Stephanie's POV

"Are you sure you're okay about Lucy's idea in London?" Chloe asks as we're in the kitchen of her house.

Earlier at the cafe Lucy explained that she wanted to go on a night out in London with us three. At first I was a little skeptical as whenever I hear the word London, I automatically think of him. But this is for my friend's birthday, I don't want to let anyone down.

"Yeah, it's her birthday isn't it. Like she said, she wanted to go somewhere different." I answer as I help her make some drinks.

"Yes but there's many places we can go. She'd understand if you felt a little uncomfortable." Chloe says and I look at her and smile.

"I appreciate you looking out for me, but I'm fine. It will do me good going back there and to actually enjoy the experience." I say as I take two of the vodka and cokes and I walk into Chloe's living room.

I pass Niall his drink as Chloe follows me in and passes Lucy hers. Thing is I can't let the past stop me from doing things, I shouldn't have to suffer and hold back to what my friends want to do. I'm not letting him have that power over me, it's not fair.

I text Jed earlier to see if we could possibly stay at his flat this weekend. I thought if we stayed on his two sofas, we can all go top and tales. Rather than paying for a hotel, I'd rather sleep a little rough for one night.

"So your birthday, how are we getting there?" Niall asks as he sips his drink. Chloe and Lucy are the only ones that can drive.

"I can drive us, seeing as its your birthday." Chloe says and Lucy smiles and thanks her. "Are you sure you don't want to do a night out in Manchester?" She adds and I look away.

"I can if you guys really don't want to go, but the bar has been booked and I just thought it would be good for us to get away." Lucy says and I feel all eyes on me. I look upto them. "You're okay about this aren't you?" She asks.

"Yes, of course!" I say as I force a smile. It's been six months since I've seen him and I know I can get over him completely. Going to London is the first step.

Lucy smiles and looks back to Niall and Chloe. If this was mentioned maybe two months ago then I probably wouldn't have been able to go. But luckily, I feel stronger as a person and no one shall stop me from doing anything. My phone vibrates and I quickly look at the screen. It's a text from Jed, I unlock my phone and I read:
Hey Sis. Yeah that's fine. Ed is away at his parents all week so there's a bed free and then the two sofas! Look forward to seeing you. X

I smile as I look up and I start to explain what Jed had said to me. Lucy's eyes light up and she looks so pleased.

"That's cool, I'll finally get to meet your brother." Niall says. I smile to him as I never realised before he's not met Jed.

"Well that's that sorted then." Chloe smiles and I smile as I look down and I start to text Jed back.

"I'm so excited! Bring on the weekend!" Lucy cheers and she downs a large amount of her drink. I look up as Chloe and Niall laugh at her, I smile as I know this time in London, it's going to be good.

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Harry's POV

"You're friend is amazing.." Louise says as she looks at me and smiles. I've lost count how many drinks we have had, but my head is a little dizzy.

"I know.." I say as I down the rest of my drink. I smile as I look at her, I'm not sure whether it's the drink or me, but I'm growing fond of Louise's company. Just being with her tonight has made me realise how lonely I've been.

I look to Louis who's currently sat with his arm around Ali. They've been in their own little world, laughing, flirting a little bit of touching. I can tell Louis is bladderd, he's not leaving Ali alone.

"Thank you all for having me tonight." Liam says and I turn my attention over to him. I clap along with the crowd as a few people start to cheer. Louis suddenly perks up and begins whistling.

"So, are you girls coming back to ours?" Louis asks as he looks at them, Ali immediately nods. I look to Louise as she looks at Louis and then to me.

"Okay." She says shyly. I smile as I look away an see Liam approaching us. I stand up .

"Mate, you were brilliant." I pat him on the back as he sits down with his drink thanking me.

Louis immediately introduces the girls to Liam. As they greet each other I look at my phone as I have a tweet on twitter. It's from Gemma:

@Harry_Styles Missing you in London! X

I smile as I tweet her back. I miss my family loads. I haven't seen my Dad in ages as I usually try and pop over on a Sunday. We agreed we don't spend enough time together so that's something we are trying to change. But I can't describe how much I miss Mum, especially now we are so much more closer than before. It's hard not having her own around to talk too because I like talking with Mum, I wish I never waited so long to open up to her.

"Shall we head back?" Louis asks as he stands up and stumbles a little. I laugh at him as Ali tries to help him from falling, but she's just as drunk as he is.

"Yeah I'm ready." Liam says as he finishes his drink and stands up. Louise and I stand too and we put our coats on. I walk with Louise and I turn to her, I don't want her to feel pressured that she has to come back to ours just because her friend is.

"I can walk you home if you prefer?" I ask Louise as we start to leave the bar. She smiles as she looks at me.

"Thank you Harry, but I don't mind coming back and hanging out with you. If that's okay?" She asks and I nod. She seems different to Ali, I get a good vibe from Louise. I like how polite she is and she has such an essence of innocence about her.

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Stephanie's POV

"I reckon we should dress up as fancy dress!" Lucy grins as she's still talking about her birthday. I laugh as that's Lucy all over, I don't mind her idea at all. Being in disguise could actually be quite a nice thing. Lucy continues going into the depth about why we should dress up, Chloe rolls her eyes and smiles at our friends enthusiasm.

"You do realise I'm so out numbered here, I'm the only guy?" Niall says out of the blue, in all fairness that's something we haven't even took into account.

"I could ask my brother if he wants to come along?" I suggest and Niall nods. I don't think Jed will turn a night out down. I quite like the idea of Jed coming along with us, as I feel a little more comfortable that he knows London well now.

"Yeah, I think that could help. I'm not so sure on the idea being stuck with three girls." Niall jokes and I smile.

"I know, you struggle keeping up with us, don't you Niall.." Chloe teases and Niall looks at her and shakes his head smiling.

"Well, back to my fancy dress idea. We could all be superheroes?" Lucy asks as she looks at us, she sounds so keen to dress up. I nod at her as I really am not fussed what I go like or what I look like.

I look at Niall who is trying to persuade Lucy in not doing a fancy dress theme in London. I start to doubt myself about before, I could have called things off with Harry when I had the chance too. Maybe I am supposed to be with someone like Niall, I can't imagine him hurting me.

But then I did love him, at the time I was infatuated with him. Stop thinking like this Steph! This is exactly why I can't fully move on because he keeps creeping up back in my mind, no matter how hard I try and push him right to the back of my mind; he just doesn't stay out the way.

Niall's just got everything that screams out too me, I like his personality and I like the way he looks. He's got the full package and I know I have feelings for him, I just don't know how he feels about me. I'm not sure I'm quite ready to be let down again, but I just can't imagine Niall being the let me down type.

Is it too soon to have feelings for someone else? Or do I deserve to be happy? I think Niall could be good for me, I need someone kind and gentle; someone who won't give up on me.

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Harry's POV

We arrive home and I follow everyone inside. Louise stops in the hallway as she takes off her heels and picks them up. I smile at her politeness as Ali has just gone with Louis to his room, I'm not surprised at all. Louis is trying so hard to find a girlfriend, but he keeps looking in the wrong places. He ends up with the same type of girls, they want so much from Louis and tend to be quite high maintenance. I can't imagine him and Ali getting serious anytime soon.

"So Louise, would you like a drink?" Liam asks as he guides her into the kitchen. I watch them disappear and I stay in the hallway. Something doesn't feel quite right, I mean Louise is gorgeous and I know see the type of girl I could easily date. But I feel like that Harry has gone, I don't want to date someone just because I can. I want to feel excited and happy whenever I think of someone, that someone who can make me feel different. Every time I think like this I always land on to her, how she made me feel was exactly how I want to feel again.

I can't keep feeling like this, I need to move on. I have to start allowing me to say her name and for people to say it to me. Otherwise, if I keep hiding away I will never get over her. I roll my eyes at myself and I walk into the kitchen.

Liam is sat on the kitchen counter as Louise is sat at the dining table. I pull a chair out and sit next to her. She smiles as she looks at me, her face lights up a little which I'm not too sure why, but I smile back.

"I'm going to the bathroom, the kettle is on." Liam says as he jumps down and leaves the kitchen. I stand up and I take another mug from the cupboard and I add a spoonful of I coffee. I turn round as Louise stands up.

"Have you lived here long? Because I don't think I've seen you before?" Louise asks as she walks up to me and we both lean backwards on the counter, looking at each other.

"No, I used to live in Manchester." I say as she nods at my answer. "I've been here for about six months." I add and she smiles.

"I've never been to Manchester.." She replies and I know she's just trying to make conversation. I look away and smile. "We don't get many nice guys in London.." She adds and I look up at her. I take all her beauty in as she shuffles closer towards me.

"Well I'm glad there's nice girls here.." I reply to her and she smiles. She leans forward and kisses my cheek. I reach up and touch her cheek, stopping her from moving away from me. I turn my head and she glances down to my lips. I lean in and close the gap as our lips touch. It's been a while since I've kissed anyone. We turn so our bodies are facing each other, her hands reach the back of my head and I pull her towards me and wrap my arms around her waist.

I suddenly feel alive, she is what I've been waiting for. The kiss becomes a little rougher and I feel myself wanting her more and more. I start to walk her backwards out of the kitchen, as our kiss continues she quickly jumps up and wraps her legs around my waist. I grip hold of her bum and I carry her to my room. I lean down and open the handle as she starts to kiss my neck.

I kick my door shut behind me and I sit down on the edge of my bed, she begins to straddle me and I can't wait much longer. I tug at her top and I pull it over her arms, I quickly start to kiss her neck and I trail down towards her chest, she throws her head back and a little moan escapes her lips.

God I've missed this feeling. I've wanted this for so long to just be intimate with someone, I'm finally doing it and not dreaming. I had many dreams when I first moved here of Stephanie and I, the way we touched each other and kissed, it made - Stephanie.

"I can't do this." I snap as I pull away from Louise. I quickly stop and I lift her off me. I stand up and I close my eyes as I start to curse myself inside. Why the fuck am I doing this? I really like Louise and again, Stephanie stops me. She's not even here and she still has this power over me, for fuck sake.
But I've said it. I've said her name a couple of times now.

"I'm sorry.." Louise panics and I look at her as she puts her top back on. I shake my head and sigh as I sit back down next to her.

"You don't have to be sorry, I'm the one who just can't do this, not now." I say as I look at her, she covers herself with her arms as she looks to the floor, "It's not you and as cliché as this may sound, it really is me." I add and she slowly looks up at me.

"Do you have a girlfriend?" She asks worriedly and I shake my head. She sighs with relief.

"I'm just not in the right frame of mind, I'm sorry. I should never have led you on." I say as I run a hand through my hair. I'm such an idiot.

"It's okay Harry.." Louise says and I look at her a little puzzled. How is she so laid back with me? I completely led her in and blew her off. I sometimes did that to girls in the past and they always went mad at me.

"Do you want to just watch a film or something?" I ask and she smiles and nods. I quickly lean towards her and kiss her cheek. Louise has just made me like her even more..

Notes

I'm sorry it's a little short this chapter.
I hope you liked it!
its quite sad that Stephanie is falling for Niall
and Harry is falling for Louise.
But they are both about to wake up in reality,
Stephanie is coming to London..

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