*Samantha's P.O.V:*

Its been two weeks since I've lost my baby, two weeks since I've spoken a word, two weeks since I've left my apartment, two weeks since I've shared a smile or laugh with someone, two weeks since I've actually felt happy. I guess I have been coping with everything; Harry phoned the same day I woke up and he tried his best to comfort me, explaining to me that he can't be here because of the tour. But that's the thing I don't understand, management won't even allow him to come to London for two days just to be with his girlfriend who lost their baby and almost died too? I needed Harry, I really did, and he knew. He's been trying; phoning, face timing, messaging non stop, but I never reply or answer to him. I won't break up with him, but I do need time, and I hope he understands and gives me that at least. But it won't be a problem, seeing that he won't be back for another 2 and a half months. I get up from bed to follow my daily routine; Take a shower, Eat breakfast, Go back to sleep, Wake up again, Go eat again, Watch television (or at least try) for 5 minutes, Lay in bed and cry, Go to sleep. I really don't even feel the need to do something else so I'm fine with this routine. The girls have been trying to get me out of the house but I never reply nor answer the door when they come to my apartment, I prefer it this way. To be alone is better. I don't need sympathy from anyone. I was the one that lost my baby. I was the one that took the life of the small creature growing inside of me, the one thing I can't get back. I hated myself for it. It might have been a shock to me to be pregnant, but I really did want this baby, even if I wasn't married, I still loved Harry with every part of my being. And I still love him, with everything I have in me. I would have been better if he was here. Sometimes, I wonder if he's hurt too, I wonder if he wanted the baby too, I wonder if he even thinks about the loss we faced. The lost of a small being which was formed by me and him. What a miracle.

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