I didn´t know if I was ready to talk about Niall with James so I told him if he could leave Ethel and I a moment alone. He accepted and went outside of my room, I had to say thanks to him for being some comprehensive.

When I was alone with Ethel I told her all the story and even showed her the pictures, the video and all the tweets, she seemed as shocked as me.
"Oh Emma, I thought they were only rumors! but the pictures talk a lot" she hugged me and tried to calm me down.
"I don´t know what to do Eth, I feel so hurt, sad and angry all at the same time"
"Have you talked to him"
"No, I tried but he´s avoiding me. I´ve alredy called to his phone and also called him via skype, but as I told you he know what he has done and he´s avoiding me now"
"Why don´t you try again? give him the opportunity to explain you everything"
"I think you might have a point, but if he doesn´t answer this time, I swear I won´t forgive him and now would be MY turn to avoid him" Ethel looked at me with a worried look as I dialed Niall´s number, I guees she was hoping he would answer. I waited and againg found myself disappointed. I was done with this.
The last call was more painful that I´ve expected. I reached for Ethel and hugged her again, she just played with my hair just the way Niall did, with the thought of that I hugged her more and cried again.

Ethel conviced my to take a walk, so we went outside for some fresh air and also to look for James. The campus was beautiful and I was really happy to have Ethel by my side. After walking for some time we found James sitting on a bench near to a green area, he seemed alone and bored. We walked towards him and whe he looked at us he got up to reach us. I wasn´t sure about forgiving him yet, but he was being really nice and reserved. When we were together he hugged us and said "Like the old times", that was very sweet from him, all of a sudden I remebered all the times we used to spend together we were really good friends, I´ve missed this so much. Then he asked Ethel if he could leave us alone to talk and she accepted, I tried to keep her there because I wasn´t ready to talk to James alone.
"Emma I was really dumb and an idiot when I kissed you at the park, I am really sorry for what I did and I really need your forgiveness, please Emma forgive me" now he was kinf of kneeling on the groud I started blushing and asked him to get up, but he was waiting for an answer, so meny pictures were coming to my head, all the times we were together, all the nights that he helped me to study, all the ice creams, all the times he was there for me and Ethel. God I´ve had missed him so much. I wanted to tell him everything.
"Yes James I forgive you, please don´t be that jerk again" he got up laughing and hugged me, he lifted me off the ground, he seemed really happy, that was the first time I smiled and even laughed in that awful day.

I spent the rest of the day with my two best friends, unfortunately Ethel had to go back to London the other day, but James offered himself to stay with me a week. I felt more comfortable with the idea of someone staying with me through this rough days, I had to start again and try to forget about all the time with Niall, it was going to be hard but I had James by my side and I knew fore sure that he would never hurt me again.

After a week of being together me and James were really close to each other, I was really grateful to have him here, I still had Niall on my head but I found myself thinkig about him less than I´ve expected. The classes had already started and that kept me distracted too. Niall called me day and night but I rejected all of them. James was so comprehensive and even when I told him about Niall cheting on me, he comforted me and he never mention him telling me that he had warned me, he was the old James and I was really happy to have him back.
One night he invited dinner, I was free to leave uni just for a few hours, so he invited me out. We had a perrfect time together, the night was magical. I wanted to keep James in my life so bad. When we returned to the uni, he left me at my bedroom door but I wasn´t ready to say good bye, so I pulled him inside my room. We weren´t allowed to have boys at our bedrooms but no one saw so technically he wasn´t here.
"I want you to stay here, by my side" I told him once we were inside. He looked really happy with that idea and suddenly I found that he was really close to me, I could feel his cinnamon breath on my lips, akward.
I tried to look away but I couldn´t, that was were I felt his soft lips against mine. I was so confused but I kissed him back, I closed my eyes. I felt him closer and closer and I wanted to keep it going, I reached for his blonde hair and he pulled me closer with his strong arms, I´ve missed him so bad and I was really angry with him because he cheated on me, I felt tears on my cheeks. Wait a second.... I opened my eyes, I pushed him away, that wasn´t Niall that was James. He looked at me really confused and worried because I was crying, I was more confused I could swear that I was kissing Niall.
I felt dizzy and I couldn´t think of anything else but ask James to leave, he looked at me as I opened the door for him, he left.
I stayed sitting where the door crying and begging for Niall to come back to me, I felt so alone and empty.

Notes

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Emma has serious problems right now :0