I feel dead inside. He found me, he broke me again. I walked up to the window in my bedroom, I saw El walking with Audrey through the garden even from my room I could see her cheeks, red. I walked back to my desk and sat down. I looked at the lunch that was placed in front of me and picked up the sandwich and took a bite.
After waiting to feel if my stomach would take it, I decided that I was okay. I took another bite then another. I had finished the sandwich and went to lie back in my bed, but before I had the chance, I had a signal from my stomach that said it didn't accept the sandwich. I ran to the bathroom and flung my head over the toilet. After I finished puking my guts up I walked to the sink and washed my mouth and face. I took a look in the mirror and I shook my head I got more and more angry, not at dad, at myself. Why I don't I deserve this? Why do I deserve to live compared to any other 17 year old? That's right I don't.

"Why the fuck am I still here?" I scream looked up at they sky hoping for God to answer.

"Scar?" I hear a familiar voice say behind my bedroom door

"Come in" I mumble quietly

"Melody is here" I heard Eleanor say

"Melody?" I say hopeful, why is she here?

"Hey" She says, her voice cracking "H-how are you doing"

"Whats the purpose of living?" I asked

"What?"

"Why couldn't I just end it now?

"Scarlet! Please don't say that." She said

"Answer my question!" I scream

"You want to know the point of living? Your family, friends, fans everyone who love you is the point of living!" I yell back

"I'm unlovable, unwanted, I don't deserve this life" I whisper while tears flowed freely down my face

"You can't say that when you have 17 people who we all consider family... Do you want me to name them? Okay, Ally, Ariella, Carmen, Isabella, Liv, me, Taylor, Ashton, Calum, Michael, Luke, Louis, Zayn, Harry, Niall, Liam, Eleanor, Perrie, and don't even forget about your fans"

I started to think... Maybe she's right, but I needed to be around them. I stood there, quiet for a few minutes before I finally spoke.

"Isn't there a party that everyone is going to tonight?" I asked her

"Um yeah... Are you sure?" Melody asked unsure

"Yes, those people love me, and... I need to be around them" I said looking at my feet. I heard footsteps and saw another pair of feet in front of mine and arms started to wrap around me. I hugged her back and for the first time in days or weeks or however long its been... I smiled.

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I Looked at myself and nodded, approving. I walked down the stairs and saw Louis and Eleanor talking to the babysitter and Mel was standing in the kitchen getting a drink. she looked up and saw me and a smile etched onto her flawless face. I walked downstairs and my adoptive parents turned to look at me. El had a huge smile on her face and I saw a tear build up in her eye. I started to laugh and I ran to her and embraced her in a hug. I looked to Louis and the same thing was happening to him... well except he didn't have make up running. El and I broke our hug and I walked in front on Louis.

"Thank you, Louis." Louis smiled

"Well I best think we should go" I said afterwards

"I'm driving" I yelled

"No you're not!" Louis smiled

"Well then I'm taking a different car, MELODY FOLLOW" I yelled slash laughed, I still hurt inside, but there was no point in showing it. I grabbed the keys to a random car and figured out it was my 2015 VW Beetle. I pranced to the car and got in the driver's seat, while Mel followed slowly.

"Hurry the FUCK up!" I yelled and Melody walked a little faster while we were laughing.

I turned on the radio and heard a song that was new to me but obviously not to Mel.

"It's going down for real!" She sang. I just laughed as I danced in my seat, still managing not to get us in a crash. I arrived at the party and I was bombarded with sad smiles and hugs, but I was still happy to see everyone.

A little while later I decided I needed a break from everyone and saw Harry getting into his car. I decided I would ask to go with him.

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After getting back I talked for a while longer before I saw Louis, Calum, Michael, Zayn, and Niall, all hammered. I laughed as I saw all the girls sipping their wine very classy as they watched their friends or boyfriends do stuff they were going to regret with the hangover tomorrow. I walked around a bit more, talking to the girls and such before I decided to go on a walk.

A burst of energy ran through me and I instantly felt like I needed to run. I found a bench close by and took off my heels and started to run. I looked around my surroundings, but before I knew it, I ran into someone and we both fell with me on top.

"I am so sorry!" I said as I got off of him

"Can you hide me?" He asked in a rush

"There he is!" I heard a girl scream behind him

"Please!?" he said with worry. I grabbed his hand.

"Follow me" I said and I started to run back to the party. We reached to the house and we ran to the backyard.

"Thank you!" The boy said, out of breath. I started to laugh and so did he and soon enough we were on the ground. When we started to calm down, I looked at the boy once again, he was from something but... From what?

"Now that you won't be killed by other girls, Hi, I'm Scarlet!" I said with a goofy smile. The boy looked at me and his mouth fell agape. Crap... Does he know who I am?

"Hi... I'm- I'm beautiful... No! You're beautiful- I mean... Mikey?" The boy said more like a question. I laughed.

"Your name is Mikey?" He nodded, "Well its nice to meet you, Mikey"

"I'm sorry if this sounds rude... But do I know you from somewhere?" He asked

"I was just about to ask you the same thing"

"Well my name is Mikey Murphy. I'm a YouTuber and I just moved here from New Jersey" Mikey said. That's where I knew him! I watched a video of him with Ricky Dillon! I tried my best not to fangirl and speak to him like a normal person.

"Hi I'm Scarlet Key Tomlinson, I was adopted by Louis Tomlinson from One Direction!" I replied.

Notes

Heyyy so Mikey Murphy is a real youtuber and he is my fav... if you don't know him look him up and there are pictures, this is all basically pretend like he never moved and shit but still, I just wanted to incorperate him in the story. K byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

•Stay Beautiful•

~Jess