Adopted by 1D
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The yard
Toni's POVI blinked my eyes, light blaring above. I jumped. And I almost fell off the roof. I looked around and realised that it was morning. And I had slept on the roof. I laughed, but stopped myself quickly.
'WHERE THE HELL IS SHE!!!???'
'Louis, calm down!'
'How can I calm down!? My baby girl is missing!'
'I know! But getting upset isn't going to help find her!'
'I know. I'm sorry.'
'TONI! Where are you!?'
'What if her father got her!!??'
'Harry!'
'What? It is possible!'
'Shut up!'
'Sorry.'
'Toni!'
I started to feel bad. I had got them into a fret over nothing. I looked down from the roof and realised that I didn't want them to find out about the roof. I wanted it to be my special place. I decided that they probably hadn't looked in the backyard, so I would have to get down there. I don't know what went through my mind, but I jumped off the roof. It hurt like a boss. I gained my balance again and walked a couple of metres, collapsing onto the grass.
'Guys! Has anyone checked the yard?!'
'No!'
'I'll check!' I watched Louis open the door an stare at me. I waved. I saw a flash of anger cross his face.
'Why didn't you answer when we called!? We were so worried! Get inside now!!!'
What he said brought back memories of my adoptive families who would get angry and beat me. I started to shake. Louis was going to hurt me. I dragged myself backwards across the grass, trying to get as far away as possible. I had never been as scared of anyone as I was right then. The anger didn't leave Louis' face as he marched towards me. I started to hyperventilate. My breathing was quick and raspy. And very loud. I continued to drag myself across the grass, until I hit the fence. I felt tears stream down my face. I started to sob. Louis stopped in his tracks. He bent down in front of me.
'I'm sorry baby. I never meant to scare you. I..'
'Please don't hurt me. I trusted you,' I said, cutting him off.
'Oh baby. I would never hurt you,' he said softly, placing a hand on my shoulder. I flinched away at his touch and started to sob again. There goes my trust. Spiralling down the drain. Louis pulled his hand back. I stopped crying and but continued shaking. I didn't want to be scared of Louis. He leaned against the fence and tears welled in his eyes, as he ran a hand through his hair.
'I'm sorry,' I said quietly. Louis shook his head.
'It was my fault. I'm really sorry I scared you. Do you forgive me?'
I thought about it. It was a no brainer. I nodded and wrapped my arms around his neck. Louis seemed surprised by this gesture, but hugged back.
Inside everybody started to get frustrated. Louis gave them dirty looks so they didn't go off at me. I felt really guilty. As soon as the guys weren't looking, I sprinted upstairs and into my bedroom. I don't know why, but I felt as though I wanted to give up. Just pop a pill bottle and end this travesty that is called my life. I smiled. It was a brilliant idea. But I knew that the guys would disapprove. I knew that they cared a little bit, but what they said was an over exaggeration. They didn't truly care about me. They mainly cared about their careers. Who could blame them? I mean, I am nothing, compared to their brilliant lifestyles. I decided against the suicide, so I went downstairs to see what the guys were doing. I know. I sat on the end of my bed contemplating suicide for over two hours. But that's what I do. I think about dying half my life. I just wanted to leave. Get rid of all my problems. And stop being a burden to others. Everyone would be a lot happier.
Downstairs everyone was sitting on the couch, except Liam. I joined them.
'So guys! What movie shall we watch?' Liam asked, rubbing his hands together. There was a chorus of answers.
'HORROR!!'
'DISNEY!!'
'COMEDY!!'
'ROMANCE!!'
I didn't answer. I didn't really want to have a say. It felt abnormal. All the guys looked at me expectantly. I shrugged.
'Pick a number between 1 and four Liam,' I said, putting the suggestions in order.
'Err, 3.' I smiled.
'Horror.' Zayn cheered. He obviously suggested it. Liam pulled out the first scary movie he found and slid it in the player. It was absolutely horrifying. Louis screamed several times. Harry hid behind Niall, who hid behind Liam, who hid behind Zayn. Louis wrapped his arms around me and hid his face in my hair. I laughed at the fact that he was so scared by something so fake. The movie ended. Louis looked at me, and wondered why I had a poker face the whole movie.
'Why weren't you scared!? I was looking forward to you screaming,' Louis pouted. I shrugged.
'It was SO fake. I mean, if that actually happened, there wouldn't be a happy ending. Anyway, you sort of go numb towards all that stuff once you've been through it in real life. So, who's hungry?' I asked, clapping my hands together. The guys stared at me, horrified. They obviously didn't know my full story. I stood up and started for the kitchen.
'Toni, what happened?' Liam begged. I turned and sighed. Here we go....
Are you like the others?
The ones who raped me, beat me, starved me and hated me?
I don't want to be hurt again.
Please don't hurt me.
But in the end,
you'll become the person you promised you wouldn't. « PrevNext »
Notes
Husky's outfit:http://www.polyvore.com/beautiful_innocence/set?id=110371899&lid=3560131
Your dad's an ass then if he says that...Anyway my dad says I was adopted and that I wasn't his child and a bunch of things and if know those aren't true cause I go through a lot of things to get evidence and I was right. It's just the way my dad shows affection for one and another. Remember that it doesn't matter what people think of you. You define beauty others don't define beauty for you. You shouldn't care about what your step dad thinks, when your old enough you'll be able to make your dad suffer and call him names and things like that. Put him through the stress he put you in.
6/25/14