
Attached at the hip.
Chapter 38
*Savannah's POV*
Before I can shut the door of the bus Liam is right behind me "What do you mean think about us?" he asks, he is really starting to get angry.
"Exactly what I said Liam. I need to think everything over" I say and sigh, what does he not get about me needing to be alone to think?
"Are you going to break up with me?" he asks and I stop. That Idea hadn't crossed my mind...Even if I'm mad, I was just thinking of going back home for a while to get some space and privacy...Not breaking up.
"No Liam. I'm not going to break up with you. I just need you to understand that I need my space and my privacy. It's already hard enough to get any privacy being on a bus with five guys and dating a world wide popstar. But now you are going and telling everyone something private, that should have stayed between us Niall and El." I say angrily.
"Wait...El knew?" he asks and I groans
"Seriously? That is what you are stuck on?" I ask and he nods
"Hell yes I am! You decide to tell her not me?!"
"I didn't fucking tell her Liam!" I yell. I am about to explode on him. "If I'm going to stay on tour with you, I'm going to need my privacy Liam, that is something I value a lot. And you going and embaesing me in front of everyone inside that restaurant was unnecessary!" I yell "This is a lot to handle as it is, you shouldn't be upset that I'm loosing weight for you damnit, can't you see that this is all for you? I want you to think I am pretty, but obviously you don't appreciate that!" I yell and I see his face drop.
"Y-you're doing this for me?" he asks and I sigh
"Yes Liam. I did all this for you, those ddamn pills keep me from being hungry so I can loose weight and have that dancers body that you loved so much on Danielle."
"You're taking DIET PILLS?!" he is exasperated "You're kidding me right? First cutting again now this? Are you serious? How stupid can you be? I never once said you needed a body like Danielle's. In fact I like your body more. I like a girl with a little meat, but I guess that is just beyond your comprehension!" did he seriously call me stupid? Wow he's being an ass.
"So now you're calling me stupid?" I ask "Wow Liam. Just wow." I say and start walking to the bunks and he grabs my hand stopping me. I stop and yank my hand away "Yes, yes i am. Do you know how many side effects those pills can have? Savannah, you are overly skinny, I can see your ribs and that isn't okay! Why can you never just talk to me? This is worse than shutting me out, at least when you do that you don't do all this crazy shit! Just because of what happened with Danielle doesn't mean you have to look like her. God." he groans and I roll my eyes. I hate fighting with him, but I'm to angry to give up and just make-up, but not this time.
"Well you haven't even tried anything like that with me, but you turn to her for sex, so obviously she has something I don't!" I yell
"Oh my God. Will you stop with Danielle. I made a fucking mistake, don't you know I'm sorry? How many times do I have to tell you? I want to make it up to you but I can't nothing I do puts you at ease, I let you read the messages, I deleted her number, haven't talked to her in ages Savannah. What do I have to do? Because I'm tired of going back and forth with you about this all the time!" He responds and slams his fist on the counter, this scares me, I don't do aggression well because of what happened with Dylan. I tense up and back away from him.
"I don't know Liam. You know this isn't going to be an easy fix, it's going to take time. But if you're done trying maybe we should just call it quits. I am not ready to give up on us, but apparently you are" I say as tears roll down my cheeks. I start to walk away but he grabs my hand again and pulls me back to him.
"Don't fucking pull that Savannah, You know I'm not giving up on us. I'm just tired of you doing stupid shit like this!" he yells and I yank my hand out of his
"Don't touch me." I say growing angrier by the second. "Gosh you can be such an ass hole you know that Liam? I did this for you. It may not have been the best way, but I am getting results. You aren't my fucking father you can't tell me what to do. I'm not a child Liam. You may be 'daddy direction' but you have no right to try and parent me." I say fumnig.
"Well excuse me for caring about you and your health! You know what? Go ahead. Keep taking the pills, but don't come crawling to me when you have all these fucking side effects!" he yells "I'm so done with all this fucking shit" she yells even louder, it scares me hearing him yell like this.
"Fine! I fucking will! Let me know when you decide to stop being a fucking ass hole!" I yell at the same volume as him
"And let me know when you decide to stop being a bloody fool!" He yells and throws the bus door open and then slams it shut, it shakes the entire bus.
I stand there for a few moments and take in what just happened. That's the biggest fight Liam and I have ever been inn, even bigger than the one the first time he choose Danielle over me, or when I found out he cheated. A few moments later it hits me and I fall to the floor crying. I love Liam so much and I hated fighting with him. I didn't want to argue, or fight but he just, he was being so frustrating, and I know he was trying to be caring, but he took it to far, and I'm still mad that he told everyone what happened. I can't handle this. I go back to my bunk and crawl in and curl up in fetal position and just cry. After a few moments I hear someone walk into the bus. I quickly try and mute my sobs, but I hear Niall's voice outside my bunk.
"Savannah love, do you want to talk about it?" he asks me and rubs my back softly and I shake my head
"I-I just n-need to be l-left alone" I say through my tears
"You sure love?" he asks and I nod "Okay, well just let me know if you want to talk" he says and walks off the bus leaving me my space.
Within about fourty five minutes I end up crying myself to sleep. I wake up the next morning and everyone else is already up. Niall and Louis are playing fifa, Harry is eating cereal, Zayn is skyping perrie and Liam is sitting next to Harry with his nose buried in his phone. I get up and walk to the front, I know that my cheeks are still red and puffy and that my makeup is all down my face but I don't care. I walk past the boys without saying a word to them although they do try and say good morning to me. I grab a bowl of cereal and walk to the back room, I just want to be alone. I shut the door and nibble my cereal, but I'm not hungry.
Moments later I hear a knock on the door, I don't care who it is I want to be alone. "Go away" I call out, my voice is still shakey from all the crying I did last night.
"Savannah, can we talk?" I hear Liam's voice and I tense up.
"What else is there to say Liam?" I ask and he pauses
"I'm sorry" he says "Can I please come in?" he asks.
I sigh "Fine" I say softly and he walks in the door, I can tell by the bags under his eyes he had a rough night.
"Sav, I'm sorry. I was a total ass to you last night, I was just scared and worried about you" he says and tries to get me to look at him but I don't budge
"Sure have a funny way of showing it" I say flatly and he sighs
"Look, I know I shouldn't have yelled at you, it just seemed like the only way to get through to you" he sighs " I realize now I should have given you your space. I shouldn't have told the boys what happened, and I shouldn't have reacted the way I did babe" he says and I look at him. I can see the sincerity in his eyes.
"And I'm sorry for screaming at you and saying all those mean things, I just, I value my privacy and I just, I worry that you don't think I'm pretty because I know I don't compare to Danielle and I beat myself up over it" I say softly.
"baby baby baby" he says and lifts my chin so I look at him "Danielle should be jealous of you, you are perfect in my eyes" he says softly "How about we make a compromise yeah?" he asks and I nod.
"I'm listening" I say softly and fiddle with my fingers
"You stop taking the diet pills and I will respect your privacy from now on okay?" he asks and I nod
"Okay....." I sigh and he smiles
"Thank you baby, now come on, let me see you smile" he says and I half smile "A real one" he says and pinches my cheeks. I laugh and can't help but smile "there's my girl" he says and pulls me into a hug "I love you" he whispers and kisses my forehead "I love you too" I whisper and lay my head on his shoulder, I am glad we worked this out.
Notes
Hey Y'all! Got this up as fast as I could, had a ton of stuff to do Sunday so it took a little longer than expected but yeah! Let me know what y'all think!
I'm new to this and I must say its hard for me to find fan fiction I actually enjoy. I am really enjoying this and quite looking forward to more. I have to admit if the guy I'm dating went to see his ex and then lie to me about it well some serious groveling would be in order plus he'd be on the couch for awhile. Seriously though you're a really great writer update soon please.
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