I Do

Catie's POV

I wake up and see that Harry is no longer in bed anymore.

I hate him. All he ever did was hurting me. All the things he said to me, just breaks me. The feeling of being bullied is so painful, it kills you inside. They hurt you with words. Their words are like monsters that go inside your heart en beat the shit out of it till it's so broken, that it's impossible to fix it. You just can't ignore it, you try but you still hear it.

The feeling of knowing everyone's hating you is horrible, but he worst thing is hating yourself.

And I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. Everytime I came home from school, I'd go straight to my room. But even then I couldn't cry, my parents could hear me, and ask why i'm crying. I just couldn't tell them. I didn't want to hurt them. I didn't want to get them into problems. So everytime at night, when everybody was asleep, I cried. I cried and cried, till I cried myself to sleep.

It still hurts and I won't go away, they hit me. They slapped me, and they kicked me. I couldn't do something, I was too weak. And sometimes I was thinking, why me? Why do they hate me, what have I done? How could they do that, hurting someone? How could that be funny?

Everyday I had questions like this in my head, but I never got the answer.

Even thinking about the things they've done to me hurts.


I wanted to walk away, walk away of this world. I wanted to live in my own world, my own fantasy. Even know it wasn't possible, I still wanted it.
Nobody loves me because I'm different. But they don't know a single shit about me.

In my own world there would be people like me. People who have been hurt, like me. People that deserve all the happiness in the world. They could live happily and follow their dreams. Everybody would accept each other for HOW they are, not who you are, what you have or how you look like from the outside.

Those bullies, and other malignant people, just didn't have seen the light. They didn't realize it.

Once they do, once they realize how hurt someone can be, once they stop with their bullies and that stuff, I will let them in my world. I will let them live happy, because I think no matter what you are, everybody deserves happiness.

And then they would learn from their mistakes, at least I hope they do.
I hope that one day all the bullies, fights and wars just stop. That they won't exist anymore. I hope hate doesn't exist anymore.

Because then, my world won't just be MY world, but OUR world. With love, happiness and no hate.

That's my biggest dream.


I go downstairs and find Harry in the kitchen making breakfast, with only a t-shirt and boxers on. Geez.

He turns around and smirks at me.

"Goodmorning, Catie. Slept well?" he asks me.

"Morning. Yes, and you?" I ask quietly. I'm scared of him okay.

"Yeah... Yes, I did..." he frowns, and takes a step towards me.

I take a step back, scared of what he's going to do.

"Are you... scared of me?" he asks quietly. I'd be lying if I say I didn't saw hurt and worry flashing in his eyes.

"N-no..." I stutter.

He slowly takes steps towards me while I take steps back, till I hit the counter.

Harry looks at me, his eyes pouring to mine as he lifts his hands up. I flinch, thinking he would hit me. But I was wrong, his large hands only cupped my cheeks, his eyes never leaving mine.



Harry's POV


Shit, she's really scared of me. I'm a monster. God, why did even all the bullies happen? I wish I could take it all back. It feels bad, but annnoying at the same time.

Catie looks at me, frightend. I can read that from her eyes.

"I know you're afraid, Catie. You just don't like to admit. Please, give me just one chance! I won't do or say anything that'll hurt you, Catie!"

"Maybe I am afraid. Maybe I am afraid because I'm forced to marry a guy, and that guy happens to be my bully! I don't know if I should give you a chance, you just hurt me so damn much, and now you're acting like it never happend! I don't know okay, I fucking don't know it anymore!"

She walks towards the food and turns the stove off, before it gets burned.

" I know okay! I fucking know! I won't do it anymore!"

"But why did you bully me then?" she yells.

"I don't know, okay! I just don't know! I was hurt too, and I didn't know what I was doing! I was just confused about my feelings towards you, you are different and for some reason I like to be around you."

''What?'' She says shocked.

Shit, what am I going to tell her? I'm literally the only one who's dumb enough to say
that.

''I kinda like you, okay? I don't hate you...'' I yell at her and I wanted to run away but I couldn't.

Notes

Hey guys! This was Chapter 2! Hope u liked it!

This chapter was a bit hard for me to write, because all the things I wrote in Catie's POV were based on a true story. I was bullied, and it hurts more than being burned in hell.

I'll probably do another update today, I'm not sure.

Love you all guys! And thanks for the sweet coments!