I Can't Lift the Weight
Hello
NOBODY'S GOING TO HOLD YOU'RE HAND
Roger Rabbit by Sleeping with sirens jolts me awake. I bring my hands to my eyes and wipe. The sun gleams trough my curtains lighting the corner of the room bringing me back to reality.
Today's my first day back to hell. High School, the summer went by EXTREMELY slow, but I wish it would never end.
I climb out of bed and comb my birds nest I call my dark hair. My blue eyes stare into my reflection. If I wasn't so messed up, people would wonder why I wouldn't have a boyfriend. But lucky me I'm Emo as they call it. I would call it, depression, sickness, dying, the list goes on.
I slip on my outfit and head out the door not bothering with breakfast. My parents don't care what I do so I don't need to eat, keeping me a slim 103 pounds.(Not healthy)
Ready to begin torture I walk into my first class. All eyes we're on me as I walked to my seat.
The teacher wasn't here yet so I was stuck with the stares.
"What?!" I snapped as I watch their heads turn back to theirs books. Sure, they were actually studying. The pick up my pencil and finish a drawing I started yesterday but haven't has the time to finish it.
I'm not very good at drawing but I'm decent. I close my book as the teacher walks in giving us(students) the stink eye.
"I'm going to make this clear and I will only say it once, no kissing, slacking, idiotic remarks, snarky remarks, bad language, inappropriate language and please make sure you're home work is done on TIME!" She says in one breath.She begins the lesson with boring geography of Canada. I think I know where we live. I jot down some notes and doodle as the time passes by the time the bell rings my book is already pushed to the floor.
I bend down to pick it up only to be knocked over onto the floor with a thump.
"Next time I won't push, I'll punch." Some girl says. I mutter words under my breath and thankfully she didn't hear. I'm stronger than people think I am, I've been putting up with this shit for 6 years even at home. Next thing you know I'm being called to the office.
I walk with books and hand getting glares from strangers, even freshman who don't even know me glare sending a tingle up my spine.
I get to the office and sit in a waiting chair beside some guy with his black hoodie covering his face. Plugging my music in a stare into the abyss.
Waking up I see that everything is okay The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant, it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant, please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
This innocence is brilliant, it's so beautiful, it's so beautiful
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now, it makes me wanna cry
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
Read more: Avril Lavigne - Innocence Lyrics | MetroLyrics
The boy beside me touches my shoulder.
"I think I'm supposed to be here?" He questions me. I can't see his face nor his reaction to the snark reaction on my face. Who is this guy?
"Sorry, I don't talk to faceless people." I slip my ear bud back in only to have him pull it out again. He shows me a glimpse of his face and I shriek attracting attention. Liam Payne puts his hand over my mouth.
"Not a word okay?" He stares into my soul making my bones weak. Liam Payne is in front of me. Why would he be here? A little high school in Nova Scotia, Canada. It doesn't make sense for him to be in the lobster province. He removes his hand and covers his head once more.
"Do you know where you are?" I asked still confused.
"No shit I know where I am."
"I was just asking" I say in defense.
"You don't have to. Me and the boys took a boat from Paris, we landed here. I think were staying to study and were trying to find a school."
"I would go anywhere but here." I mumble hoping he didn't catch my mumble.
"Why not, seems like a good school, nice people, teacher, lots of extracurricular activities." He raises an eyebrow. I just duck my head and walk into the office.
Their sitting in the chair on the other side of the principle is my mother. Fuck, what is she doing here? She looks like she'd rather be a home eating all the cookies I MADE. I even bought the ingredients.
"It's come to my attention you've not been doing to well in school." My mother speaks up. She hasn't spoken to me in days.
"I get straight B's mom." I"m flabbergasted, " I'll get by with that, why would you care?"
He expression changes to fury.
"I just want the best for my daughter." I've had enough of this!
"You've never gave a hope in hell about me! I've made my meals every single night, I remind myself to brush my teeth, I finish my homework without you having to attack me, I've done nothing but live piratically on my own since you and dad broke up!!!!!" I'm furious. How could she say that. "Did you know I got a tattoo?" I lifted my pant leg showing the dragon tattoo on my ankle.
I stormed out of the office without hearing he reply. How could she say that?!?!?! Time to got talk to my best friends, my blades tightly packed in my back pack.
Roger Rabbit by Sleeping with sirens jolts me awake. I bring my hands to my eyes and wipe. The sun gleams trough my curtains lighting the corner of the room bringing me back to reality.
Today's my first day back to hell. High School, the summer went by EXTREMELY slow, but I wish it would never end.
I climb out of bed and comb my birds nest I call my dark hair. My blue eyes stare into my reflection. If I wasn't so messed up, people would wonder why I wouldn't have a boyfriend. But lucky me I'm Emo as they call it. I would call it, depression, sickness, dying, the list goes on.
I slip on my outfit and head out the door not bothering with breakfast. My parents don't care what I do so I don't need to eat, keeping me a slim 103 pounds.(Not healthy)
Ready to begin torture I walk into my first class. All eyes we're on me as I walked to my seat.
The teacher wasn't here yet so I was stuck with the stares.
"What?!" I snapped as I watch their heads turn back to theirs books. Sure, they were actually studying. The pick up my pencil and finish a drawing I started yesterday but haven't has the time to finish it.
I'm not very good at drawing but I'm decent. I close my book as the teacher walks in giving us(students) the stink eye."I'm going to make this clear and I will only say it once, no kissing, slacking, idiotic remarks, snarky remarks, bad language, inappropriate language and please make sure you're home work is done on TIME!" She says in one breath.She begins the lesson with boring geography of Canada. I think I know where we live. I jot down some notes and doodle as the time passes by the time the bell rings my book is already pushed to the floor.
I bend down to pick it up only to be knocked over onto the floor with a thump.
"Next time I won't push, I'll punch." Some girl says. I mutter words under my breath and thankfully she didn't hear. I'm stronger than people think I am, I've been putting up with this shit for 6 years even at home. Next thing you know I'm being called to the office.
I walk with books and hand getting glares from strangers, even freshman who don't even know me glare sending a tingle up my spine.
I get to the office and sit in a waiting chair beside some guy with his black hoodie covering his face. Plugging my music in a stare into the abyss.
Waking up I see that everything is okay The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant, it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant, please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
This innocence is brilliant, it's so beautiful, it's so beautiful
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now, it makes me wanna cry
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
Read more: Avril Lavigne - Innocence Lyrics | MetroLyrics
The boy beside me touches my shoulder.
"I think I'm supposed to be here?" He questions me. I can't see his face nor his reaction to the snark reaction on my face. Who is this guy?
"Sorry, I don't talk to faceless people." I slip my ear bud back in only to have him pull it out again. He shows me a glimpse of his face and I shriek attracting attention. Liam Payne puts his hand over my mouth.
"Not a word okay?" He stares into my soul making my bones weak. Liam Payne is in front of me. Why would he be here? A little high school in Nova Scotia, Canada. It doesn't make sense for him to be in the lobster province. He removes his hand and covers his head once more.
"Do you know where you are?" I asked still confused.
"No shit I know where I am."
"I was just asking" I say in defense.
"You don't have to. Me and the boys took a boat from Paris, we landed here. I think were staying to study and were trying to find a school."
"I would go anywhere but here." I mumble hoping he didn't catch my mumble.
"Why not, seems like a good school, nice people, teacher, lots of extracurricular activities." He raises an eyebrow. I just duck my head and walk into the office.
Their sitting in the chair on the other side of the principle is my mother. Fuck, what is she doing here? She looks like she'd rather be a home eating all the cookies I MADE. I even bought the ingredients.
"It's come to my attention you've not been doing to well in school." My mother speaks up. She hasn't spoken to me in days.
"I get straight B's mom." I"m flabbergasted, " I'll get by with that, why would you care?"
He expression changes to fury.
"I just want the best for my daughter." I've had enough of this!
"You've never gave a hope in hell about me! I've made my meals every single night, I remind myself to brush my teeth, I finish my homework without you having to attack me, I've done nothing but live piratically on my own since you and dad broke up!!!!!" I'm furious. How could she say that. "Did you know I got a tattoo?" I lifted my pant leg showing the dragon tattoo on my ankle.
I stormed out of the office without hearing he reply. How could she say that?!?!?! Time to got talk to my best friends, my blades tightly packed in my back pack.
Notes
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