Half a Heart

Elenour and I had went to get the little bit of items we needed for Elenor Rose and Mabel Elizabele which included:lots of diapers warmer clothes (since Elenour got summer clothes instead of winter) ,bathe stuff and plenty of pacifiers and bottles, we also had gotten a breast pump so that I could breast feed easier.
So today was the day we went and picked them up and I was super excited to take care of them, we arrived at the hospital I had a baby carrier and ELenour had the other when I walked in and saw my babies out of the incubators and ready for me I smiled and grabbed Mabel and Elenour grabbed Elenor i'm guessing that Elenour's favorite was going to be Elenor because she is named after her.
we left and got them in the car and decied since the boys were at the local recording studio we would go for a visit.
When we got there again I grabbed Mabel and Elenour grabbed Elenor, I was so excited to see Zayn hold the twins and to see the other boys with them, we were rounding a corner when I saw Zayn and a blond girl...the next thing I know he was leaning over kissing her
"What!!!!" he heard me loud and clear because he turned around
"Kristin..it's not what you think I promise"
"yea you don't know what a promise is Zayn"
I looked at him with hot tears stinging my eyes and threatining to spill over but just as they did I turned around and walked out with Elenour right beside me.
As me Elenour were getting in and belting up Zayn was running out after me
"Elenour do not stop for him keep going I just want to go home"
"you got it Love"
she sped past Zayn with him waving his arms around and yelling to me.. I could hear what he was saying but chose not to listen to his words because it was like a poison to me
I hung on his every word and now this, did he even love me, did it mean something to him that I had given myself to him without him asking?
We arrived home just as the twins started crying.
"El will you help me with them"
"sure just tell me what you want me to do and I'll do it."
"thanks"
We got in and El helped me change their diapers then I breast feed them and held them for awhile crying as I did so.
seeing Zayn with her made me sad because it seemed like he was throwing me away..what I had my twins and now I'm nothing to him.
I put that a side as I was laying Mabel in her crib so I could rock Elenor some more, I heard a knock on the door and Elenour open it
"El let me see her"
"Zayn that's not a good idea"
"why not"
"Zayn she watched you kiss another girl that's why"
"El please"
"Zayn no she is already upset as it is and I don't want her crying all over again just because she stopped crying a little bit ago"
by this time I was tired of hearing Zayn's mouth so I put Elenor in her crib and went to the bottom of the stairs to look down at him.
"Kristin"
He said while pushing his way to me but Elenour was stopping him in his tracks.
"you need to leave right now Zayn I don't want to talk to you at the moment"
"let me explain"
"whats there to explain"
"Kristin management told me I was to carry a fake realtionship out with that girl, they put me under a contract it's not my fault."
I stood there and just looked at him why would they do that, that was cruel to make someone be in a relationship with someone they don't even know let alone someone that they don't love.
"Don't they know you have a girlfriend Zayn?"
"yes but they thought we would get more publisety if they put me and her together considering she was put into a girl band on the X-Factor too they said..."
"that's the thing Zayn you are listening to what they say instead of fighting for us, Zayn we were together before any of this and now your listening to what they say"
"Kristin it's not my choice if I said no then they wouldv'e broke up the band and said there was no One Direction"
I thought about it for a moment, and I knew what I had to do. If Zayn wasn't going to fight for us then I will have to do it myself.
"I'll be back El can you watch the twins while I run enrrand"
"uh sure"
"don't worry El there's breast milk in the regrigerator I pumped earlier and Zayn you stay put and help"
Before they could say anything I grabbed my keys and purse and headed to talk to the one person I had a problem with I went to go find Simon Conwell to give him a piece of my mind.

Notes

Ok Loves I've had a lot of people ask me to update so here you guys go I hope you enjoy it and give me your feedback oh and if it's not what you wanted i'm sorry but I felt I needed to put more action in it.