Self Control

Sabrina's p.o.v
I sighed as I remembered what she told me. It was unbelievable! Wow, instead of normal everything turns more twisted then before. I can't believe I didnt knew anything. I feel like a monster now... so selfish. She didnt deserve all that, she was so hurt but still she never said a thing to me. Instead she protected me, became a grown up for me.

Flashback
"Mum died and everything changed. He started drinking more and more and with that the abuse started too. I had to be careful every single time, it hurt. It hurt to know that he had become like that... a sick bastard. One night... O-one night he c-came home l-late and drunk and s-started to..." She stopped and took a deep breath.


"H-he started to talk a-about how I w-was a bad g-girl and t-that her would p-punish me" She started My eyes widened as I took the information in. Oh god no... Please dont tell me he...

"Angie h-he didnt 'touch' you did he" I asked and she flinched. I froze! Had she been r-raped? Oh god, Angie

"No" She said putting her hands on her ears "No, no, no, I stopped him before he could... I stopped him" She said over and over but somehow I knew she was telling that to herself. What... what did you do Angie? What did you do?

"Angie... Please tell me, what did you do?" I asked and she looked away

"I- I cant you'll hate me and I... I cant have that. I cant lose my sister" She said shaking her head. It broke my heart. It broke it to pieces. She was so hurt, so broken but I still...

"I would never do that Angie... Even if I would want to hate you I cant. You are too important... You are my sister and I love you Angie! Remember the promise? We will be together forever" I said smiling slightly the tears falling from my eyes now too...

"My sister" She said smiling "I... I killed him" She whispered scared. I can't believe it. I was so blind...I couldnt even see my own sister. I went to her and pulled her on a hug.

"Im so sorry" I said again and again "Im so so sorry" I continued as I felt her tears falling down.

"W-why?" She asked

"You were always there for me! I cant find one time you weren't. You were... All these years you took care of me I ignored the pain hidden in your eyes. Im so sorry I was so selfish... I really am but... I promise you" I said and I ended the hug making her to look at me "I promise you that this time... This time I wont be scared. This time I will fight with you because I want to protect my big sister" I said seeing her smile. It made my heart flutter. She is my dearest family... my only family. I cant and wont lose her

I could see she was exhausted and I knew it. I helped her up to her room and stayed there near my sister... this time I will protect you Angie I promise

End of flashback

I looked up to see she was finally asleep. I smiled before throwing a blanked around her making sure she was warm. I made my way downstairs only to wince when a scream was heard.

I arrived to the kitchen to find Harry and Niall fighting for... a piece of cake?!

"Shut up" I snapped and they turned around to look at me surprised.

"What?" They asked disbelief written in their faces

"Shut it... Angie is finally asleep and if you wake her up I promise... I swear I will take that gun that is supposedly hidden beneath the table and will shoot your brains out . Well at least those little brain cells that live in that head full of air of yours" I said growling before getting out of there leaving them staring like idiots

I started walking in one direction not really knowing where to go. The only people I have are inside that house and right now I will suffocate if i go near it.

I groaned as I was suddenly pushed into a wall in an alley. I looked up and sighed tired. There stood Michael and... Luke? Yes thats it Luke! But this time they were with two other guys.

"Oh great! More idiots, just my luck" I said shaking my head . I looked up to see that one was about to talk. Michael He was glaring at me but I couldnt take it anymore

"Yeah, yeah I know the routine. I will be a good girl and you wont break a bone or 'kill' me. I will answer your questions and then you will give me a threat to give to Harry about how you will make him suffer and then another one about how you will make me suffer and how next time I will be dead and blah blah blah... Im not in the mood" I said pushing Michael out of the way and started walking only to be pushed again on the wall by another guy

I heard a wince and soon found out it was mine. He had pushed me into a part of the wall that was destroyed and a piece of wood that was near had cut through my skin. I looked at the blood blankly not even caring anymore. This was nothing... just nothing. I wont cry anymore, I wont beg, I wont guilty others I will just stop.

"Well, well you have gained a back bone havent you" Luke stated making me look at him lazily

"Well when you are surrounded by psycho-criminals like you, you just take the habit" I said not even flinching when a punch was shot near my head.

"Do you have a death wish today sweet-heart" Asked a black haired guy

"Just like any other say" I started fake-smiling

"You are coming with us. But first how is Harry's little girlfriend, she was hot" Luke said making me look at him

"Thanks but you are not my type." I said knowing he had no idea what i meant

"What?" He asked as looked at him bored

"You heard me I am great except the fact Im not a dog or harry's property so you can stop acknowledging me as Harry's girlfriend Im Sabrina." I said as they looked at me like I was crazy

"No... Angie is Harry's girlfriend not you" Luke said slowly like he was talking to a kindergarten child making me sigh

"No I'm harry's girlfriend, Why? Didnt you hear the latest news? Im surprised as to why... oh i remember now Its NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS" I said making my way out of their created circle.

As Michaels hand came to prevent me from leaving, it was suddenly caught by another hand and I was pushed behind someone. I looked up and saw Harry and Niall standing protectively in front of me. I sighed shaking my head annoyed

"Great more people why dont we just throw a party since we are here" I said sarcastically getting the attention of 6 glaring pair of eyes

"Sabrina you ok?" Asked Niall as I nodded

"What the hell were you thinking? We cant be always there to save you. Stop being such a troublesome brat" Harry screamed completely ignoring the 4 boys he had just turned his back to. I wouldnt do that they looked ticked off... now i wonder why?

"Wow thanks just the perfect words for the perfect day from the 'perfect' boyfriend" What can I ask more in this world" I said sarcasm dripping out of my voice like venom

"Whats wrong with you?" Asked he eyeing me carefully before seeing the big gash that was still bleeding on my side

"What did you do to her?" Niall growled and turned to them Harry the same "What did you do to m-I mean Harry's girl" Niall corrected quickly making me roll my eyes

"Nothing she was just being too much of a smart ass you know how it is dont you Horan?" Asked Luke before turning to Harry looking at him with disbelief

"Really her? She is your girlfriend? What about Angie? This here is like... man did you hit your head? She is small, little, no idea how to fight, annoying, innocent and did I say fucking annoying again?" Asked Luke making me growl

"Yeah i can hear... And look at that I just found the second Harry Styles can this day be any freaking better. Now the best thing that can happen is for me to blown to pieces" I screamed to the sky making them watch weirdly at me

"Well i can fix that' Michael said coming near only to be pushed my Niall and Harry putting me behind him this time. He glared daggers at me. I sighed I was so much better behind Niall

"Stay away from her Luke" Harry said and his voice was dripping with anger and even an idiot would know he was dangerous now at the moment. Well talk about an overprotective brother... I mean boyfriend... Man im not good with this things

"Oh dont worry I dont care about that brat" He said making me glare at him "Not my type" He said

"You have a type?" I threw back as he glared at me

"I have someone ill make mine though." He said as he took a photo of... Angie? My eyes widened as I did something I thought I would never do.

I took the gun from Niall's belt and directed to him. Behind me the guys took out theirs too together with Luke and his man

"What are you doing Sabrina?" Harry snapped but i ignored him

"Listen I dont care what you do to me or this two idiots but I swear if Angie gets hurt even once again I promise to god that I will find a way to make you suffer slowly and painfully" I said before taking the picture of Angie from luke and throwing the gun at harry.

"I want to go home" I said as I started my way to his car putting my headphone on at the fullest. Im so tired of this bullshit. I went inside of the car as the boys followed but by the looks of it when we are home Im so going to get screamed at... A LOT.

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Angie's p.o.v

I woke up as I heard screaming down the stairs. It was Sabrina and Harry I wonder whats happening. He better not have done something to her or I swear to god... I stopped in my tracks as I heard what they were screaming about... what SHE was saying

"What the hell were you thinking Sabrina? Taking the gun like that and threatening a whole gang do you even know how dangerous they are?" He said but she looked like she could care less. In fact she was staring at her nails?

"Yup I did... get over it" She said and I flinched at the tone of her voice. It was so emotionless, so cold, so not-Sabrina. Whats going on?

"I cant get over it, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?" Harry screamed annoyed and took her shoulder shaking her. I heard her wince and my eyes went over the gash on her side. I let a gasp escape as I saw it... it was bleeding but they didnt seem to see it. Sabrina what have you done?

"SHUT UP" She finally snapped and my eyes widened. The way she was looking at Harry was full of hate like another Sabrina i didnt knew "You dont know a thing. Not one fucking thing. I know what i did, ok? You want to know the truth I'll tell you the truth. I have always been like this." She said and i looked at her confused. She had yet too see i was there

"Innocent? Me? Please! Let me tell you something. Since the day I have met Angie all I thought was her PROTECTING me Im NOT INNOCENT IM A FUCKING LIAR. Then you and Niall came I did the same. You are my shields. I used you. Im selfish. You know its been 2 years I live with Angie but I still didnt knew about her past? Do you? Two years of ignoring the pain in her eyes... Two years of backing from it scared that I would be hurt. And now..." She took a deep breath as a few tears escaped her eyes

"Now... I saw her almost dead, broken and so hurt. I-I dont know what i am supposed to do. H-how can I make it better? How c-can I tell her that im with her? How can I... How can I change? I want... I w-want to be strong. I want to be able to protect her too. I want to... I need too" She said falling in the ground hugging herself. My vision blurred with tears as I came out of my hiding place

"Ill train you...Ill teach you how to fight" I said as they both turned too look at me with shock.

"Really?" She asked hopefully as i nodded smiling lightly. She was about to raise up when suddenly her eyes closed and she was falling. Shit the gash... She has lost too much blood... She had fainted

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