It has been six months since I had last told Niall my feelings. So much had changed. I had a boyfriend I could see myself marring, I only had two more treatments left since I asked them yo kick up the dosage. It was painful but I soon got used to it. I worked at a clothing store, and won a contest since Adam,my boyfriend entered me. (Look at characters I just added him.)

At the moment I was eating breakfast with Adam and I heard the door be knocked on. I slowly walked to the door stretching along the way to reveal Niall. I just stared at him for a while, until Adam broke the silence.
"Beautiful I have to go to work, I will see you normal time. I love you." He kissed me, and I replied
"I love you to the moon and back. Baby 6 right?"
"Yes. I will call you at lunch. Bye babe!" And he walked into the elevator.
I turned back to Niall and gestured for him to come in.
He sat down at the table and began fiddling with his fingers.
"Tea?" I asked. He gave me a simple nod showing his lifeless expression.
Once I placed the kettle over the stove, I sat back down.
"How have you been?" He spoke first with an shaky voice.
"Great actually! I have two more treatments left. I am so excited." I smiled warmly at him."what about you Ni?" I. Asked.
"Terrible really." He answered flatly.
"Why?" I asked coming to sit down closer to him.
"I have been drinking a lot, but not enough to make it addiction, Mary has been so clingy, and she just wants to rush everything. "
He answered looking at the wall.
I pulled him into my embrace, and he gave me the famous Horan hug.
I ushered him to the living room and got comfortable before letting him rest his head in my lap. I remember as kids we would sit in the tree house like this some times my head would b in his lap. This was almost our confession stance. The last confession he gave me was our deal.
••••••Flashback•••••••
Niall rested his head on my lap and was intertwining our fingers.
"Katie Bug?" He asked.
"Yes Ni?" I smiled playing with his hair.
"Well I want you to be my first. I don't want it to be some stranger. I want it to be you. Even if I am not going to marry you, I am going to keep this deal?" His blue orbs bored into me.
"If you break this Horan I swear." I smiled and brought my lips down to his.
"I love you Kathryn I always will. If I do ever marry someone else slap me and call me an idiot please." He laughed squeezing my hand.
"I don't know what I will do with out my snowflake." I laughed before kissing him again.
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I looked back down at Niall who looked like he had all this stuff bottled up inside of him.
"Ni, just tell me please. I can take it."
"Katie, I want to kill you for thinking I would let you go. And by me wanting to still be your first, I am pushing it because I remember that day. It meant the world to me. And now you can slap me and call me an idiot because it is not you up on that alter. I don't want it to be Mary anymore. I want it to be you. You wanna know why? Because I don't like seeing you with anyone else. And especially not someone who could take you away from me. Along these six months I thought to my self, why am I so possessive with you? It's because I love you Katie. More than you know. To be honest I never stopped. Kathryn I love you." He spoke now crying.

I let a tear trail down my face. Niall sat up and I sat in his lap facing him.
"Niall James Horan. I thought I would never hear those words again. I want to kill my self too. And I will slap you and call you an idiot because well I want to. And you have no idea how much I was begging you silently to come here, and tell me Mary wasn't the one you wanted to marry. I am possessive over you too so feel weird. If I do want to keep this deal how do you and I keep it from Mary and Adam?" I huffed out linking my arms around his neck.
"Haven't you heard the song they don't know about us? Nobody has to know." He smiled and pulled my face closer to his.
" does this mean I have my Snowflake back?" I asked.
"Only if I can have my Katie bug." He smiled.
"Well than we can have each other back then." I smiled kissing him. No matter how wrong it was, it was so right.

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