Bad Days; Good Days

We woke up and it was a bit awkard. We didn't even look at each other. I turned around to see what he was doing hoping to see if he was looking at me but he wasn't. Harry went straight to the bathroom without saying a word. I stood up and walked to the closet to see where my clothes were. He already had put it away for me. "Aww.. I've been such a jerk lately and i hate it. What's gotten in to me." i thought to myself. That's when i knew that i needed to have a serious talk with him. I need to talk about everything and just let it out. It is going to be hard though.
"Harry, I need to talk to you it's important." I knocked on the door. I heard him spit in the sink and then he said.
"Ok, hold on a minute." The door opened and i stared at his greenish blue eyes.
"Let's talk" he said. We went to the couch and we both sat at the ends of the sofa, far apart. I grabbed the blanket and put it around me because i knew were gonna be here awhile.
"So i know i have been such a jerk lately and i'm sorry. I really am. You are amazing and so helpful, im so lucky to have you. I wasn't trying to be mean at you. It was just i kept getting flashbacks of the whole incident which made me so angry. I wanna get help i don't want to have these flashbacks anymore. It hurts." i finally took a big breathe. Harry just looked at me. I saw a little smirk but then he began to talk.
"You know that i'm here for you no matter what. I'll always love you. I know you have been going through some things after he raped you but i just didn't like that you were taking it out on me. That is all. I want to do this together, meaning help you find help." thats when i rellized that i loved hearing his voice. It just made me melt inside. It was so deep and raspy in the morning.
"This is why i love you. People say were young and that we don't know what love is. But, i do know what it is. I never felt this way before about someone. You make me feel alive and a better person. The things you do for me are just.." I hesitated and then paused. I saw Harry getting closer to be. "I love you too." he whispered, just to be sexy. He then reached me and grabbed my hand. He started caresing my face and saying i was beautiful.
"don't worry your gonna be safe with me. I won't let another guy touch you the way that guy did to you." Then we kissed. It wasn't just a make out session, it was long and passionate. A kiss i will always remember because that kiss made me feel safe again. It also showed me how much he loved me. Then I felt his hands go down but i stopped him. "Wait i love you but i don't think im ready to have sex yet. I want to but i just can''t right now. Sorry" I felt bad.
"Babe thats ok we will take it one step at a time." he was so understanding. We just went back to kissing and that is what i was ok with.