I Do

Catie's POV


''...so much, but I know she'll never like me, she hates me.'' I hear Harry's voice say as I come downstairs. I quickly walk to the living.

''I don't hate you, Harry.'' I softly say. His mom is here, duh. I don't want her to think that I absolutely hate him or something.

He stands up and turns around.

''What?'' He says. He's standing in front of me now.

''I'll leave you guys alone.'' Harry's mom says and heads to the stairs.

''I don't hate you.'' I simply say. Look, he and his stupid friends may have bulllied me, but he actually wasn't the worse bully. Jett and another guy were the worse. And I don't wanna have a future with a husband I totally hate. We need to accept some things in life too, even know they're not the best things.

''You... you don't?'' `He says. He's very close to me now.

''Nope.'' I say, popping the 'P'.

''Really?''

''Harry...''

''I'm sorry.'' He chuckles deeply. He puts his hands on my waist, just above my hips.

''Well, that's a good thing because I don't hate you too.'' He smirks.

But... What...? How...? He's supposed to hate me, da fricking fuq.

He leans in and I can feel his hot breath on my neck, his arms wrapped around my waist now and he pulls me towards him, closing the gap between our stomachs.

What is he trying to do? I want to pull him away, but I can't. I'm frozen here and I feel like I'm in another world, with only Harry and... me in it?

I can't move. It's like he's controlling my body now.

He looks up. He then looks into my eyes and it's like he's trying to get in my soul.

''Catie...'' He breaths. He leans in and gives me an eskimo kiss. His lips brush onto mine and he plants his lips very softly on mine. I was kissing back for a moment, but then I pulled away.

I can't do this. I don't want to kiss him.

''Catie... Don't.'' Harry whispers and his arms thighten around me, pulling me towards him again.

''I'm sorry, Harry. But I can't do this.'' I say and turn around. He pulls me towards him, again and I turn around to face him.

''Why? Why can't you? Wasn't it you who said we can't hate each other forever? Wasn't it you hwo said we have to accept each other? Catie, I've been thinking every single night since I'm here and I can't stop blaming myself for hurting you. I know, Jett and his stupid ass friend did the worse because they hit you and stuff, but still. You said you didn't hate me, but you obviously still do.'' He says.

''Yes, I did say those things but that doesn't mean we're going to act like a cute couple or something. And I didn't only hate you, I hate everyone who has been bullying me. It's just, you did hurt me as well.I I actually don't know why you're acting like this, but you said this is you so I have to live with it, I think. And no, I don't hate you anymore, because I'm your wife. You're my husband. We reslly can't hate ech other till we die, I don't want to have a life like that.'' I say and look down.

''Look baby, I know you don't want a life like. Before our wedding, my mom wanted to talk to me. She told me to close my eyes and imagine that I was a little boy, weak and shy. People were laughing at me, they called me weird, mean names and they hit me. I didn't know why she was letting me do this, so I opened my eyes and asked her. She told me how I felt, or how I would feel if it was in real life like that. I'd feel very weak, and it's like nobody cares about you. She said that me and the guys made you feel like this and that got me thinking every single night since our wedding. I don't want you to feel like that. I want us both to live happily ever after but you got to work on this too. If you keep pushing away, I probably wouldn't know what to do anymore. '' He tells me. He is right, I keep pushing away but I'm just afraid something will happen. I mutter a 'I know' to him back.

It's been almost three weeks with him and he's acting like this every time. I still don't know if I should believe him or not because maybe he's just using me for sex, or something else. He told me a few times he doesn't, but I still don't know if I should trust him. What he just said was kinda sweet but true though.

Without thinking I wrap my arms around his neck, rest my head on his chest and close my eyes.

''Are you tired?'' He whispers in my ear, making me shiver. I nod and he picks me up bridal style.

He enters our bedroom and gently puts me on the bed.

''I'm going to change in the bathroom.'' I say, grabbing a black pajama shorts and a white tanktop. I don't want to change in the same room with him. He said he understands that and I think that's very sweet of him.

After I'm changed I walk to our bedroom and close the door behind me. I see Harry already in bed, only in his boxers, as always. I climb in bed laying down next to him.

''Goodnight.'' I mutter. I'm so fricking tired for some reason. I really need to sleep.

''Goodnight, Catie.'' Harry whispers. Soon I felt his arms around my waist and he pulls me towards him so my back is against his chest.


Harry's POV


I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her towards my chest. I seriously can't stop myself from everything today.

Suddenly Catie turns around to face me. Even in the dark she looks so damn perfect.

''But I still don't know why you kissed me.'' She says.

Shit.

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