Dreading to be happy

I throw my hoodie over my head trying to ignore Kira and Jake as they talk in a huge group by Heatas room.

"Where do you think your goin?"Jake says with a evil grin,I start to speed walk and he slams me into the lockers beside me, caging me in between his arms.He starts to rub his body against mine and as he literally holds my ass I yelp.

"Let me go you fucking bitch!"I said pushing him away but he keeps on bouncing back.

"Never."Jake whispers in my ear and starts to kiss my neck.As I tear up I hear a voice yell.

"Hey Jake get your nasty hands off of her!"Some one yells and I look over and its Zayn ?Why is he helping me Mr.Popular...
Zayn walks up to us stand between us and pushes him off of me while jake waddles around for a bit Zayn punches his eye and he falls to the floor.Wow if he can't stand a little eye punch like that he should stay at my house a night!

"Come on bro we where just playing around!"Jake says holding his throbbing eye.I just stand there in shock.Why is Zayn just now helping me? I mean he could have done that back in 9th grade! When it started happening but I'm not having a problem with its just abnormal for anyone to help me but De.

"ya holding her ass is totally playing around get out of my face you bastard."Zayn says rudely Zayn stomps his foot and Jake shuffles his feet and jogs away towards the office.I just stand there and Zayn turns my way so I can make eye contact with his pretty brown eyes.

"Are you okay?"Zayn asked me nicely with a grin.

"Ya I'm fine thanks."I said to him whiping a tear away.

"Welcome I just can't stand him I can't believe he can just do that to girls,"Zayn says with a mad tone in his voice.

"I can't stand him anymore...,you didn't have to help me."I said to him swinging my bags over my shoulder and I fix my sweat shirt and I cross my arms.

"Well I just can't let that happen, well I better get to class see you around. Eliza."He says smiling and walking into Mrs.Heatas class.I think it took him a minute to remember my name but oh well.
I go to my locker and I put in my combo and I put all my unneeded things in there and I slam the locker door and I head to *bell rings* well Mr.Knowltons room.My history teacher.I walk across the hall into his room and sit in the back corner as always while Knowlton is writing on the board saying "I will learn the World wars 1 and 2."

"You're late Miss.Jones."He says turning around looking at me setting down the chalk.

"Im sorry my car broke down on 31."I said telling a lie with students looking at me funny.Mainly Jakes friends who saw zayn go off on him in the hall.

"Okay well you are lucky I've haven't sent the attendance sheet."He says waddling back to his macbook and typing in my name I'm guessing.I bring out my notebook and I doodle as usual.I have a A or Bs in every class if I hear it i know it.So I guess I'm smart.I draw some anime girl I just randomly thought of and the bell rings.I pick up my bag and I walk behind some slow , talking people and I get to the stair well i take up to Mr.Lords room my math teacher.I get there and i sit in the back again.I sit next to Delih and I told her about this morning drama of mine.

"Girl i would have smacked him to fuckin Asia, what a fucking Ass hole and Zayn helped you?"She says with her sarcastic voice.

"Ya surprise right?Zayn just popped out of no where."I said to her.

"Huh weird maybe he finally felt bad?"She said making me feel terrible.

"I don't know but at least he did it that all that matters I guess."I turn towards the board and I already know what we are doing.Its freaked like middle school stuff!Just graphing and shit.


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Nothing really else happen today ,just a normal day almost.I get on the bus and I sit in the back alone.I get out my Galaxy 5s and I plug my ear phones inside it and I jam out to collar full by panic of the disco.

We waited so damn long
where sick and tired
I wound leave any doubt
or stone unturned...

As it gets close to the corset I feel the seat press down,making me jump and look at the person quickly.Its Zayn?
He takes one of my ear phones and his face lights up like no one else.

"I love tho song!"He says to me liping along to it.

"I do too its my fave song by them."I said to him and he takes my phone scrolls through it and he clicks on Centuries by Fall out boy.

"You have really good music on here."He says and the bus starts to move making us jerk forwards.

"Um thanks I guess."I say awkwardly take my phone back.

"So tell me some things about you?"He asked and we pull up to Abbys house a friend of kiras.

"Um I barely know you ."I say harshly.

"Come on, tell me some things maybe we can have things in common."He says.

"Um well I love music kinda noticeable,I love to write and draw,I love youtube ,anime and thats really it..."I said and he just looks real interested in me all the sudden its kind of scary.Who paid or dared you to talk to me?Like tell me now!

"Honestly I love all the same things but youtube and I watch some anime..."He says and I just grin a bit cause I don't want to look to depressed even though I'm under depression.

"Awesome whats your fav artist in music?"I asked him back on the first subject we where on and he gives a huge thought on it.

"Um really anyone to be honest."He says and the next song pops up."She looks so perfect 5sos."I turn it to my songs know what you did in the dark(light em up) by fall out boy.Cause I figured he didn't want to listen to 5sos,even though there the shit I'm loving at the moment.

I look to see where we are at and I'm next stop.

"Can you let me off at next stop?"I asked nicely.

"Ya sure."He says fixing his awesome varsity coat.

"Thanks."I said putting my phone in my bag and I swing my bag around my shoulder,and the bus stops and zayn gets up and lets me off.

"Bye Eliza."He says.

"Bye."I said to him with a smile.I still don't understand why would he talk to me and be so nice.Like what is up with him today did some one give him like weed or some thing he has to be high or drunk of some sort.No popular just talks to me and yet nice.
I look up to see my dad not here again.Hes such a horrible parent,if I got pregnant he probably wouldn't care...Or hit by a truck ,he still-- would not care.I unlock my house I throw my stuff on the couch and I go to the kitchen to get my Arizona lemonade I bought at some american food store.I sip on the heaven of a drink and turn on Tv to see whats on.I go to 266 to see Flipping Vegas.I click on it and I watch through like 8 of them its one of my fav shows.

I go to my room grab my laptop and I slide on my pjs on and I go back out to the living room.I go on Facebook to see like 28 notifications.I click on it and its about random things mainly,after going through those I get on youtube next and watch pewdiepies old prop hunt vids and some Uhohbro. I watch through those laughing my butt of at pewdiepie I hear car doors slam.Uh oh...I shut my laptop shut and i grab my stuff and run to my room and shut the door an lock it.I hear the front doors slam open and I hear foot steps wondering over here.

"Liz why is the dishes not cleaned you fucking slave, do what you are told!"He says banging on the door.

"You never told me too shut up you bitch!"I yell to him.I hate him so much.Why do I even call him dad.Hes not even a parent he's just like there.


"watch you're mouth young lady come out of that room right now before I bust you're door down!"He yells at me and still banging on my door.
Ya you can tell he's wasted just the tone he's specking in and I smell ether moonshine or weird smelling beer.

"No !Im not coming out of this fucking room!"I yell at him slowly walking over to a knife I have just in case and I used to self harm when my mom died,But now I see no point really thanks to Uhohbro.

"Fine what ever I'm going out again cause I don't feel like arguing with you bye cunt!"I hear him yell in the distant and slam the front door.I sigh and i put my laptop on the floor and I just lay down and slowly drift to a dark sleep.

-brittany the redhead <3

Notes

There i tried again lol well I will be updating probs a lot so stick around!