Attached at the hip.

*Savannah's POV*

I wake up at about 7:00 the next morning and Liam is still fast asleep. we are half cuddled up, not like our usual way of being tangled up and neither of us are able to move....Last night just felt different...I guess it felt normal at the hospital because it had been so long and he almost died and all that stuff? I don't know, or maybe I just tried not to think about what happened while we were there? I don't know....whatever the reason it still feels different. I look at him and I don't see my boyfriend, the guy I love, my Liam....when I look at him all I can think about is Danielle, and wonder what he's thinking, if he's texted her, if she still has that hold on him...or if that really was the last time....

Okay I need to stop psyching myself out. Focus Savannah, the boys have a show tonight and they need to head to the venue at 10:00. I get up and shower, I have to turn the heat of the water down some because of my cuts, it really hurts. I then get out and blow dry my hair, I leave it natural and just put it in a braid because I know I have to do it tonight anyways. I throw on a pair of skinny jeans with holes throughout the legs, and an old plaid shirt. But I don't look like one of those underground hipsters or whatever, more like a redneck, which I don't mind; I actually really like country music. I then put on minimal makeup and some burlap toms before going into the kitchen.I make the boys french toast and I try to make belgum waffles, but I burn them so I make eggs and bacon instead, and then go and wake all the boys up. Thankfully Harry wore boxers to bed last night so I didn't have to risk seeing that part of Harry. The last person I wake up is Liam, I figure he could use extra sleep.

I walk into the room and go to Liam's side of the bed "Liam wake up" I say softly and shake him gently. He groans and turns over, why must he be so hard to wake up sometimes? I shake him a bit harder "Liiiiiiiaaaammmmmm" I groan "Wake your lazy butt up before I give your food to Niall and make sure you get stuck with the burnt waffles!" I say and that gets him up, they weren't kidding when they said food is the way to a mans heart.

The boys are all eating and when they ask why I'm not I lie and tell them I already ate. While they eat I go into the room and take another diet pill. I did have a banana earlier so I'm not starving myself, just not eating much, there's a difference.

I check my phone and see that El has texted me

El: Hey girly, wanna go shopping for the show tonight? I just landed and should be at the hotel in half an hour, we have a TON to catch up on"

Me:Sure, sounds good, I could use a shopping trip, I brought clothes but not enough cute ones.

El:Sounds great! I'll be there soon

Me:Can't wait!

El gets here and I hang out with her while the guys get ready, we don't really talk about the serious stuff knowing the guys are here. I go to the room to grab my purse and Liam is changing, gosh he is so hot.

"Hey babe" he says with a smile and I pause a bit kinda shocked, I have to remind myself we are together still, just working on things.

"Hey hun" I say so he doesn't think anything's wrong

"So what are you and El going to do today?" He asks me with a smile as he puts on his batman shirt I bought him

"Ummm just shopping, I need new clothes most of mine are for lazy days or are to big now" I say and shrug, he raises an eyebrow

"You have lost some weight, why? You were perfect before, not that you aren't now, but you don't need to change at all" he says and I sigh...If only he knew...

"Oh I don't know...just haven't been as hungry lately I guess" I know he doesn't believe me but he lets it go.

"Well, go into my wallet and take my card okay? Buy whatever you want, my treat" He says with a smile.

"Oh it's fine Liam, I have my own mo-" He cuts me off

"Please Sav? Let me do this? I insist, please just take my card, get yourself anything you want, you know I have the money" He says and I give him the 'as if I'm going to do that' look "Savannah" he says and looks me in the eyes "Please, just take my card, I insist" he says and I sigh, why must he always win things like this?

"Okay fine" I groan and grab his wallet off the table and take out his card "But only because you made me" I say and he smiles.

"Good, you better spend money too, don't worry about the price tag, just get it okay?" he says and I nod and roll my eyes, earning a laugh from him "Can I have a kiss before you go?" he asks and I freeze. He can tell by the look on my face I'm not ready for that "At least a hug?" he asks and I nod. He engulfs me in his arms and hugs me tightly not that I don't love his hugs, because I do, I just can't help but want to push him away still. This is a lot harder than I thought that it would be, but he's trying so I can try too. I wrap my arms around him and hold him close to me as well, he must have just sprayed his cologne, because he smells really good.

"Well you have fun with El today okay? What time are you two coming to the venue?" He asks me, still holding onto me

"Umm, probably at four, right before sound check, if we need to bring you lot food just let me know okay?" I say and he nods

"Alright, you're the best you know that?" he asks me and I just shrug "well you are and don't you forget it" he says and kisses my forehead.

Wefinally pull away when we hear a knock on the door "Come on lad we need to leave" A familiar Irish voice calls out. Liam sighs and I look up at him.

"You have a good day love" he says and smiles sweetly at me

"You too Li, if you need anything just let me know" I say and let go of him. I finish grabbing my stuff and head out of the hotel with El.

*Four hours later*

El and I have done quite a bit of shoping, I didn't know we could buyy so much so quickly. I got a ton of clothes, i may need a bigger closet back home, and El may need two new closets. Even though Liam told me not to worry about price I did, and some of the more expensive stuff I paid for with my money, I'm not going to be a free-loader just because I have a rich boyfriend.

We are sitting down at the food court eating some lunch when El finally brings it up... "So...You and Liam? Where are you two?" she asks me curiously and I groan "We're still together, we are trying to work things out together, but it's complicated, for me at least. One minute it feels like we are making progress and the next I start thinking about her and start worrying" I sigh "I want to trust him, I do, but I- he's lost my trust twice now, and I don't know how to trust him again" I say and El nods.

"Well, that's understandable, he put you through hell and back, if Louis did that to me I don't know what I would do." she says"It's not going to be easy especially at first, but you and Liam are like meant for each other, I swear, I have never seen a more perfect couple in my life" she says and I laugh.

"I just, I'm so insecure now....like in general and like insecure in the relationship...Like all I can think about is if he's texting her, or talking to her, or thinking about her...or any other girl for that matter, it's scary to know that it was so easy for him to do that... like what would keep him from doing it again? Don't say anything but half the reason I'm going back on tour with them is to make sure he doesn't pull that stunt again" I say and try to laugh but can't. "I know I said I wouldn't shut him out, but it's really hard not to....I mean, I am pushing him away a bit, but not much, it's just more like, I wont kiss him, or be all super cuddled like we used to...I feel bad for it, but, It just makes me to vulnerable, if I let him kiss me he will think everything is okay and that he can up and cheat on me again" I say softly holding back tears.

"Awe sweetheart" El says and hugs me suportively "I know it's hard, but that boy loves you with every bone in his body and I don't think he will ever even think about that again....have you talked to him about this?" she asks and I shake my head "Maybe you should...he needs to know you feel like this, because if he doesn't he can't do anything to ease your mind about it" dang she has a point...

"You're right.... I'll talk to him tonight probably, he knows we have a talk, well multiple talks coming...I guess we just have to have one tonight" I sigh and fiddle with the ice in my drink, before I can say anything else I get a text from Liam.

Liam: Hello love, how is shopping going?

Me:Great, just finished and eating lunch with El, how is rehersal?

Liam:Pretty good, except we don't have any food ):

Me:El and I will be there in half an hour with food

Liam: Thank you love, you're the best<3

Me:of course, we can't have our boys hungry, you lot are no fun when y'all are hungry and cranky

Liam:But you love us anyway?

Me:Of course we do, be there soon

"Well looks like the boys need food, I say we get them some pizza? They seem pretty ungry and pizza should be fast" I say and El agrees. We go to a pizza place and order three different pizzas, one cheese, one peperoni, and one veggie and then we head to the venue. when we get there I send a quick text to Liam.

Me: Wanna come let us in? This food is hot and heavy, we need some man power to carry it, so you may want to bring harry and Zayn

Liam: Be right there love, and I think I can manage, are you trying to say that they are stronger than I?

Me: Maybe I am maybe I'm not, but Harry and Zayn would have already been here by now, now hurry your cute arse up

Okay, so I was being a tad flirty, but I need to work harder at not pushing him away,and I like flirting with him....Ugh there are so many mixeed emotions, one second I'm depressed and pushing him away, and the next I flirting wit him and telling him he has a cute butt, which he does, but still. I guess this day with El has helped a lot. She gave me a lot of good advice and suggested that I try to be like normal with him to see if I can find what normal for us is again, or like, we can work on a way for both of us to feel secure in the relationship.

The next thing I know Liam comes waltzing out (Not literally) with Louis. They greet us and then take in the pizza's for us. And then Zayn, Niall, and Harry come out as well and help us with our shopping bags. Is it bad when it takes all three of them to carry all of our bags? I think we should be set for a while...

We finally get settled in and the guys are eating and perking up. Niall is sitting on a red leather love seat with Zayn, Louis and El are int he one across from it, and Liam and Harry are on the sofa I went to the bathroom and when I come back I'm making my way to the seat between Liam and Harry, but Liam pulls me down into his lap before I can "So you think I have a cute butt?" he asks with a smirk and I blush

"I donlt
"I don't think, I know" I whisper and smirk, it kinda feels nice to be kinda flirty with him again.

"You think mine is cute, you should see yours" he whispers in my ear sending a chill down my spine. He laughs when he feels the goosebumps on my arm and lets me move to the spot next to him, but he takes my hand in his and intertwines our fingers. He runs his thumb over the palm of my hand just like he knows I love as we talk with the others, and I am actually starting to feel almost normal for once...

We hang out with the boys for a while, but soon they have to get ready for sound check, and we need to get presentable to the public. El and I go back to a spare dressing room and look through all the clothes we bought. I decide on a floral print dress that goes to mid thigh, it hugs my body in just the right places, but isn't tight at all. I choose some rose colored flats that match the flowers in the dress and then I curl my hair into soft curls and braid my bangs back. I let El do my makeup because she is the best at it. and then I change into the dress, when I do I completely forget about my scars and that El is in the room "Ummm Savannah....?" El says she's obviously worried about something..."What are those scars on your legs?" She asks and I freeze. shit. She caught me. she knows. how could I be so dumb?

There is no need for me to answer, she knows what they are and she knows how I got them, with how new they are along with the old ones it's kinda obvious there are to many to call it a few scratches from a cat.... I quickly pull the dress on but I know there is no use in lying to her because she won't let me leave this room without me telling her. So I tell her everything, and I mean everything. From what happened when I started cutting to now, and about the diet pills and how I was cutting myself last night...I expected her to be pissed, but all she did was hug me and tell me it would be okay, of course my makeup is down my face from crying but we aren't concerned about that right now. We talk about it for a good hour, and she makes me swear on my life that I won't do it again, and I make her swear on her life not to tell Liam.

I finally compose myself and she fixes my hair and makeup before we go out to talk to the boys before they go on stage. We talk to them for a little and then they have to go, we watch the show from the side of the stage, and I am having a great time, I missed watching the boys' shows. Everything is perfect until the last song...

"Girl I can see it in your face you're disappointed" Liam starts and it brings everything back....I instantly start to cry, El tries to comfort me, but right now the only one I need is Liam. As soon as the song is over the boys come off stage, Liam sees me crying and there is a pained look on his face...I don't think he has seen me cry like this since what happened sophomore year... He comes straight to me and engulfs me in a tight hug. I wrap my arms around him tightly and he just hugs me for a few minutes, I calm down enough just as we have to leave, but the whole ride home I stay silent in the car, my head on Liam's shoulder, his arm is around me and rubbing my side. Yup, tonight is one of those nights where we are definitely having a talk...

Notes

Hey everyone! So I woke up at 2am and had like a creative streak I guess lol, so here is this chapter! Who knows, if things go well I may be able to have the next one up before monday!
Well yeah, let me know what y'all think and thank you for reading!