Being Carter Hood (5SOS)

Its 4am and everyone is meeting up in the lobby to head to the next tour stop. Why they thought it was necessary to leave at this time? I have no fucking idea. My face looks like I just got punched in the face, from the lack of sleep. I haven't even gone to bed yet, because I stayed up all night not being able to stop thinking about Michael. I'm not letting Luke, Ashton, or Michael see me like this! So, I decide to put on a fresh coat of makeup, and when that didn't really work I put my trust in big fat black sunglasses to avoid attention going to my dark circles. It is way to early to wear dressy clothes so I wore a pare of red sweatpants and a matching hoodie, with grey uggs.

"I'm so damn tired.." Stella mumbles next to me as she presses the lobby button on the elevator when we enter. One thing about me when I'm tired or just woke up, I hate talking. It sounds weird, but it takes me a while to want to speak. So I just nod and keep my head down. I hope no one is cheery at this hour. I can't handle that right now.
I flinch slightly as the elevator rings loudly when the doors open. The first thing I see is My brother and the others talk among eachother. My suitcases's wheels creak as I begin walking towards them with Stella doing the same. "Damn what happened to you?" Calum jokes to me with a smile of his face. I'm way to tired to glare at him so I just stick my tongue out instead. Childish, yes. But when your tired.. Your tired. "Alright lets just get into the car so I can sleep." Michael complains before walking out the doors with Stella, Ashton, and Calum following him. Luke waits to walk with me. He places his arm around my shoulder in a comforting way as we walk into the freezing air and I lean into his touch. I wish in this moment I can just collapse into his arms and sleep. My skin feels relieved when the cars warm air coming from the heater hits my pink face and my body is able to relax when I sit. Were in the car again that has two back seats and this time Calum is driving with Ashton in the passenger seat. Luke and I again, then Michael and Stella in the seats behind us. I offered to sit with Stella in case, she didn't want to sit with Michael but she said it didn't bother her. I mean, the only person Michael is ever rude to is me.
"Where to next?" I hear Stella ask my brother. "New Jersey." He yawns. The car begins to move and I need to get comfortable if I want to sleep. Ugh sleeping in cars sucks but I'll take what I can get. I look behind me and Ashton is already passed out and slightly snoring, Michael is leaning against the car door on my side with his eyes closes, but I can tell he isn't asleep. I couldn't help but stare for a while at his features. The way his lips pout just a little when his face is relaxed.. When you see a good looking guy, you call them cute, sexy, or hot. But with Michael its different. I believe every girl has just that one person who is different from all the other guys. That those three other words are not sentimental or strong enough to describe that one person. Michael is not cute, hot, or sexy. He's beautiful, gorgeous, He's my someone different.. And he hates me.
"Carter are you okay?" Luke whispers to me. Not sure how long I was staring at Michael but I guess it was long enough for him to notice. "Yeah." I nod my head. I can tell in his face he doesn't believe me. "Then why are you crying?" Luke looks down to me. My eyes widen a little as my hand brushes a cold tear from my cheek. I was crying and I didn't even notice.. My tiredness is making my head sworm with emotions. "I'm fine, really. I just need to sleep." I say softly. Luke frowns when I say this but hesitantly nods. I scoot my body all the way against the car door, opposite to Luke yet right infront of Michael. I couldn't sleep against Luke when all I can think about is Michael.. Even if Luke is only a friend it still didn't feel right.
For a while I tried to sleep but It was hard. I couldn't help it anymore. I let the silent tears fall. Eventually crying myself to sleep.
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I was woken when the car jerked forward and came to a halt. I didn't bother opening my eyes. I can tell its still dark out so I'm guessing its only been an hour or less. I'm still so tired. My head is leaned against the glass window while my arm lazily hangs down by the crack between the seat and the two doors. "Luke." A voice frantically whispers. I can tell it was Calum's. "Yeah?" He answers confused. "Why the hell, is their tear stains on my sisters cheeks?" Calum hisses. "Honestly, mate I don't know." Says Luke. I hear car doors open but I can feel Luke's didn't or the one behind me... "Were you a jerk to her?" A voice snaps from behind me. Michael. "Are you serious!? Apparently thats your job!" Luke whisper yells. I can feel they are the only other two in here besides me. Michael scoffs. "Whatever." He mutters. "What you don't have anything to say?" Luke asks annoyed. "Its none of your business!" Michael says loudly. Ugh this fight is giving me a headache. "Its ev-" I cut Luke's words off. "Guys.. stop fighting." I mumble tiredly. I feel their eyes on me as I lift my head and look at them. My eyes lock with Michael's. His. face looks angry when i first look at him but softens a little. "You really were crying.." He mutters. I don't think he meant to say that, because as soon as he did a glare spread his face and he got out of the car angrily and slammed the door. Another disappointing moment from Michael to add to the list.
"Come on, Carter. We stopped to eat." Luke sympathetically tell me. I look out the window to see a lit up sign saying. 'Dani's Dinner' my stomach rumbles at the thought of food right now. Its heals everything.

Notes

Hello! Hope this chapter is okay. Just wait because something is going to go down! Not sure when but soon. Your going to be like. "Oh shit!" ahaha <3 love you all.