Zayn's P O V:

"So, Zayn tell me what kind of sports are you interested in?" Mr. Lawrence asked.

"Well, I play a lot of football. "

"Really? What position do you play, quarterback? Ugh, americans. They change the original name of football to soccer.

"No, no sir. I play, what's it called...um soccer. But the people here call it football.

"Oh, yes of course. "

Mrs. Lawrence made this really good spaghetti and I twirled my fork, hence not to look at Mr. Lawrence, who kept staring at me. I know he wants to be nice to me because of Viv, but I can tell he is not having the best of dinners with me.

After a couple of minutes, Vivian broke the silence and asked if we could be exused to her room. Adam immediatly scoffed, but Mrs. Lawrence said yes before Mr. Lawrence had a chance to say no.

She sat at the head of her bed and I sat at her foot. We talked about a lot of things like my smoking habit, her life before (when she was in Cali) and gow she loved the turtle necklace I bought her.

"Listen, um Grace thought it would ve a freay idea to work at Starbucks, I kinda don't want to b'cuz I wouldnt be spending a lot of time with you, you know. But I mean, you know Grace. She is persistant and-"

"Wait, should I know what persistant is?" I ask. She guves a little chuckle and says:

"Its kinda like when you are pushing people to do something they don't wanna do. Like if they are bugging you all the time You get me?"

"Yes" I say, which is a lie. I have no idea what she is talking about.

"So what do you say about the whole Starbucks thing?"

"You could go if you want, but just don't forget you have a boyfriend." I say. She smiles. And we kiss.

she is really hot, and I really wanna be with her, but in this kiss I feel something. Something that is making me feel really bad about me cheating on her. I mean we all saw that coming. The world, is not all black and white.

So she just lays down and falls asleep as I comb her hair with my fingers. She looks peaceful. Every once in a while, the corners of her mouth curve into a smile. And I see her then. I really see her.

She. Is. Beautiful.

Notes

Hello, my fellow readers! Okay okay okay, Zayn finally sees Vivian more that just some girl and he likes her now.

and totally changing the subject!

I am kinda upset that these two months I was gone, I didn't even get ONE comment! That's pretty fucked up. I mean I know I shoulda updated sooner, but the fact that no one commented made me feel like shit. Anyways, no harm done I'm over that, I just wanted to let you know.