“lets go” my father says slamming the door.i realize were there and the whole time I was thinking about the boy. I blink a few times and step out. I scan the dark ally, a small light shines out of a cracked door at the end giving me a view of my fathers impatient figure.

“lets go!” he barks. I nod walking quickly to him. The clack of my heals filling the ally silence.

He roughly pushes me through the door making me stumble in. the bright neon lights pointed at a mirror silver stage/runway, lays infront. The irrotic music pumps through the thick smokey air and men chant and howl at the half naked woman stumbling on stage. Most are are in for drugs willingly, while few are in it for the same reason I am, they have no choice.

“go get ready” my father say pushing me towards a door. I nod walking into the room.

When I open the door im greated by stumbling girls, and other girls that are a crying mess. There all terrified of this and I can understand, I remember my first time… turns out my father was using my older sister in this before he got me into it. The day she left my father enterd me into the buissness. I remember being so scared I threw up. My dad was so mad he slapped me and took me home because the mark hed left was to noticeable.

I felt my heart skip as I thought of my sister, shes my best friend. Every Saturday and Sunday my father lets me rest from the horrid weeks of working, so I take it upon myself and go to this little spot in the park. Its further in the back and looks over the Sydney harbor from a cliff. Bushes block the view to the park and provide privacy. Its peaceful and I love it. My sister meets me there at the same time every week, we usually talk and she brings me things. I love her so much. She promises when she turns 21 shell get me out. Shes 20 now, so I have 3 months to go. Im excited yet scared to see what dad will do.

“number 56” the stage man calls. I gasp realizing im next. I quickly slip on an angel hair white bikini, with knee high heel boots. I drape my hair over my shoulders and take a moment to shut everything out. This is what I do. I blank out of the moment and do my stupid strut to attract the animals below. I stay in this state until the morning, when I get a small freedom then have to repeat again.

Notes

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