let us love (larry stylinson fanfic)

LOUIS' P.O.V

When I woke up I saw Harry lying right next to me. He looked so perfect. I just want to cuddle with him but they cant know. They cant know im gay. If they found out they would for sure kick me out of the band. And I cant go back to Doncaster. I cant go back to that. All the bullies. I still cant believe the stuff they did to me. Harry's eyes fluttering open interrupted my thought and i said ''good morning.'' ''good morning Louis. Are you feeling better?'' ''yes, thank you.''
''any day lou.'' Did he just call me Lou!! ''Lou?'' I said ''sorry it slipped out-'' ''no I love it. You will be my Haz and I will be your Lou.'' ''Ok.'' i sat up and so did he. When i saw his tattoos i lost my breath. I had tattoos but his were just perfectly on him. I loved all of them. ''Are you liking what you see?'' I guess I was staring at his body for a long time. ''uh yea i love your tattoos.'' ''thank you. Do you want me to..........make breakfast?'' he said inbetween a yawn. ''no its ok i will have cereal.'' ''ok.'' When i got up and went to the kitchen table i was thinking about my own my best friend did to me when i told him i was gay. My ex-best friend, Richard, that i knew since i was 7, beat me up and raped me. i told him in the summer. i told my mom that i was going to stay at his house for summer vacation. And when we were in his room just talking and i told him and he freaked out. His mom and dad were going on a cruise so he was at the house alone. He said ''I CUDDLED WITH A GAY BOY!!'' We used to cuddle just for fun not because we had feelings for each other. ''im sorry i cant help it i was born this way.'' ''FUCK THAT LOUIS!!!'' I tried running out of his house but he grabbed me by my shirt and said ''where do you think your going pretty boy?'' then he tapped my hands behind my back and tapped my mouth. Every day he would rape me. he would always say, ''Louis let me give you a blow. And how about after that you give me one. i know you would love it, gay boy.'' EVERY FUCKING DAY OF THE SUMMER HE WOULD DO THIS TO ME. He would beat me to the point i cant imagine. When summer ended and the day before school started he told me that if i told anyone he would kill me. so i kept my mouth shut . he would beat me after school and it happened all over again for the next 3 summers. i finally ran away went to my house got a suit case and came to London. I tried out for the x-factor as a singer so i could maybe be treated differently and that's when they told me that i was going to be in one direction. But lately he has been trying to contact me and im honestly scared. he called me 2 days ago and told me that i haven't been a good boy and that he will find me. i started yelling ''FUCK YOU RICHARD I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS!!! JUST GO AWAY ALREADY-
Harry ran to my side rubbing circles on my bare back saying, ''Louis its ok. im here im here. you don't have to worry. shhhhh. i looked up at harry and he told everything was going to be ok and pulled me in for a warm loving hug. harry always knows how to cheer me up. ''come on lets go get dressed Jason called and said we have another interview today.'' he picked my up bridal style and carried me to my room.
After I got dressed i went to see if harry was ready. i walked over to harry's room and i knocked on the door and when he opened it i felt like an obsessed fangirl. he was in a towel and i couldn't help but to comment, ''your lookin cute.'' he said ''stop your making me blush.''
we both giggle as he gestures for me to enter his room. i jump on his bed and he asks me ''did you want to ask me something?'' ''no i just wanted to know if you were ready.'' ''oh ok'' as i start to exit he asks me ''where do you think your going.'' That brought back bad memories and i just fell to the floor. it hurt so much to hear those words again out loud. i broke down right there infront of harry. he ran over to me again rubbing circles on my back. he always does the best at comforting me. he said ''Louis what is wrong.'' i look up at him and he picks me up and carries me to the couch. After i tell him everything he leans in to hug me and tells me ''im going to fix you, Lou.'' he leans out and kisses my forehead and we sit there on the couch cuddling and making each other laugh until its time to leave. After the interview we stop for some starbucks and we go home. We stayed home cuddling and sleeping all day. I want Harry forever and ever. I don't EVER want to let him go.

Notes

sorry its so short but i have school tomorrow:( and its already 4:00 a.m. im going to only get 2 hours of sleep