Broken Record.

It has been three days since Harry and I got... closer? He hasn't text me since then and when I see him at school he simply stays quiet.

Today is Friday and everyone is talking about a party at Louis' house, apparently there are a lot of people attending and Jennie insisted I go too, Niall would be picking us up from her house at 8pm tonight, sitting in first period I picture what I will wear and come up with nothing. I had English next and smiled small to myself, me and Harry took the same English class so I would be seeing him as well as the other boys, hopefully this time isn't as awkward as last time.

I'm early as usual and Mr.Clarkson smiles as I take my seat.
"Hello Marina! How are you today?"
"Hello Sir, I'm feeling alright aha, yourself?"
"Well I'm.." He was cut off by loud laughter, no doubt Harry and his friends "We will continue this later" He smiled warmly, that smile earned me some jealous looks from the thin, stunning blonde next to me, Cara I think her name is, I don't really speak much but her short mini skirt, stockings and almost see threw shirt put me off of talking to her much anyway, I heard her talking when I was in the toilets...
"Oh my fuck, you're so lucky! He's so fucking hot!" She hissed at me, cutting my line of thought. I guess he was an okay looking guy, he must of been around twenty-five or so, light brown hair, dark eyes and a nice smile. I looked up to see the teacher still glancing up, I noticed Niall and Louis talking to Harry about "Calming down" or something, I looked up and answered my name when it was called.
"Miss Lee, could you please button up your shirt and put your tie on." Mr. Clarkson spoke without looking up at where we were sitting.
"Why Sir? Don't like what you see?" She leaned forward, showing off her average cleavage and I had to hold back my laughter, really?
"No baby I don't think it's that, I think he would much rather be looking at Marina's there." A deep voice grumbled. What the fuck Harry?!Either the teacher ignored it or didn't hear Harry speaking because he continued talking, Liam was shooting me sympathetic glances. Did Harry just call Cara baby? Was I jealous? Ha, pathetic little old me. I kept my head down until class finished, stood up and handed in my book and two assignments, one for the one the class is working on and one for next month, I like to get my work done fast to avoid any possible attention if I had forgotten it on the due in day, I was telling Harry about hating attention the other day. Checking my planner I saw after break I had English for the last two periods. Brilliant.

I headed out before Mr.Clarkson could look at me, I felt the green eyes glare at me and I didn't understand what I had done wrong. I waited for Jennifer outside of her English class.
"Hey Jen?"
"Yeah babe?"
"Um, does Harry have a girlfriend?"
"Harry who? Harry Styles?" She burst out laughing, startling me a bit. "No babe, Harry doesn't have a girlfriend, he fucks a hella lot of girls though, they just love him..., why? You got a little crush?" She giggled as I gasped in horror, no one will ever know. I do not like the manwhore.
"No! He was calling Cara Lee 'babe' in English, I wondered if they were like a thing..."
"Oh, nah, he's probably screwing her but she will take anything above 5 inches with a pulse!" She screamed and laughs again, she turns to me and whispers "Your secrets safe with me" And before I have time to respond she throws her arms around Nialls neck and they begin kissing. They are sweet but that's too much public affection for me! I take my seat at the table in between the kissing couple and Harry, as I slide in I look anywhere but him.
"Hey." He says, no one is listening.
"Hello." I reply, clipped tone is always good!
"You pissed at me?"
"No."
"Sure."
"I'm not."
"Well I wasn't lying, Cara has a good chest on her but I mean yours... fucking pedo Clarkson was practically drawling over you." He spits.
"Please don't."
"Don't what?"
"Bring up Cara?" He whispers
"What no I-" I choke on my words trying to rid myself of the image of Harry and Cara in my head "I mean... What's going on with you two anyway?" I already knew, I just wanted to see if he would lie to me about it.
"Why dy'wanna know? Jealous?" He asks, venom clear in his voice, geez what shook him up? Before I could answer Cara sauntered over and wrapped her long thin arms around Harry's shoulders as he sat, her unfastened buttons showing her cleavage. Probably a push-up braI snickered to myself, Zayn and Liam both exchanged looks again before turning to look at me, I plastered my fakest smile on and engaged in coversation with them. That was when I heard it, the grumbling and moaning and wet sound of sloppy kisses. I almost vomited when I looked out of the corner of my eye to see Harry and Cara eating each-others faces off, she was practically fucking him right here in the middle of the fucking cafeteria. Are you fucking kidding me! I scream in my head and mutter an apology to anyone listening and grab my belongings as fast as I can. Why am I acting like this?!




I went and sat in my English class talking over my assignments with Mr.Clarkson when Harry, Niall, Louis, Zayn, Liam and fucking Cara walked in, I was sitting on the corner of the desk smiling and pretended to ignore their presence, Niall and Liam both said hi and Zayn and Louis smiles, Cara's jaw could have been on the floor and Harry was clenching his jaw and his empty handed fist was clenched also, I giggled at something the teacher said about the trouble makers arriving and took my seat, you wanna play the jealous card Styles? Lets play. I knew in the back of my mind as soon as I got the time the familiar burn of the razor numbing my pain would be my first action. I sighed and got on with my work, I could hear them talking and Cara sitting next to me laughing at there obnoxious calling out. After a while I had enough of listening to their bullshit and impatiently raised my hand, causing various faces to turn and face me.
"Sorry Sir, can I stick my earphones in please? I seem to work better with them."
"Of course Marina, thank you for asking" He gently spoke whilst glaring at Harry who had one plugged in as he spoke loudly.
"Yeah alright mate may as well fucking say my name!" Harry fired back. The thought of him and Cara made me feel nauseous and his voice made me cringe because of it, I plugged in my phone and settles on 80's music. I loved old music and my family all quiz me and show me off because I know more songs then most adults do, if it was their musical era or not. After 'Electric Dreams' stopped, The Rolling Stones came on and the very familiar intro to 'Paint it black' filled my head before a perfectly manicured hand pulled the plug thing out of the hole in my phone, the class went really quiet as I began to ask her what exactly she was doing, instead of answering me she scrunched her nose, flipped her hair and smirked whilst asking.
"Ew what the fuck is this shit?"
"That 'shit' is the rolling stones, now fuck off." I snatched the adapter back and put it in it's rightful spot after various gasps and shocked faces turn around to face me.

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