Attached at the hip.

*Savannah's POV*
I haven't used or seen this blade since sophomore year of high school. Those first two years were insanely tough on me. The people were terribly mean, my parents were on the verge of divorce, and I hated myself. I remember being awake at 2:00 in the morning because I couldn't sleep over the sound of my parents screaming at each other. Thankfully they worked it out, but that doesn't make it any less hard. Kids I didn't even know would talk shit about me, my first boyfriend dumped me for some cheerleader, and I had some random people telling me I should kill myself. Makes a person feel really low ya know? I even attempted to do it a few times, but what stopped me each time was Liam. He didn't know about the first two times I tried, but the third he stopped me and that is when I told him everything.

*Flashback*
I was in my bedroom laying on the floor, my blade was in my hand and my legs were bleeding like crazy from where I cut my thighs, I always cut there because it's less visible. I can't take this pain anymore. I can't. They are right, I'm worthless, nothing, unimportant, and just a waste of space. I stumble my way into the bathroom and grab my moms bottle of some hospital grade pain killers and pour as many of them into my hand as I can. I fill the cup on the counter and right as I am about to swallow all of the pills I hear a knock on the door "Savannah?" Liam asks "Are you okay? Why is there blood on the floor?!" I can hear the panic in his voice.

When I don't answer fast enough he swings the door open and as soon as he realizes what's happening he tries to stop me "Savannah! NO! Drop the pills!" He yells and tries to wrestle them from me. Finally I loose my balance and fall on the ground,sending the pills flying everywhere, my legs are still bleeding. At this point I'm sobbing.

"NO! I just want to DIE Liam, Let me die! I don't want to be here anymore" I sob and go into the fetal position on the bathroom floor. He grabs a towel and presses them to my legs, that's when he sees all my scars "Savannah...." he says softly as his eyes tear up. He sits up and pulls me close to him. He wraps his arms around me tight, holding the towel to my legs and rocks me "Savannah, no, you can't do this, have you no idea how much you mean to me? You can't kill yourself, I need you, your parents need you, the world needs you. Shhhhhh It's going to be okay, I'm here now and I won't ever leave you" Liam whispers and holds me so tight I nearly suffocate. We stay there on the floor for at least another hour if not more, I sob into Liam's shoulder the whole time and he just holds me and rocks me back and forth as he rubs my back.

Finally the bleeding stops and I've worn myself out from all the crying and end up falling asleep, Liam picks me up and carries me to my bed, he lays next to me and has a firm grip around my waist as I sleep. When I wake up he is still wide awaky, he makes me tell him everything, and then he takes my blade away, I made him promise not to tell my parents though. He stays with me every night for the next few weeks before he feels like I am safe to stay on my own, but he still made me face time him every night before bed.

*End of flashback*

I Look at the knife and all the memories come flooding back to me, the pain, the vulnerability, the fear. I hold the exacto knife in my hand, Liam thought he had his it well, but I knew it was under his mattress, so I got the blade back after I was better. I go into the bathroom and lock the door behind me. I slide my shorts up and sit on the ground and begin to cut. Shit this is insanely painful, but it does ease some of the emotional pain. Which I really need, because nobody knows until they live it, how much it hurts to be cheated on, especially when that person is your best friend. The blood starts moving down my leg and I just watch it fall, I grab a towel and place it under my leg to prevent blood from getting on the floor. I cut over the old scars, and make some new ones. I hear footsteps and then a knock on the door. Shit just like last time.

"Savannah, are you int here? How are you feeling?" Liam's voice asks "I-I I'm f-fine" I say softly

"Are you crying?" he asks me. shit. Why must it be so obvious when I cry?

"N-no I-i'm fine" I say and try to slow my breathing and calm down.

"Savannah, are you sure, do you need help with something?" He asks me, his voice sounds worried, and I know it's killing him not knowing what's going on or if I'm okay.

"I'm fine Liam, just uhh...crampy! yeah I'm just really crampy" I say as a cover up, I feel bad for lieing but he can't know the truth.

"Okay, well let me know if you need anything okay love?" he says and sighs

"Okay, will do" I say, it's taking all I have not to start crying again, but thankfully I make it until he is gone.

I stay in the bathroom for a while longer and wipe up all the blood, I make sure to put the towels in the hamper and cover them up so Liam wont see. I put on some baggy sweat pants and try to fix my face up. It doesn't work very well. I get out of the bathroom and I see that Liam has midol next to a cold glass of water with chipped ice just like I like, there is also a heating pad turned up to medium so it doesn't burn me. WHY oh why must Liam be so perfect.

I lay down on my stomach, bad idea, it hurts my legs so I turn onto my side. He may be the cause of all this, but he is also the only one that can make the pain go away. I don't want the others to see me like this so I take out my phone and text Liam.

Me: Thank you for the meds and the heating pad, I really appreciate it, come cuddle?

As soon as I send it I get a response

Liam: Of course, anything for you, be there in five

Sure enough five minutes later Liam walks into the room "Hey, how are you feeling" he asks me and sits on the bed.

"A little better" I shrug and sigh pulling the covers up.

"That's good, so you wanted to cuddle?" he asks with a laugh and I nod.

"Yeah, I am sorry about earlier, I just wasn't expecting it, and It's kinda hard for me not to put my walls up, I'm trying to let you in again...I just I-" I'm cut off by Liam

"You need time" He says and smiles sweetly "It's okay, I understand, don't you apologize for anything okay? I will wait however long I have to, don't you worry about me" he says and lays on the bed. I scoot closer to him so that he knows it's okay to cuddle me. "Is tonight one of those nights we should have a talk?" he asks and I sigh.

"No, not tonight, I don't have the energy, can we just sleep?" I ask him softly and he nods wrapping an arm around me and pulling me close. When he does extra pressure is applied on my cut and I jump a bit and bite my lip so I don't yelp.

"You okay?" Liam asks and I nod

"Yeah....just umm cramps again..." I shrug and sigh. I put my head on his shoulder and clothes my eyes

"Sing to me?" I ask softly and he smiles

"Of course love" He kisses my forehead and then begins to sing, even when I'm laying down his voice makes me weak in the knees.

He begins to sing somewhere only we know

"I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?"

By the end of the song I am fast asleep right where I should be. Liam's arms. If only it felt the way it used to.

Notes

Hey everyone, sorry I haven't been on all week things have been crazy and now I'm sick ugh! But yeah, anyways new chapter is up! I hope to have the next one up sunday, but idk if it will happen or not just yet. Pleaseee comment and tell me what you think! It would really mean a lot to me! Have a great night everyone<3!