I Fell To Hard And To Fast

"Niall Ima go sleep over Ash's can you let Louis know for me?" I was putting on my converse after I put my bag down next to the chair.

"Are you sure? I know how its been with Ashin" Niall said

"Yea Im gonna try and get some answers out of her" I said.

"You 100% sure you wanna do that?" Niall asked.

I looked up at him. "I dont know anymore" I sighed and hung my head.

Ashin was the boy I fell in love with the moment I met him him gym class, Onyx, the bitch, Jack and some of our other friends where there and I still remember every second from that day and after that for awhile every one was like he likes you omg he does he does, we ended up dating for a while, we never kissed, but he was sweet, I love him so much he's like 7 inches taller them he and has long light brown hair, people say he has girl hair and I roll my eyes. His eyes are beautiful!! Their crystal baby blue with white dots around and an amber ring around him puple, so thier just like mine, but he has white dots and mine change color. He was perfect no funny and flirty we would hug and he would have his hands down on my ass haha, but yea he was so kind and I miss him alot, but 2 days before 2 months he broke up with me through text, but he also asked me out though text so its what ever, and we stayed friends but 2 weeks after he just stopped talking to me and I dont know why.

"Come here" Niall wrapped him arms around me and my eyes started to water. "Hes no good for you Kobe, you gotta let him go somehow, I know its hard" He whispered in my ear. "Just think you dont need a boyfriend when you've got me" he smiled. Niall was so sweet and we are like best friends. "Im goona try and get what I can out of Ash though" I said.

"Wanna ride?" He asked as I picked up my bag. "Yea sure" I smiled and we walked out to his car. By the time we got to Ash's Niall had almost talked me out of going but I wanted to pick her brain one way or another.

I walked up and knocked on the door. "MY BOO'S HERE" I could hear from inside. I laughed as Ash opened the door and I walked in. We went into her bed room and started to talk away. I found so much shit that Astin's been saying and doing.

The next day I texted Niall and told him to pick me up once Ash woke up and I told her I "had to go", Once Niall got there I told him to go back to the house fast because I wanted to tell them all at once. We got to the house and I ran to my room and jumped on my bed when all the guys walked in. "What did you find out?" Louis asked. I was typing away telling my cousin Brandon. and my best friend/brother Jake.

"Well 30% of the time Astin will bring me up in conversation, another 30% he's waiting for someone to drop my name so he can pick up on it, and 25% he'll say something if their talking about me he'll like go off and the rest is he's kinda just talking, but yet he's pissed off that I talk about him to other people" I told them

"What the fuck is that shit!?" Zayn growled. "Just wait!" I smirked

"So he's pissed off that Im in his health class, and since I sit in his old spot him and one of his friends where making fron on me saying Im sniffing the desk and saying "Oh Austin I love you" and shit like that and they where doing it in homeroom, and that I remind him of Chloe!!!" I said.

Louis stood up. "Im going to fucking beat this kid!" He growled. "No your not!!" I spat.

"Yea also he isn't sitting at the lunch table where his friends are and stuff because he doesn't want to sit around me because we keep making awkward eye contact and shit like that and Im like yea I still love him so Im gonna look at him but if he wants nothing to do with me why is he looking over at me!?" I asked. "Like the other day after gym Jack was telling me how he would see us look at one another at the same time and then we would make awkward eye contact and one I looked away a couple seconds after he would look down, like why he looking down thats something I could see him doing if he liked me!?" I said.

"I dont really know what to tell ya" Laim said. "Maybe he still does and people are putting thoughts into his head" Harry added. "I have a feeling his friends doing it to be honest" I said. "But I dont know, I dont really know anything anymore I guess" I sighed looking down at my phone.

Later on that day I asked some friends if I should text him and I got mostly yes's so I finally did.

























And thats what happened. Some people where telling me to like try and face-to-face talk to him and stuff but I know he's not going to want to talk to me and he's gonna walk away, or just not talk to me so Im gonna avoide him the best I can and see what happens. I dont really know, me and Jack are kinda on the edge right now because he's friend with the slut Chloe and he's in love with her and I dont want his talking to her at all. We got into a first and stopped talking for kinda a day and he became like buddy buddy with Astin and so I found my way to get any other into from

When I moved I changed so much to fit in, with in like 6 months I dropped 20 pounds, I changed how I dress and my personality and I totally stopped doing the things I loved to much like writing and roleplaying!! I dont know why I changed but I have started to be myself again and Im finding Im alot happier now them I was when I wasn't doing these things.

Notes

This is all real, I changed names and stuff but this is why I haven't been on and Im going to start writing again done worry!! But if any one you have missed me this is whats been going on for the bast 7 months