My Faults

Valerie's P.O.V.

My eyes widened at the sound of the high pitched voice. What in flipping fudge... my thought trailed off as I heard Louis laugh upstairs. I mentally face-palmed.

"NOT FUNNY LOU!!" I yelled at the top of my voice. I heard loud footsteps thudding closer as my heart beat did the same. I turned towards the trapdoor and..... Louis' head appeared down the trapdoor with a cheeky smile.
"What're you barking about? You're a Kitty not a Doggy." I heard another laugh as I was about to retort back. Zayn then appeared next to Lou.
"Heeeeeeey Valerie- Oh good job Lou, this is pretty good." I gave up on Louis and sighed.
"Hey Zayn! And Lou, I didn't know you were my sister," referring to the high pitched voice I heard. But he didn't catch on. He just thought I was aiming at his somewhat.. girly style of stripes.

A low "Oooohhhhhh" escaped Zayn's lips as I smiled a satisfied smile. "Pfft! It's not my fault you're delusional," Louis snapped back. At that, tears sprung into my eyes. Zayn sensed my hurt but knew I wanted to be alone so he left with Louis.

I took a deep, long breath, remembering all the times in school when I got bullied for being "delusional". Zayn was there to help me... and so was Lou... He knows how I feel about the name-calling.. Now this was one of the moments Lou reverted back to being the teasing smart-arse. But he took it too far today.I shook my head and turned back to the sink. I let my thoughts run freely on its tracks. Train of thoughts, hmmm … that’s an odd name for thoughts … but it really is a train! One thought leading to another. I mean there’s the first thought which is the engine and all the other thoughts are the carriages. They branch onto each other like a tree. Yeah! The little twigs on the branches are even finer detail. Just like a drawing. The fine lines and curves and shading … oh the beautiful forget-me-nots in the shade this morning! So amazing in colour. I sighed happily but stopped in my humour when I saw the mini razor beside me. Look away, Valerie. You can do it. I tore my gaze away and snapped my eyes back on Chrissy Doll. I stared at her glassy eyes and felt myself slipping away into the zone.

The zone... happens to be.. my time where I... where I... drift off when I... stare deeply at..... something... I...
I tried pulling myself back out but the zone, afraid at what I would see or hear next. My so called "delusions".

~FLASHBACK~

Five more minutes till the bell rang. I looked around the class quickly but they were all too engrossed with the film.

"Valeria!!"

"VALERIA YOU FILTHY SKANK!!"

I screamed and grabbed the boy behind me who yelled those things at me. Grabbing him by the collar, I shook him then tightened my grip around his throat. "How. Dare. You?" I growled out. "HOW FUCKING DARE YOU?!"

I suddenly felt a strong grip around my waist and realised it was Louis and Zayn. "And what're you doing?!" I screamed out. "I'D LIKE TO ASK YOU THE SAME QUESTION!!" Lou yelled back. I flinched and stopped struggling. Louis never yells... I looked around the class to see everyone's eyes eating away at me. I looked at the boy I strangled. I choked out through tears, "That dick yelled at me.. he called me a skank.."

Ms Ma suddenly had the nerve to finally speak up. "Miss Tomlinson, Josh didn't say anything."

"BUT HE DID-" I began to protest but was cut off. "ENOUGH!" she yelled out. "Class, did you hear Josh speak a word?" Everyone shook their heads, no. My eyes widened in bewilderment. This was not the first time people denied what I heard or saw. WHAT WAS WRONG WITH EVERYONE?!

"You're fucking delusional," a girl spat out at me. She was crouching beside Josh and comforting him. I ran out of class and kept running... and running....

END OF FLASHBACK


I shook my head slightly, shaking off the past, my tears blurring my eyes. I slowly blinked them away but I wished at that moment that I didn't. My eyes adjusted to Chrissy Doll's face. One moment it was still and innocent. The next....
I watched in pure fright as her smooth face mutated into saggy, yellowish, wrinkled skin. Her eyes no longer a pretty glass but dark mirrors, cracked and reflecting who I am. Her painted cherry lips widened or rather, stretched so inhumanely far that in real life, her jaw would've snapped. Her body appeared lifeless in my hands but it felt like her bones were rearranging itself into a new monstrous creation. All this occurred in a matter of seconds finally ending with her lips suddenly snapping open; revealing old, yellow teeth. A high pitched laugh escaped her lips. Chrissy Doll's body began to spasm in my hands.

My hands shook violently as she laughed so hard at my face; tears of a mysterious black substance escaping her mirror eyes. Those tears stained my hands and I suddenly found the courage to throw her at the wall. "DIE YOU CRAZY DOLL. DIE!! JUST GO AWAY!! BREAK! SHATTER!" I screamed out.

"You funny girl!"

The last thing I remembered before I passed out was Zayn and Louis scrambling down the ladder. And then all was black.

"Just like my tears, dear Valeria. Just like my beautiful tears of laughter."

Notes

Second chapter's up. ^_^