Ade – No I will never forgive you! STOP following me ! S-stop !

Jenny – Ade wake up ! Ade !!! WAKE UP ! slap

Ade – W- what ? Why did you slap me ?

Jenny – You had a nightmare, again! Well it wasn't really a nightmare.. just something you don't like.

Ade – Gosh I cried ? * wipes a few tears away *

Jenny – Yea .. it's the third time you have the same dream, what's up ?

Ade – I don't know.. I thought I was over it but in the past days I saw so many adverts and stuff about 'em that I guess the whole memories come back. I miss him. I just miss my best friend and I want him back.. as my friend ! Is that too much to ask for ?
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*Jenny came closer and pulled me into a tight hug. She is the only one who understands all of this. I wish that I'd stop caring about him and how he's doing because he doesn't care 'bout me but I can't. I still hope that I can talk to him for the last time and ask him a few things. *
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Jenny – Hey Ade, I got something for you ! She ran down the stairs with something in her hand

Ade – What is it ? I asked curious

Jenny – I got backstage tickets .. . . .

Ade – foooooor ?

Jenny – One Direction :S I'm sorry but you have to go !
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*I stood there emotionless I was totally shocked ! Why did she do this ? I can't go *
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Ade – WHY? I Mean why did you get these and WHY THE HEL DO I HAVE TO GO!

They're giving me nothing but problems ! I already have nightmares Jenny I don't want it to get worse !

Jenny – Calm down Ade! she whispered I want you to go there and you will go there!

You are always running from your problems but this time you won't ! Don't worry I'll be coming with you and after you two talked everything will get better I promise !

Ade – I'm not ready yet!

Jenny – It's been 2 and a half years now, believe me you're ready and I'm sure you want to say a few things to him !

Ade – Yea I do .. but..

Jenny – There is no but ! End of the conversation!
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I was thinking about what just happened. I'll see them again. I have to talk to them and I am scared. What if they don't remember me any more? I think I wouldn't be disappointed if Harry doesn't remember me though but I wish he will.. oh man what am I talking about ?! He didn't even bother to call ! He's an ass ! … If Zayn doesn't remember I'd be 100% disappointed. He was my best friend and I was his, so he has to remember!
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*I started crying again* How would you feel when your best friend just turns his/her back on you? Without a word.. I'll tell you how it feels: IT SUCKS!
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After a hot shower I had an Idea. I wrote all of my emotions and questions into a letter, so I don't have to talk because I know that If I talk I would end up crying and I don't want to show weakness.
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Dear Zayn

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It's me Adrianna, I hope you still remember me but why would you? Your too busy hanging up with all you famous friends, right?

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I know it's been 2 and a half years now but I can't live in peace until I've told you this. I thought we were friends! But you left me alone. I've waited for you to call, I've waited for you to text.. but there was nothing! You never called or texted or mailed or anything! You trough or friendship away.
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At least you could have respond to my texts. After all we went trough!! Why ? Just tell me why! I deserve to know don't you think? Zayn I still care and I hate me for that because I shouldn't care so much.
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I care about you and even about Harry! I'm sure he doesn't remember me at all but when you were singing on the stage Harry and I talked and exchanged numbers but he was just like you. He never called. But I'm not mad at him.. we just met. But Zayn I am mad at you! I don't want you to feel sorry for me, I just want answers.

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Yours Adrianna

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