Forever & Always

~Niall's POV~
I hold her in my arms as i sit in the white rocking chair in her room. She looks up at me with those big blue eyes and says,

''Ni Ni...why you weave?''she asks tiredly. ''Because...i have to go do stuff...''she looks at me.

''You be back?'' ''Not...for a few days...'i mumble.She looks down from me. ''O'tay...''she mumbles lightly.

She closes her eyes and i rock in the chair to get get to calm down a little.
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I stand up gently and take her to the bed. Her head on my shoulder and arms around my neck.

I pull the covers back and lay her down softly on to the bed. I cover her up and kiss her forehead. i turn the lamp off and mumble,

''Bye Jenna....'' And i leave the room. I walk back into the living room where Jordan is.

''She asleep?''she asks and i nod. ''Thank you so much Niall,it means alot to me.''she smiles.

I nod and walk to the door with out saying any thing else.

I know i can't see Jenna in a few days. I have plans with Stacey. If i could, i would ditch Stacey and be with Jenna and Jordan.

But..then the paps would see me with out her or her with out me and the damn trending thing would become 'Niall Horan and Stacey Leeve: OVER?'

And...i don't want that. No matter how much i say i love Jordan, i like Stacey too, noticed i said 'Like'...not love.

Its just for show. More money..not for me though, for her reps and mine too.
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I get in my car and start it up. I look at the apartment complex. I sigh and pull from the parking lot. Leaving her behind..when they both should be with me...

Forever and Always, that's what i told Jordan that day..

Forever and always.......i promised it.

Then i broke it...over a stupid ass dream!

That's my damn mistake! Yeah I've always wished to become famous and make lots of money, but...you can't buy love. Or a family...

And i missed out on that, big time.

My daughter doesn't even know me as her father...just her mom's friend. Which i hate...

But its my fault...it's all my fault..

Forever and Always....or never. And i chose Never. Instead of love, i chose fame and fortune...

Biggest mistake of my life....

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