Year six

I groan as Paul and I wander down to the other and of the court, I was trying to breathe despite the fact of how close I was about to come to Louis. I mean most people would think eleven to twelve year olds to young to have major feeling for someone. But we did. As we went to stand on our players I was trying not to smile as I walked to his side. " have fun getting flogged." He said through his teeth staring straight ahead. " your on." I giggle and I can see through my perpetual vision a big smile break out on his face . My heart flutters and I flip my hair over my shoulder in the uncomfortable silence, hitting him in the face in the process. He turns and looks straight at my hair, " why'd you bitch slap me you nasty hair" Louis say and pretends to be offended. The whistle blows and I'm still laughing as I stop Louis from getting the ball.
The game continues as we progressively begin to take over the scoreboard 13 -7 I was going well stopping just about every ball from reaching the goal and I was going in for another one when I skid on the concrete and almost topple but I'm caught by Louis. A chorus of ' awwwws' erupt from behind us and I go bright red but Louis is still holding me and as I look up his face is a mirror of mine , bright red. I pull myself and and sheepishly rub my arm. I don't know why but Mr Curitan had even stopped the game for our little moment.
"To Kyle thank you for being cool. From will." Mrs Tomkinson read out and passed the affirmation to Kyle. I was still writing mine but she wasn't waiting for me or Louis apparently. I finished mine and ran up to where the teacher was and put my two affirmations in the colourful box. Louis ran up a moment later and tried to drop his in the box as well but missed and it hit the desk. Of course Mrs Tomkinson picks his first " To Jade," it read that's when I drooped my attempt of getting past Ben Dando's chair and turned around. The only other words I caught from the message were "from Louis," because I was still n a trance like state. I walked up to the teacher and collected my note and went the opposite way to bens chair and sat down and read the words on that piece of paper for what seems like hours but was probably three minutes at the most. Mrs Tomkinson continues reading out the affirmations and I freeze when she gets to the one I wrote to Louis about helping me pick up the papers I spilt under my desk earlier that week. He walks up to mrs Tomkinson and grabs the coloured paper and glances down at it before back up at me. He's smiling as he walks beck to his desk. What does it mean?
I was scrolling through YouTube later that night and got caught up on Taylor Swift and Avril Lavinge music videos and reading on wattpad until I finally decided to text Ella about the pointing incident earlier. After many deleted messages and backspaces I came out with a message I was far from happy with but it would have to do.
I don't know why but I feel like you won't tell anyone this and plz delete this message so no one can see it, cause it kinda embarrassing, lol. So I don't know what I'm trying to achieve by this, I guess I needed to tell somebody.
I really like Louis , I know I pretend I don't and all, but I really do, and when today you pointed to when we were talking about him being desperate, I began to wonder if I had a chance, I mean I'm not the prettiest girl at school and he is really popular, and I've never had a boyfriend, and i don't think anyone has a crush on me or anything. And Clare and Tyler and you and jarred seem so happy and I want that. Cause lately I've been feeling kinda down, and I need a pick-me-up. I know this all seems stupid, but I know you are the kind of person I trust with this. I don't think I have a chance I just want somebody's opinion, plus I was wondering if you think he likes anyone, or if you could see us together. I feel really stupid now.
I looked at the time 11.53 oops I probably get to sleep I had a netball game the next morning although I usually stayed up much later. I dropped my iPad mini onto the carpet and roll over and fall into an endless pit of blackness.

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