After I had left the feeding room I went straight to my office and ate my sandwich that Simon had made for me that morning, I didn’t know how to react to all of the things that had happened but I knew that I had broken him slightly. As I sat there munching on my sandwich I couldn’t help but to think about his band mates. What would they think about him now that he was a cold hearted beast? These things were the stuff we didn’t tell potential turners. We didn’t want to frighten them, because no one wants to be heartless. If you have ever seen The Vampire Diaries then you know that once a vampire turns off their emotions, they are extremely hard to turn back on. But what the very successful show forgets to mention, or just pretends it doesn’t exist, is that once they are back on again the person in question will be in risk of turning into a monster. Turning off your emotions means turning off a piece of yourself. And every time this happens, a piece falls away. The sad part is it only takes a few times to lose yourself completely.

So was I mad at myself for making Niall turn his emotions off? Yes. Did I think he deserved what I did? Of course he did. I had a hard time accepting bad behavior from other people. I mean, I grew up with the one and only Simon Cowell for Christ sake. Although I had to give Simon the credit for making me a fairly good person. He might be extremely harsh most of the times but honesty is the one thing he appreciates the most. He taught me to treat people with the same honesty and appreciation that I wanted from them.

“We need to get this over with, Richard has a thing later.” I was surprised to see Daisy in the doorway but quickly snapped out of my thoughts and followed her to the room where the last two members of One Direction sat. When I walked in I knew they had heard about what had happened earlier but decided to ignore the fact. Instead I turned towards Daisy and spoke to her.

“You don’t have to be here for this one. But could you fetch me a coffee? Or have someone else do it? I need caffeine.” She nodded quickly before leaving the room and closing the door behind her. Without looking at the door I locked it with my mind and looked at Richard. “You ready?” He nodded and turned towards the boys, I avoided eye contact.

“So this is going to work like this…” He explained the procedure to the boys and when he was finished I put up the wall and he got right to it. This time I didn’t feel like talking to them, like before. It always hurt when I knew a person turned off their emotions because of me. We were done with Liam and Louis after just 50 minutes and I quickly walked them into the feeding room. When I knew they were taken care off I ignored the stares I got from the boys and walked straight to Simon’s office. I tried to ignore the people who wanted to talk to me and threw his secretary the finger when she tried to stop me from walking in there. When I was inside I understood why. Simon was sitting behind his desk and Niall was being held down by three holders. I instantly became furious, pushed them away without even touching them and held Niall down with my will.

“I told you to wait.” I spoke through clenched teeth and walked over to his desk.

“Last time I checked I’m the boss, not you.” Niall snorted with laughter but I only pushed him down harder on the chair and ignored his.

“You could’ve been hurt.” I could feel Niall trying to speak so I turned towards him and let him talk.

“Oh please honey, don’t flatter yourself. The only one I wanna kill is you.” I laughed at his statement and made him shut up once more.

“He’s not safe, and I can’t have you risking your life because ‘you’re the boss’.” I made air quotes and looked at Simon with a serious face. “You and I both know you’re strong, but that a new born is stronger than you.” He nodded and glanced over at Niall before looking back at me with a defeated look.

“Fine. What’s your plan?” I took a deep breath before looking at Niall.

“First of all I need to get him fed. Then I don’t know.” I sighed and ran a hand over my face. I was so tired after all the sessions today that I wasn’t sure I was going to be able to think of a good plan. “We’ll just have to start there. Are they staying here?” I looked at Simon with tired eyes and he nodded.

“They were supposed to stay in 5b but since this,” he pointed to Niall “happened then he has to stay in The Box.” I nodded and began walking to the door. As I let Niall a little loose I felt him bolt towards me. When I turned around to face him he was once again trying to reach my neck but failed massively.

“You know,” I smirked largely as I stared at him with very amused eyes “I’m not going to let my guard down.” I nodded my head over his shoulder to Simon and began walking towards the feeding room. Niall and I walked through an empty hallway and I turned around and stopped, because I had to talk to him. “Niall…” He didn’t let me continue as he cut my words off.

“Don’t say my name, I feel filthy when you do.” He looked at me with such hatred I felt it to my core. My heart actually hurt because of the blackness in his eyes.

“Stop being such a bloody wanker.” When he was about to say something I put my hand up and stopped him. “No, it’s my turn to be mean to you. Do you know what’s going to happen to you if you don’t turn your emotions back on?” I looked at him and waited for an answer, but he just stared at me with the same hatred as before. “They are going to kill you. They can’t have a rogue vampire running around killing innocent people. They, you call them management, do not care about you. They care about how you look to the public. If you do anything to jeopardize your image, they will remove you from the band.” He laughed another heartless laugh and looked slightly amused.

“As if I care. They can kill me, all I want to do is kill you.” He fake gasped as if he just got the best idea ever. “I know! You should let me kill you so that I can feel again.”

“Like that’s gonna happen.” I fake laughed at him and started walking towards the feeding room again. Since I practically made him follow me I knew he was right behind me. We walked into the large room where everything had happened earlier and I waved a young man over. He gave me a soft smile before he looked at Niall with scared eyes.

“Is he safe?” The young man looked at me and I shook my head.

“No, but that’s why I’m here. You don’t have to worry.” I pointed to a table for us to sit down at and made sure that Niall couldn’t touch the man.

“Could you stop with the holding me back thing? How am I supposed to eat?” Niall growled at me and I simply placed my hands on the table and ignored his statement.

“Here’s the thing. I’ll be holding him so that he won’t be able to touch you, only feed. I’m afraid that if he gets a hold of you that I won’t be able to get him off.” I looked at Niall and pointed at him. “You need to behave or something very bad is going to happen.” He snorted and looked at me with his all to dark eyes.

“Like what? You’ll crush my brain again?” I clenched and unclenched my teeth before speaking.

“No.” My next words were spoken in such a low voice that the young man in front of me didn’t hear, but Niall heard perfectly. “That’ll never happen again.” I was looking at my hands and waved towards them both as if to tell them to begin. During the whole thing I kept my eyes on Niall and made sure he didn’t touch the man with anything other than his lips, sounds saucy but it wasn’t. When I decided he was finished I pushed him off the young man and thanked him before walking with Niall out the door.

“You know, it’s rude to interrupt when someone’s eating.” Niall spoke with a low voice but I could still hear his resentment.

“Yeah? Well I was tired of babysitting you. I’m dropping you off at your room and then I’m going home.” I shrugged lightly and kept walking without looking back at him.

“So… The Box? Is it like a real little box where you just cram me inside or what?” His words gave a hint to that he was concerned about the fact that it might have been a real box, but his tone showed no emotion whatsoever.

“It’s just an expression. We call the room that because we lock it from the outside and it’s the safest place to keep a rogue newborn.” We passed a few workers in the hallways and they all nodded towards me but looked at Niall with weird expressions. I didn’t understand why, but I got upset when they did that. I wanted to tell them that it wasn’t his fault that this happened. But I would never voice my opinions about a newborn. I couldn’t because I wasn’t supposed to fraternize with any of them.

“That’s why it’s so awesome to not have any emotions.” I stopped dead in my tracks and looked at Niall with a confused stare. He just smirked back at me and I could see his fangs perfectly.

“I’m sorry?” I didn’t mean to have attitude in my voice but I did. This only made Niall’s smile grow bigger.

“I see you frowning and pouting like there’s something wrong honey.” He mocked me by pouting like I had done apparently and wiped away a fake tear. We had just arrived outside his room so I shoved the door open and pushed him inside.

“Do you every shut up?” He laughed his horrible laugh and it made me wonder what his real laugh was like. Was it like a rainbow on a sunny day or the light breeze on a hot summer’s day?

“Nope. And please, put your bloody walls up. It’s exhausting listening in to those boring thoughts of yours.” I gasped out loud and furrowed my eyebrows before quickly throwing the door closed and locking it. I stormed down the long hallway and over to Simons office, where I knew he would still be. I threw the door open and Simon looked up at me surprised.

“Has something happened?” When I simply shook my head as I sat down in the chair in front of his desk he got really worried. “Nick? Nicola, tell me what happened.” He rushed over and closed the door before kneeling in front of me. He touched my knees and I felt as if I could relax a little bit more. I always felt safe around Simon, he was like my father after all.

“He…” My voice trailed off and I lifted my head from my hands and looked at him. “He can read my thoughts Simon.” His mouth dropped open and he looked extremely confused and surprised. “No one can read my thoughts. Not even you.” I took a shaky breath and hope it would calm my nerves, it didn’t. “Why him?” My voice broke and I felt a tear roll down my cheek. This was not going to end well.

Notes

I could make up a thousand excuses for not updating, but the only ones I have is I had a thousand things to do at school (its summer vaycay now) and I finished my other story How to Move!

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