Songs for the Chapter:

Ghosts ~ Mayday Parade

Don’t ~ Ed Sheeran

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{Horan}

I quickly pay for the bread and milk my mum wanted me to buy, so I could catch up to her. The cashier was hostile towards me because I laughed at him, but I honestly couldn’t care less. I grabbed the bags and quickly ran outside and scanned the parking lot only to see her getting in her car and driving off.

“Fuck,” I mutter.

I don’t know why I didn’t just ask for her number when we were in the damn store. I’m so stupid sometimes. Slightly upset, I go and get in the car setting the bags in the passenger seat. After dropping off the groceries, I go to my flat and lay on the couch watching some movie. My mind eventually drifted back to the girl at the grocery store. She seemed...different for some reason and I don’t know why. I could probably come up with a thousand words to describe this girl, yet we verbally exchanged twenty. Alas, I soon remember my previous girlfriends and how terribly those relationships ended.

Any reason you think a girl would break up with me, it’s happened. Some moved away, some met other guys, a couple cheated on me,and of course I ended the relationship sometimes. I just fall in love too easily, and with the wrong people. Girls saw me as a toy that they could play with and then just throw away.

They say it’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.

Bullshit.

If I wouldn’t have fell in love with some of the people I had a fallen in love with, then maybe I wouldn’t be so scared. Maybe I would've gotten that girl’s number at the grocery store. It’s funny how one person’s actions can affect your decisions years later. These girls decided that it was okay to cheat on me, and now their choice is possibly keeping me from pursuing a relationship. After all that thinking I get tired, so I walk down the hallway to my bedroom, not even bothering to change. I’m curled up in bed when the thought hits me.

Those girls aren’t keeping me from pursuing a relationship.

I am.

Notes

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