I'm Not Fine At All

Have you heard of the song Amnesia by 5 Seconds of Summer?Well,that song is about me. My name is Leslie.I am 18 years old and an up and coming artist.

Calum Hood and I dated for a year but it ended terribly.It's been about two months and to the public,my life seems fine,perfect even. I will be recording my 1st album in a few days at a new recording studio and I am now dating the one and Only Justin Bieber.

But my private life isn't fine at all.No one knows the deal my management made with Justin's. We are not really dating because were in love,but for the publicity. Sure,it may seem really bad but we both needed it for different reasons. He was getting a lot of bad publicity for stupid things he was doing,so his management wanted a girl to look like she helped him find his way to stop his nonsense.I needed it to support my album that will be coming out soon.

So,to the world,It looks like I quickly moved on from Calum and am now in a happy relationship with Justin,but that's far from the truth. I miss Calum and his friend that became like brothers to me over the time that I knew them. I haven't seen any of them since we broke up,but I miss them all terribly.I talked to Michael once after Calum and I ended things,that's how I know the song is about me and it sucks.

I listen to this song every night. It's beautiful but makes me want to cry every time.It hurts me to think that he's hurting. I hate that he thinks I'm happy and moved on when I haven't and just want him back.To quote his song that match my feelings

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away

But sadly,this isn't a twisted dream,but my twisted reality.

Notes

hey!My first fanfic about these boys!(Yes i know they didn't write amnesia,but it's a fanfic)

I hope you guys like it.Its just a little background on what happened sooo yeah.
next chapter will get better.

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