Invisible

"You'll start what?" he asks.i stare at the ground not daring to look up at him.

Oh god why did i have to open my mouth? One secret i couldn't keep one secret?the only people that knew were my mom and Fallon but they though I stopped long ago. I tried to stop I really did.But it was the only way i could deal with things.When Liam came home, i did it once the night we got into a fight, thats why it took me forever to open the door, because i had to clean up. I' ve done it a couple of times after that.

______________________________LOUIS' POV________________________________

How long was she depressed? there was no way this spirited girl could ever be depressed. What was she going to start?

I get of my swing and walk in front of her. She won't look at me. I lift her chin so i can see her and she looks like she is about to cry.

"love what's wrong? what will you start?" Now she really starts crying. I pull her up to me and let her bury her face in my chest.What was so bad that it could make her cry?I sooth her untill her crying becomes quieter. she unwraps herself from the bear hug i had her in and sits back down on the swing.

"Oh no" she said after a minute

"What? what's wrong?" i asked concerned

"I see them. Can we just not tell them about this please?"

"Fine but your telling me when we get back to you house"

She nods as the boys run to the playground, with fallon getting a piggy back ride from harry.

"you guys are too fast!" Niall says,out of breath from his short run

"No you guys are just unfit" Leslie says as she pokes Niall in the ribs

"You did not just poke me" Niall says with a devilish grin

"so what if i did?" Niall picks her up from the swing and puts her over his shoulder

"LET ME GO!! HELP ME LIAM!!" she yells at the top of her lungs

"What are you doing to my baby sister?" you can tell Liam was surprised but happy by the fact that that she called him to be her superhero.

"She called us unfit which is girl code for fat! so now we must punish her" Niall said taking her off his shoulder and pinning her to the ground.

"what punishment! Niall no!" at this point the rest of us ran and started tickling her. I'm glad to see that she's having fun but i'm still wondering what she was going to start doing.

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After our fun day at the park we walked back to the house. I wanted to talk to Leslie,but she and Niall were trailing behind talking.

"Looks like someone finally had the courage to talk to Leslie" Zayn said

"I bet he was just scared of Liam" i say laughing

"He had a right to" Liam says with a smirk

________________________________LESLIE'S POV_______________________________

After i almost spilled my secret to Louis, Fal and the boys make it to the park. Thank god that gives me time to make something up.

"you guys are too fast!" Niall says,out of breath .

"No you guys are just unfit" I say as i pokes Niall in the ribs

"You did not just poke me" Niall says with a devilish grin

"so what if i did?" Niall picks me up from the swing and puts me over his shoulder

"LET ME GO!! HELP ME LIAM!!"I yell at the top of my lungs.

"What are you doing to my baby sister?" i can tell he was happy by the fact that that I called him instead of someone else.

"She called us unfit which is girl code for fat! so now we must punish her" Niall said taking me off his shoulder and pinning me to the ground.

"what punishment! Niall no!" at this point the rest of them ran and started tickling me.

After about two hours of Niall chasing me around and playing on the playground,we finally left. Niall and I were behind everyone else.

"So are you ready for graduation"

"Definitely"

"What about your birthday?" He asks

"Please don't tell me you agree with Fallon on throwing a huge party?"

"I actually like your idea staying home and eating I'd do that everyday if i could!But it's not really birthday special."

"It is if I have fun and make it birthday special with the people i care about" I say trying to prove my point.

"Well i guess as long as you're happy."

"I will be happy as long as I watch movies and eat donuts and pancakes and waffles and Nandos and cake!"

" I solemnly swear on that day I will let you sleep as a long as you want and when you wake up you'll have a lot of food."

"Thank you. Thats all I ask."

We continue to talk for what seems to be hours but is only ten minutes. When we get back to my house mom and dad are still at work so we have the place to ourselves.

"Sorry mate, i'm going to steal her for a minute," Louis quickly pulls me up to my room, locking the door.

"Love please tell me whats wrong." He says with his eyes full of concern. Damn i forgot to make something up! what can I say? Should i just tell him the truth?

"Just tell me the truth" He says like he read my mind.

i sigh giving in. "Okay Louis I'll tell you just promise not to say anything"

"I Promise"


"Okay well as you know, liam went to the X-factor and he got grouped with you four. i was so proud of him.I waited for him to come home, but my parents told me he wouldn't come back untill the end of the show.You also know that you guys got pretty well known and I thought people would only want to be my friend because i was Liam Payne's little sister, not because i was me You know?" louis nodded

"So I went to a different high school than Liam did, and lets just say people were not the nicest.I had no friends, my grades were bad and i sat by myself at lunch. I tried calling Liam everyday because i needed someone to talk to but he never called me back. I thought he forgot about me or didn't want anything to do with me.I went into a deep depression but no one seemed to notice. I felt like I was invisible for so long.And to deal with everything I starved myself and i started cutting"
at this point i was trying not to cry and Louis Immediately grabbed my arm to inspect it.

"You won't find anything" I say pulling my arm away.

"Then Fallon Moved here from California and she became my friend. I always use to wear long sleeves to cover it up, but one day the cut opened itself and bled through my white shirt. Fal took me to the bathroom and saw what I was doing to myself. She completely freaked out and called my parents.Mom wanted Liam home immediately but i didn't want to be the reason he had to leave his new life on tour behind, so i begged them not to tell him,saying it would only make me feel worse and i promised to stop and go to counseling. As you could probably tell, i now eat a lot" i say trying to lighten up the mood.

"When was the last time you...uh.."

"Tuesday" i say knowing he didn't want to finish

"Yesterday!? but you don't have anything on your arms."

I pull up my jeans to show him all the marks i made. I stopped cutting on my arms because it was obvious with my long sleeves but no one would question me wearing pants

"God,Leslie how could you?'' Now i really was crying. he put his arm around me and let me cry as he gently rocked me back and forth.

I heard a knock on the door.

"Leslie? Louis? Is everything okay in there? Can i come in?" It is Fallon

Louis looks at me and I nod

"Are you the only one there?" Louis asks

"Er......umm......Not exactly" She says

"Only Fallon is allowed inside." I say loud enough for them to hear

"Come on baby sister let me in." Now i wanted to cry even more, how would Liam feel about this! i didn't want to tell him in the first place.

"No only Fallon" Louis says. i hear foot steps going downstairs

"Love whats wrong? open the door please." it's Niall how would he react to this?

"Sorry Nialler only Fallon" i say trying my best to sound happy. He sighs and heads downstairs.

"Okay everyone's gone" Louis gets up and unlocks the door.

_____________________FALLON'S POV_________________

Leslie and Louis had been gone for a while so Liam, Niall and i decided to check on them. when we get upstairs we hear crying.

"Leslie? Louis? Is everything okay in there? Can i come in?" i say

"Are you the only one there?" Louis asks

"Er......umm......Not exactly" i say

"Only Fallon is allowed inside." les says

"Come on baby sister let me in."

"No only Fallon" Louis says.I make liam go back down but Niall won't budge

"Love whats wrong? open the door please." he says

"Sorry Nialler only Fallon" I tell him it'll be okay and he heads down

"Okay everyone's gone" Louis unlocks the door.

I walk in and see my sister on the floor with her jeans rolled up and lot of cuts.

How could she do this again?

I sit down on her right and Louis sits on her left. I hug her and let her cry.

"So Louis knows everything?" i finally ask. he nods.

"well at least you haven't stopped eating" this made her laugh and i was glad

"That's what i said but lou didn't find it amusing"

"You didn't try to-" she cut me off

"No"

"Have you started to think about it again" Now shes quiet and i am scared

"I thought about it once when Liam and i fought"

"I'm so glad you didn't " i say as I hug he again

"Think about what?" Louis asks

"You haven't told him everything have you?" she shakes her head

"Umm...Louis i didn't tell you, i almost committed suicide twice. The first time i heard my mom come home so i didn't go through with it. The second time I was at home by myself waiting for Liam to call me like his assistant said he would but he didn't. I got a lot of pills and was about to take them. I heard the door open but i didn't care. I was about to swallow them but Fallon caught me and forced me to stop." now i was crying remembering that horrible day where my best friend,my sister, almost killed herself.

Notes

wow things got seriously dramatic.how do you think the boys will react? Thank you to everyone reading liking and subscribing! Hope you like it(It's a little different way more serious& dramatic) PLEASE comment how i'm doing so far. Thank you! :D