Half a Heart

The next moring I woke up, showered and got ready for my doctor's appointment. They had me take a blood test at the beginning of the week so today I was going to find out what was going to

happen next to me. I heard a knock just as I was putting on my tank top so I threw it on and ran to the door looking out the peep hole I saw that it was Elenour. I unlocked the door and let her in

"hey" "hey what are you doing here?" "Zayn said today was your appointment, he sent me to accompany you since him and the boys have school." "oh well ok" I went back into my room and found my

black and white t-shirt and my dark red skinny jeans after I was done I sprayed alittle perfume on and went to get my shoes which were my favorite pair of toms. When I was ready I grabbed my

jacket and we head out to Elenour's car, we drove in silence and even when we were waiting in the waiting room we didn't speak much, she knew how upset I was and so she just left me alone

"Kristin Simpson" I stood up and so did Elenour we walked back to one of the rooms and were told the doctor would be in soon. "El I don't want you to tell the boys, I want to tell them myself" "ok

that's fine" we waited another fifteen minutes and then the doctor came in the room, "Hello Miss Simpson how are you" "ok, what's the result of my test say?" "it came back positive" I was in shock I

was screaming in my head but I wasn't screaming out loud "Miss Simpson did you hear what I said? your pregnant" I looked at Elenour who looked back at me. I stood up and walked out leaving the

doctor and Elenour still in the room, I walked to the elevator and stepped inside and the next thing I knew I was in my mom's room sitting beside her. "hey mom it's me Kristin, look I know you

probably can't hear me but i'm pregnant.. those bastards got me pregnant, I wish you could talk to me because I don't know what to do...I have to decide weither to keep you on a machine or take

you off and let you die?" I had tears going down both of my cheeks and landing in my lap,"mama I've never needed you as much as I need you now" I got up and climbed into her bed next to her. I

layed there liked that until I heard a knock on the door and in walked Elenour. "Kristin i thought you'd be here" "I can't do this anymore,what am I suppose to do without her my whole life she has

taken care of me and now I don't have anyone here now." "that's where your wrong, you have me and Zayn and the rest of the boys we all are going to stand behind you and take care of you, but

you have to trust us Kristin" "so what your saying is to let my mom die because you guys love me more?" "no what i'm trying to say is you make the decision and will back you up I promise we aren't

going to be like your father Kristin will actually care about what you have to say." I glanced down out my mom and back up at Elenour and then broke down and started crying but then realized I

needed Zayn with me, "Elenour I need Zayn..and the other boys" "ok I'll go and call them to come to the hospital." About thirty minutes later they were filling in the room and one at a time they

were hugging me and then when it was Zayn's turn I threw myself into his arms and cried all the while he just kept me close to his chest. I pulled away finally to look at him and the others, "guys I

can't keep my mom on a machine and I know she wouldn't want this..I have to let her go but I'm going to need help because well, I'm pregnant.. those creeps got me pregnant and now i'm losing my

mom and this is just really hard to deal with right now." The boys were angrey and sad at the time and I just sat down by my mom when Liam stood up and came to wrap me into a big bear hug

and the other boys came and gathered around me right as the doctor walk into the room. " Ah I was hoping to catch you here, as you know your mom still has no brain activity and we can't keep her

on a machine because of that." "I know doctor and I think that i'm ready to let her go now" "right now? are you sure about that..." "Yes i'm positive about this" "ok, shut it off now if that's ok with

you?" I looked into Zayn's eyes and I didn't notice I was crying until Zayn reached over and wipped a tear away "go ahead doctor" "do you have someone that you can live with?" this time Elenour

spoke up "yes she'll be staying with me" "ok" He flipped a switch and then she was gone and I couldn't believe what I had dont...I felt like I had killed my mom but I knew I hadnt done that to her

someone else had. I took her hand into mine and began to cry " goodbye mama...I love you so much, I wish we hadn't had all the fights and I wish everyday I woke up and kissed you and told you

that I loved you..but I didn't and I know you knew I loved you. Goodbye"

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