Imagine with Ashton

Dear Ashton,
I miss you so much.
I wish you wouldn't be so angry at me. I'll never forgive myself for letting you slip away, for not being so bold and tell you everything that was on my mind. I love you so fucking much, please Ash.
I know I should've come with you when you asked me instead of breaking up with the most amazing person alive. Now I'm living in hell, my life doesn't have a purpose since you've gone.
Day by day I'm slowly breaking down, and I'm not sure if I'm going to make it any longer. Possibly, this message is going to be my last.
I've been trying so long, so long Ashton, to apologise and show you that I'm truly sorry, and it's killing me more than anything to know that to all those messages I've sent, you didn't bother to reply.
I put my heart and soul in this, because I really can't forget you, I can't even stop thinking about you a single second. Every day I spend a good part of my time looking at your pictures, your videos from the concerts that you’re currently at.
Seemingly you're having a lot of fun and you don't seem like you miss me at all. But as long as you're happy I am either, even if it's without me.
Memories of you and I together will always live in my head, I'll never forget our cute moments, silly jokes, your adorable laugh that still gets me every time even though you're not here.
I miss it so much now, I miss that smile of yours that never failed to brighten my day and keep me alive.
God dammit, Ashton, it's been three months.
Please answer me, for God's sake. How am I supposed to live without my other half of heart? How? It's killing me Ash, it hurts so much, I don't know about you, but for me being without you is worse than a death alone.
Just like I've said this is my last message for you, I got tired Ash, this is sucking the life out of my body. And if you decide not to answer me, like you didn't to bunch of my previous messages, I'll understand, and respect your decision. That will particularly mean that we are over, forever.
I better send this already, it's destroying me.
I know you read my messages, you just don't want to answer, and although it hurts, I want you to never forget me, no matter what you decide, just don't forget me Ash, because if you do that will be the worst punishment for me.
I loved, love and will always love you.
Sincerely yours,
Ryleigh.

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My beloved Ryleigh,
you're right when you say that I was reading your every message. Yes, I did.
And I’ve been miserably trying to forget about you, to forget about us. But every time I tried, it was worse, every single second spent with you would revive in my head and play over, and over again.
You know that we’ve never been in a fight before, and this breakup just knocked me out.
I missed you too Ry, I missed you like the Sun misses the Moon, like the desert misses the rain.
I love you too much that I can’t even imagine my life without you next to me.
We have things to fix babe, so, I sent you this ticket to NYC and you can come over if you still want.
I don’t want us to suffer anymore, we’ve tried to get over each other, but it didn’t work out, so I think it’s not meant for us to be apart.
I’m sorry what I put you through those three months, I can’t wait to see and hug you. I’ll never let you go, ever again.
See you soon,
lots of love,
Ashton.

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