I raise my eyebrow at Niall as I clear my throat, "is there something that you want, Niall?"

Niall shakes his head a bit as if he's trying to clear his head of something. When he stops he gives me a cold hard stare.

"Simon wants us back at our house so we won't be distracting the competitors."

I look back at Cody and give him a shy smile then I walk way from him towards the door. I completely don't acknowledge Niall's existence as we make our way towards our house. It just irritates me so much. I need a smoke, badly.

After we make it in the house I quickly make my way into my room and lock the door. I walk towards my luggage I opened up the tiny zipper and retrieved one perfectly rolled joint. I dug around for my lighter for a bit before I could fill it on the tips of my fingers. I put the joint in between my lips. I struck the light and held it to the tip and inhaled letting the smoke fill up lungs, then I slowly exhaled. Feeling instantly relaxed I kept smoking until their wasn't really anything to smoke left.

I slightly opened my bedroom window and opened my bathroom door and turning on the fan to get rid of the smoke. I heard a knock on the door and I snap my attention towards it, if it is Simon I'm royal screwed. I slowly approached the door before I opened it I asked who was there.

"It's Niall, let me in El."

My heart clenched when he called El it reminded me when we were dating. I would be lying to myself if I said I didn't miss calling Niall mine.

I unlocked the door and opened up the door. Niall was holding some crisps in his hand he turned the bag where I could grab some. Which I did since crisps sound very good at the moment.

"You know that you're going to have to do a better job of getting that smell out, opening windows and turning on the fan isn't helping." He said as he leaned on my door frame.

"I'm not really worried about getting the smell out it should be gone in an hour."

I turned and walked to my bed to sit on. There was an awkward silence for a certain period of time before Niall spoke again.

"You shouldn't be flirting with an contestant like that." Niall said in a monotone voice.

"For your information I wasn't the one flirting, also I could if I wanted to. You shouldn't care either way you were the one who broke up with me! You remember that niall."

"Just because I broke up with you doesn't mean I don't care about you. "

what Niall said caught me off guard, but I quickly recover from it, "oh yeah, I'm sorry, I'll put it into better words for you. You just didn't love me anymore"

Just saying that myself broke my heart again. The feeling of someone that you love that doesn't love you back is the worse feeling. You just feel like when they did say that they loved you it was never true. Maybe Niall didn't actually love me, I was just his first girlfriend he needed that first phase to be over with.

"Fuck you, Elliot." Niall snapped before he turned to walk away.

What's up his ass, I was only speaking the truth.

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"Kenna I don't know what was up with him, he's acting like he's still my boyfriend. " I whined to my best friend.

"Eli, maybe he's still in love with you!" She screeched I had to pull the phone away from my ear so my Kennedy didn't make my ears bleed.

"Earth to Kenna, Niall couldn't be in love with me, he broke up with me." I said in a 'duh' tone.

"You don't know that E! Go flirt with him and stuff maybe you guys could be FWBs."

"That's actually not a bad idea. Niall is a really good shag. Haven't had a good shag in a while, but the problem is how do I get him to want me in that way." I complained once again.

"Don't worry El, Kenna has a plan for you."

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