You & I

What was Harry going to say to Louis? That was the only thing on his mind. Maybe Louis wouldaybe he would mind. Louis said that he loved Harry forever but maybe this forever is going to end because of a mistake.

Harry sat on the couch with his head in his hands. His hands were filled with salted tears. He didn't want to loose Louis. Louis ment so much to Harry. He was the air Harry breathed each and every day. What if Louis didn't Harry nor the little blimp inside? Should he just abort the blimp inside? Not give it a chance to live outside the world around but to take its own life because a mistake?

Harry had so much on his mind that he didn't hear the opening of the front door as Louis walked into the house.

"Harry, I'm home," Louis hollered.

Harry didn't moved. He, silently, cried harder. Louis wouldn't want him nor would he love a freak. A man that produced a child and gives birth.

Louis walked around the silent house calling out for harry until he walked into the living room. He saw Harry hunched over his legs, head in his hands, silent sobs leaving his mouth. Harry was wrecked. Louis walled over to Harry, placing his arms around the younger boy. Harry didn't move.

"Harry, what's wrong?" Louis asked but never got a reply back.

Lous got on his knees to face Harry. Louis, slowly, pulled Harry's hands away from his face. Tears stained cheeks, red puffy eyes, the emerald color of his eyes were dull, curls in a mess. What could have broken this boy so badly to have him looking like this?

"Harry, tell me what's the matter?" Louis begged looking into Harry's broken eyes.

"I can't. I can't, I can't, I just fucking can't," Harry chanted shaking his head.

"Please babe, don't leave me in the dark. I want to be there for you, help you, comfort you in any possible way," Louis held Harry's hand looking for some kind of hope that could Louis what's going on.

"You won't love me any more if I do tell you," Harry whispered.

Louis didn't know what to do. His boyfriend was broken. Louis began to tear up.

He ran his hands through his hair then gave out a sigh, "Harry, I would always love you forever. Remember that promise? That's a promise that I'm always going to keep. Just please tell me what's going on because I want to help."

Harry badly wanted to tell Louis about blimp but the 'what if' question popped into his head. Harry shook his head, "I can't, I can't I can't. You would leave us because you would think that I'm a freak."

"Us? Harry who's 'us'?" Louis asked in worried tone.

Harry opened his swollen red eyes into Louis's concerned blues ones.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry-" Harry chanted over again until his cries turned into sobs holding his invisible blimp.

Louis noticed Harry's action. He reached out to touch Harry's hand until Harry moved away from Louis holding his stomach protectively.

"Don't hurt us, don't hurt blimp," Harry cried but stopped suddenly.

"Blimp?" Harry slipped the secret out of his mouth. "I'm sorry please don't be angry please? It was a mistake that I didn't know about," Harry begged.

"What mistake? Harry, tell me what mistake?" Louis demanded.

"Blimp, little blimp. That's the mistake," Harry replied.

"What blimp?" Louis asked getting angry.

Harry got up from the couch not knowing that his ultrasound picture fell at Louis's feet. Louis looked at the picture and saw the little blimp.

"What is this?" Louis asked still looking at the picture.

Harry turned around to see Louis looking at the picture that was meant to keep hidden.

"It's nothing," Harry replied in low voice.

Louis stood up from his spot on the floor, "What do you mean 'It's nothing' Harry? This is obviously something."

"Louis, it's nothing okay?" Harry tried to reach for the picture but Louis moved his hand away.

"Harry, stop with the fucking bullshit and juts tell me. If you think that this thing is going to stop what we have here, your wrong. Is this why you were crying, because of this picture?"

Harry looked down at the ground, then his stomach, "Yeah."

"Why don't you tell me what's in the picture, please?"

"It's a blimp," Harry replied.

"I don't understand." Louis looked up at Harry who was still looking his stomach with one of his hands place securely around it.

Harry looked up at Louis, "Our blimp."

Louis eyes got wide. He looked at Harry then at the picture back at Harry. How could this be possible? Harry is a male and male could not carry children. This was some kind of joke. Louis wasn't ready to have a child, expecially now since he's still in school. Yes Harry was still in school but he took the online courses because of all the things that happened to him. But still, both boys were in school with no jobs and the only thing that's helping them both survive was the money Jay left behind for Louis.

Louis shook his head with a smile, "Nope." Harrys jaw dropped. "You can't be pregnant. Males can't get pregnant," Louis stated.

"You don't fucking think I know that!" Harry shouted. He knew Louis wouldn't believe him. His fear was coming true; Louis was either going to leave them or kick them out.

"Well stop with the damn jokes and tell me the fucking truth!" Louis raised his voice.

"I was right," Harry mumbled.

"What?" Louis questioned.

"I said I was right! You wouldn't believe me or the damn picture in your hand," Harry cried. "If you don't believe me, fine, but when I give birth to little blimp, your fucking name will not be on that damn paper as a parent."

"Like I give two shits," Louis said coldly. Harry was taken back on the remark. Louis didn't care. He was right after all.

Harry walked away from Louis without saying a word out the door, "Call me when you get your head out of your ass."

With that, Harry walked out. Harry tried calling Becka's phone but all he got was her voice mail. He walked down the cold streets pulling his jacket close to his chest until he heard a car pull up next to him to a full stop. Harry bolted away from the car until a felt arms around him holding a cloth against his mouth. Harry tried holding his breath but he has to breath some time. Before the darkness took over his body, the last he saw was James and Skyelar smiles plastered on their faces

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