You Can't Make It Better

Author's P.O.V.
Im really sorry I havent updated as I promised I would. There's just been alot going on you know. Ive been so depressed lately. There's days when I just feel like committing suicide. I know i dont belong here, and Im worthless, and i have no purpose in living. People would be better with out me, but I know I would cause pain to some people. I havent cutt in about a month. But I dont know if I can keep it up. I have nobody. Nobody cares. The worst part is that I dont even hide my scars, and I just fake smile every fucking day, and the people who live with me haVnt even noticed shit. And honestly I feel like there is no point for living. Life wont get better. Everday it just gets worse. And I just dont want TO live like this anymore. Sometimes I just stand in front of the mirror and am disgusted by what I see. Im not skinny but Im not fat. I guess Im average. But Im still so insecure. The thing is, when you get called insults everyday. You start to believe them. If you get called a slut, fat, or dumb, you start to believe that you are even though you trully aren't.
Well Im not gonna do anything stupid, Ill just stay entertained by pll cuz when I dont have anything to do I overthink and I end up crying alot.

I dont want to seem like an attention seeker by writing this, I just want to let you guys know why I havent updated.

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