Harry's POV

“P-pregnant?” I finally speak, my mind racing.

“Yes, five months to be exact.” She tells me as I think in my head, five months, that was when we got back from tour. I could have sworn we didn't sleep together.

“But we didn't...” I rattle off remembering the night we got drunk together. Shit.

“That one night, we went out, you got really drunk.” She starts explaining.

“But you said you were on the pill.” I remind her.

“Well, I wasn't very good at taking it at the time.” She informs me.

“You tell me that now?” I start getting angry. “I'm not ready for a baby, I don't want a baby.” I lean back in my seat upset.

“Well I'm not ready either but I don't really have a choice now do I Harry?' She's getting upset too, but how did she think this would go.

“Why didn't you tell me?” I ask. “It's been five months.”

“I wanted to tell you in person.”

“So it just slipped your mind every time we talked, no oh hey Harry, I'm pregnant. Surprise.” I display a mocking tone.

“Don't patronize me.” She warns.

Still thinking about everything, what am I going to do? Touring, Elliot? Elliot?

“Wait, you told me you cheated on me with your friend Jared.” I accuse her.

“I did. That's what I was getting at. I'm not 100% sure who this babies father is.”

“Well that's just fucking great Zoe.” I push my chair back and abruptly leave the cafe to a slew of paparazzi and then pregnant Zoe, chasing after me. Fucking great.

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After the I finally told the truth to Elliot about when I broke up with Zoe and Zoe being pregnant I just went dark. Media dark. I didn't post to twitter, didn't go outside if I didn't have to, I gave the media no reason to follow me. But they did. I still had to record and make meetings, still had a job to do.

I feel terrible about what happened between Elliot and myself. I'm planned to go back to Los Angeles in two weeks, and she hasn't talked to me since. It's a blow to my heart. To be honest I feel like she's over reacting just a bit but I don't blame her, she reacted so badly to my lie, I couldn't tell her that this baby might actually be mine.

Zoe has already come out and said that the baby might not be mine. I'm not dumb, but I'm so pissed at myself for trusting Zoe about taking her birth control. She was planning on having the baby take a DNA test when he or she arrived in March, but I knew in my heart it wasn't mine. It sounds terrible, but I hoped it wasn't mine.

I didn't just lie to Elliot once though, I lied to her multiple times about Zoe. If I was talking to her and Elliot was around I told Elliot it was someone else like Lou, Gemma, or my mum, same with texting, I just wanted to keep Elliot around, I was greedy. Why I didn't break up with Zoe when I saw her back in London before I even met Elliot will always haunt me. Why I didn't break up with Zoe when I told Elliot I did was beyond me. And why I felt the need to continue to lie to her will be the biggest mistake I've ever made.

The following Monday after Clover told me not to talk to Elliot anymore, Elliot sent my flowers back to the store. I continued to send them to her every Monday, and every Monday she continued to send them back. I had even sent her other things, trinkets from London that I liked, she returned those as well.

I tried to call her everyday. She usually sent me to voicemail. I left message after message but they were never returned. I was running out of options to use. I checked the time and realized it was still early in LA so I decided to try to call her. To my surprise it made it past the first ring and didn't get sent to voicemail. I suddenly stood up and started pacing around my kitchen, maybe this will be the day she talks to me.

“Hello?” It was Joe.

“Joe?” I ask.

“Oh, hey Harry, Elliot already left for work, she left her phone here.” He tells me.

“Oh. Okay, I'll let you go then.” I take the phone away from my ear to end the conversation.

“Wait! Harry!” I hear Joe speak louder and bring my phone back.

“Yeah?” I ask timid, I'm a little afraid Joe will verbally berate me, not that I don't deserve it but still.

“Listen, I've been talking to Elliot, she's not doing so great.” I let out a sigh and close my eyes, I hate to think of her upset. “She's pretty stressed out about the studio, apparently something was wrong with the books so she's been meeting with new accountants so they can figure it out. She's been trolled by the paparazzi since you left for London, fans know where she works so she's been harassed there. It's getting to be too much for her, hell, it's too much for me.” He explains.

My eyes dart back and forth, Elliot is being followed and harassed? No wonder she's distancing herself from me.

“I'm sorry Joe, I had no idea. Elliot hasn't answered any of my phone calls, she's sent back anything I've ever sent her.” I stammer.

“I know. We talked, she knows she's over reacting with the Zoe thing, but she has every right to be upset. Believe me it was a shitty thing to do to her, lying to her about being with her but she's already looked past that. She doesn't care that Zoe's pregnant, she knows that was before she even met you so she knows she can't do anything about that. She just feels like now she needs to say away from you. She's too nice Harry, you know that, she can't keep hanging out with you and not let these things get to her. I can't count how many times she's come home from the studio in tears because of things that people have said to her. Calling her a homewrecker, saying she ruined your relationship with Zoe, she's only after you for the money, it just doesn't quit.” You can tell Joe's getting riled up from telling me all this. Since I've been in the media dark, I had no idea any of this was going on. I mean, I guess I figured they would follow here a little bit I had no idea it would go on for so many weeks.

“Joe you have to know, I had no idea. I haven't been paying attention to the media at all. Denying interviews, I only go out when I have to.” And when I do, I just go to where I need to and move on.

“Well, I'm sure you two can work things out when you get back, but if you could somehow get people to stop messing with her that would be great. It's getting so bad sometimes that I'm afraid to let her be alone in the house. It's ridiculous.”

I assure him I'll do my best and hang up the phone. I'm thankful she's “okay” with the whole situation from what Joe says but I'm extremely angered that people are saying all these rude things to Elliot. She has enough stuff to worry about.

I sit on the couch for the rest of the afternoon looking at my computer, googling Rain Elliot Morgan's name and my own. I'm appalled about all the terrible things that people have said about her. They're making her to be this terrible person. Like she's the mistress in my relationship with Zoe. They have no idea.

I have no idea how to fix this. I could speak out on twitter, but people never take me seriously. It's a start though. I log on and see hundreds of thousands of tweets I've missed since I've been gone. I don't even read them and go straight to writing.

Please leave Elliot alone. She has done nothing wrong.

I'm hoping this is all that I will need for tabloids to start clearing her name as much as possible. I then start my research in how to fix Elliot and I. I know that being with me comes with unwanted fame and a lot of people can't take it but if I was just with Elliot, I know things would be okay.

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“So what are you thinking?” My sister Gemma decided to surprise me and visit for a few days.

“I don't know, I need to do something though.” I tell her, trying to think of a plan to win Elliot back. I love her. I at least need her as a friend, even if she won't allow me to be her boyfriend.

“Well, first you have to admit that you're sorry. You know for a fact that Zoe's baby isn't yours?” She asks.

“No, I don't. I'm not ready for a baby though. She's taking a test when the baby is born but I hope it's not mine.” I assure her.

“Okay then, what are you going to do?” She asks.

“I don't know. That's why I need your help. I need a grand gesture. I need her to trust me again.” I feel desperate.

“Well Harry, trust will come back with time. You have to show her you deserve her trust again. Be open with her. Let her know what's happening before it happens. You should have told her that Zoe was pregnant when you found out, not letting her find out while in line at the market. That's terrible.” She scolds me.

“I know, I know, I feel bad about it. I really do.” I run my fingers through my hair, we haven't made any profress.

Gemma takes a deep breath. “Okay, how about we....”

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