Deaf Love.
Where My Demons Hide.
Niall POV
I feel so alive and a sense of peace is found in my soul, I am not fighting my demons with them anymore. I have actually accepted my flaws in my life, because there are people in my life that accepts me for who I am.
I don’t miss the dark place I was in before at all, because sure it did give me some sort of satisfaction for a short period of time after that I felt lonely and depressed. Chloe has been there every single time since the time I got out of the hospital, she didn’t let me out of her sight.
Falling in love and finding the right person feels that sense of completeness in your life, I never believed in love before I was raised in a conservative religious family. I am really scared about what my parent may think of me, but I have Chloe by my side she accepts my flaws.
Chloe: “Hey there is someone feeling philosophical today?, you haven’t said a word to me during the entire two classes we had is something bothering you?.”
Me: “I am nervous meeting my parents after a long time of not seeing them, I am scared that they will not accept the person I am now. I am sure they will be disappointed with me, I don’t look like an angel anymore in their eyes. I have gone and did all the norms that is forbidden for me to do in the first place, getting a tattoos on top of that my ears are pierced. I am an ugly human being and I am disappointment to my family, Chloe I don’t know why do you love me or what you see in me. I really thought for a second that I am happy in my life right now, but it looks like I am not my dark thoughts are fighting with me now. Chloe please I don’t want to hurt you in the long run, I am not a stable human being you need stabbelety in your life I cannot give you it. I selling drugs and a part of a gang right now, Chloe I am sorry but I cannot hurt you.”
She grabbed my hand and tilted my chin to her, I couldn’t see anything else but her beautiful eyes and pure soul. She gave me a warm hug that really put my guard down her hugs just break, anything that is negative in my life that is going on right now. Without saying a word she can make me go weak and break down, I have never broken down in front of a girl before Chloe has seen me break down so much that is because I really love her so much. I am not worthy of her she is a beautiful and innocent soul, I am just the complete opposite of her.
Chloe: “Baby please listen to me I am sorry for being rude to you at first, you are a beautiful soul deep down inside all the tattoos and piercings. I am madly in love with the person hiding under that shield of wall. You don’t have to change anything for me, that doesn’t include drinking and consuming drugs I want you to stop all of that. I am in love with a guy that is a part of a gang member that sells drugs for a living, if I didn’t love you do you think I would be with you?. You showed me a different side to you a side, that I adore. Niall please don’t go back to your dark place, you have to stay in a positive place remember that I love you. Your family I am sure loves you as well, we are going to visit them tomorrow so I understand you are facing some nervousness right now which is normal. I am going to be with you the entire time, so don’t worry my angel what ever happens I will be here.”
End Of POV
I feel so alive and a sense of peace is found in my soul, I am not fighting my demons with them anymore. I have actually accepted my flaws in my life, because there are people in my life that accepts me for who I am.
I don’t miss the dark place I was in before at all, because sure it did give me some sort of satisfaction for a short period of time after that I felt lonely and depressed. Chloe has been there every single time since the time I got out of the hospital, she didn’t let me out of her sight.
Falling in love and finding the right person feels that sense of completeness in your life, I never believed in love before I was raised in a conservative religious family. I am really scared about what my parent may think of me, but I have Chloe by my side she accepts my flaws.
Chloe: “Hey there is someone feeling philosophical today?, you haven’t said a word to me during the entire two classes we had is something bothering you?.”
Me: “I am nervous meeting my parents after a long time of not seeing them, I am scared that they will not accept the person I am now. I am sure they will be disappointed with me, I don’t look like an angel anymore in their eyes. I have gone and did all the norms that is forbidden for me to do in the first place, getting a tattoos on top of that my ears are pierced. I am an ugly human being and I am disappointment to my family, Chloe I don’t know why do you love me or what you see in me. I really thought for a second that I am happy in my life right now, but it looks like I am not my dark thoughts are fighting with me now. Chloe please I don’t want to hurt you in the long run, I am not a stable human being you need stabbelety in your life I cannot give you it. I selling drugs and a part of a gang right now, Chloe I am sorry but I cannot hurt you.”
She grabbed my hand and tilted my chin to her, I couldn’t see anything else but her beautiful eyes and pure soul. She gave me a warm hug that really put my guard down her hugs just break, anything that is negative in my life that is going on right now. Without saying a word she can make me go weak and break down, I have never broken down in front of a girl before Chloe has seen me break down so much that is because I really love her so much. I am not worthy of her she is a beautiful and innocent soul, I am just the complete opposite of her.
Chloe: “Baby please listen to me I am sorry for being rude to you at first, you are a beautiful soul deep down inside all the tattoos and piercings. I am madly in love with the person hiding under that shield of wall. You don’t have to change anything for me, that doesn’t include drinking and consuming drugs I want you to stop all of that. I am in love with a guy that is a part of a gang member that sells drugs for a living, if I didn’t love you do you think I would be with you?. You showed me a different side to you a side, that I adore. Niall please don’t go back to your dark place, you have to stay in a positive place remember that I love you. Your family I am sure loves you as well, we are going to visit them tomorrow so I understand you are facing some nervousness right now which is normal. I am going to be with you the entire time, so don’t worry my angel what ever happens I will be here.”
End Of POV
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