Give me love like this

It's 3:00 am. I haven't slept all night. When I got back to my room last night the rest of my family was still at the show. I didn't feel like talking with anyone. Last night was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, say good bye to my best friend. It's crazy how close we've gotten in a week. I feel like I've known her my whole life. I wish I would have, grow up with her, maybe we can grow old together.

I tossed and turned all night. I know exactly what happened last night after she shut her hotel room door. I heard her slide down the door and burst into tears. It took a lot for me to walk away. I'm glad Maggie was still up, I heard her trying to console her. I just hope she got some sleep for her long day today. We're not leaving for a few days. I feel like Aruba will not be fun with out the Jensen's. I know my mum will feel the same way about Anna being gone, they've grown close too.

I decide to stop laying here. Her bus leaves in 15 minutes, I'm sure they're already down there waiting, just in case the bus comes early. I grab my things, since I couldn't sleep last night I decided to write her a letter of everything. But I didn't want her to read it till I was out of sight.

I slip my shoes on, forget the shirt, I have shorts on and take off out the door. I didn't even grab my key but I don't care. I run down towards the main lobby, not even running on the sidewalk, just trying to take the quickest route possible when I hear Maggie's voice.

“Liam! Were over here!” She's yelling and waving in her direction. I don't see Codi or her Dad anywhere. Maybe they're running late.

“Where is she?” I say out of breath.

“Oh, hun, she's gone.” Her mum, Anna announces from a seat behind me.

I look back at her confused.

“What do you mean she's gone?” I ask, I missed her? It's not even 3:10 am yet.

“Her and James took the earlier bus at 2:30. They both couldn't sleep and Codi didn't want to be here anymore.” Her mom states. “So they left earlier with some people and we stayed behind to check out and catch our bus at 3:15. I'm so sorry.”

I couldn't stand anymore. I just sit on the ground, bring my knees up towards me chest and look down. I feel like I've been ran over by the bus. I missed her. My big dramatic entrance to declare my love was ruined. She couldn't sleep all night, we could have hung out all night, just the two of us. I wish she would have said something.

“Are you ok?” Maggie asks as she crouches down.

“Yeah. I just wanted to say good bye one last time.” I'm so upset with myself. “I-I wrote her a letter, could you give it to her for me please?” I stammer out as I hold up the letter to give to Codi.

“Anything.” Maggie takes the letter from me and slips it into her purse. She reaches her hand out to help me up as their bus pulls up. “Sorry Liam, but mom and I gotta go.”

“Yeah. You do. Please don't forget about the letter.” I know she wont because she wants Codi to be happy, I'm just not good at goodbyes. I hug Maggie and Anna and help them get their bags into the bus and bid my farewells.

I sit on the bench a little while longer before making my way back to my hotel room. I have to stop at the front desk to get another key to my room first. I grab my phone, I've been writing that letter and lyrics all night, I haden't even realized where it was. I found it jammed under the covers. I notice I have some text alerts.

They're from Codi.

Of course.

And she sent them around midnight.

“Can't sleep. You awake?” at 12:14. I groan. Why do I have to leave my phone on vibrate.

“Dad and I are leaving early, taking the 2:30 bus, feel free to come down.” at 1:30. I missed two texts from her. I always have my phone on me, what was I thinking? I've been so used to leaving it somewhere because Codi would make me. She wanted me to get away, and I'll admit it was nice to not have the urge to constantly check my e-mails, twitter, and texting.

“I'm so sorry. I didn't have my phone with me. I ran down to see you, but you had already left. I wrote you a letter, I gave it to Maggie.” I respond to her texts. I lay on the bed, exhausted, hoping to fall asleep when I feel my phone vibrate in my hand.

“Hey! It's ok. I was nervous that I would miss my flight, thankfully dad was awake too, we stole some fruit from the display and off we went!”

Always bright and cheerful. Even at 3:30 in the morning with no sleep.

“And I'll read your letter! Have fun today without me! Try to get some sleep Eagle Eye.” She texts me again, using her “fun” nickname for me.

“I'll try. Don't read it till you get on the plane. Already miss you.” I respond, I can feel myself fighting to stay awake. I don't have to get up early, no one to share breakfast with.

“Yes sir! Miss you more. Go to bed!!” A smile creeps on my face. I turn my phone volume all the way up, I don't even care if people will think its obnoxious. I plug my phone in to charge it and slide under the covers to try to rest as much as possible. I'm sure I'll be glued to my phone every second of this trip from now on.

Notes

And their after journey begins...