Broken Record.

Make-up sex. That was what that was. I smiled to myself in the shower and leant my head against Harry.
"I can't believe you were going to just... let go." He stared down.
"It would have hurt like a bitch... I just don't think I could put up with the arguments like that, your moods are so... varied." I swallow looking up again.
"Well so are yours" He poked his tongue out and continued washing my hair.
"We still need to talk." I say.
"Yes.... we really do." He whispers looking down at me. "You are not going to like it... knowing you you will get jealous and want me to stop, but I want you to know everything okay?" Inwardly I groan. This is going to be hard and I know it.


We sat facing eachother on the bed, me with my legs crossed and Harry resting on his hands.
"Right... don't interrupt please baby, I don't want to chicken out... and please don't... please don't leave"
"Okay." I leaned down and pecked his lips, taking his large cold hand in my smaller, hot one.
"We were so young... I remember your dad bringing you over sometimes. You and Ethan. He and I would play with these cars and stuff... yeah well I remember then one day you went away and never came back again. Then I was like 11 or 12 and my dad asked me to find you and give you this letter. I was so excited. I had to pretend a postman gave it to me and you believed it. When I got back into my dads car I kept asking questions about you, that never stopped, I would ask anyone who knew. Ethan... your dad. Yeah yeah stalker boyfriend." He giggled, looking over. "When you moved away we knew we all needed to move. We left about five weeks after you did but we all went to this school before. When I found out you would be coming over I practically wet myself. Thinking of all these possibilities, I was going to walk right up to you and kiss you, but I knew you would freak out. I knew what you looked like because I um- yeah I stalked your facebook... and you sometimes. Okay wow super creepy. But I-I needed to know you were good. The night the Joe incident happened was the only night I wasn't outside of your house, it was the Santanno night. It must have been. Thats why when we were in the alley I was so mad because of your wrists, I thought you were stronger than that. Sorry baby I didn't mean it like that" He quickly spoke, rubbing his thumb over my arm. "I saw you with boys, few but still, I didn't know if it was because they were friends or boyfriends or what. So by then I was fucki-sleeping with various girls, women sometimes." I tensed at his words. "It was good to live like that you know, alcohol, danger, fucking sexy girls throwing themselves at you... jumping on you... it was amazing. Hm..." He wandered into his own daydreamed and began mumbling shit. "I remember once, Cara and I were upstairs... you were downstairs." He said and I tensed further, I shifted back slightly from the bed to distance myself from him. "Every time she had her lips... either kind around me, I imagined it was you, since the first time at school. Before I had no problem, she's fucking-"
"Stop." I whisper, looking at this unrecognisable man who was telling me he loved me one minute and telling me how good another girl was the next. I was replsed by his presence and I knew if I stayed I would say or do something I would regret. He still had his eyes closed, hands folded behind his head when I stood, only then did I notice the tightening in his pants. Fucking Prick. I spun on my heel, ignoring the fast image of him opening his eyes in shock.
"Rina! Where are you going?" He called from behind me.
"To get some water, maybe you should just jack one off thinking of all the girls you have fucked and I will be downstairs. See ya!" I shouted back without turning back. Before he could reach me I sprinted the steps and flew into the kitchen, running to the taps. I felt hands on my back and spun, ready to hit the obnoxious fucker. I dropped my hand seeing Louis, shirtless infront of me.
"Rina? Are you okay princess?" He asked
"Lou, I love him so much and I'm scared. Im n-nothing compared to the other girls... to Cara." I whisper/sobbed. Louis took me in his arms just as Zayn strolled into the kitchen in some baskteball shorts, if I wasn't feeling like this I would have blushed, both of their tattoo adorned bodies were beautiful.
"Rina? You okay babe?" He asked although babe sounded more like beb.
"Yeah... no." I smile sadly and Louis passes me along to Zayn promising he will make us some tea.
"Vah happenin' beautiful." He smiles. "Wheres Haz?" He asks again.
"Harry's.... hes' he's... um.... he's upstairs. I think."
"So..." He starts and Louis brings over three steaming mugs.
"Well now were all here I can start."
"Actually not all of us are here yet." A deep voice grumbles from behind my chair. Harry. Zayn and Lou look at eachother then at me.
"Rina, d'ya want him here?" Louis asks.
"I-"
"I think it would be best actually if you both discussed it infront of us, we are your best mates Harry and Rina you know we love you, so we wont be biased really, no running though, or shouting, yeh?" Zayn speaks. Harry grabs his own cup and begins making tea, Louis grabs my hand on the table and Zayn whispers.
"If you don't wanna talk about it that's fine, but I do think it's best, we canleave the room?"He asked again.
"No its fine, thank you guys." I smile.
"Shut up dont thank us, we wanna be nosey!" Louis chimed.
"Shut up yourself Lou!"
"You love me really"
"AND ME!" Zayn shouted excitedly.
"Yes yes. I love you both."
"What about me." Harry asks, leaning against the doorway.
"yeah you too..."
"Shes ours though mate." Louis grinned.
"Mine." Harry growls, jokingly.


Harry sits next to Zayn, across from me.
"So..." Louis starts.
"I-I" I stumble.
"Speak asif he's not here beautiful!" Zayn whisper shouts, Harry glares and then winces as Louis smirks.
"Right okay... so.... I don't like Cara. At all. And he- you were opening up and being really sweet and we had already argued so much. Then it was like you were in your own little world thinking of how fucking great Cara was. You know how inexperienced I am and it made me feel so shitty. I hate knowing that you have done- probably everything. I hate that. You got lost and it was being lost in her." My voice shook and Louis scooted closer to me.
"Its okay princess" He kissed the side of my head.
"How would you feel if it were the other way around Harry?" I ask opening one eye. He looked visibly sick.
"I would hate it..."
"See. Now if I were daydreaming right next to you about some perfect guy who had made me feel amazing and made you feel so shitty would you stay and listen? Like fuck you would." I snap.
"You want me to apologise? You don't even know what I was thinking about and you left."
"Harreh, I can see where shes coming from. If you were talking about Cara and then got all... weird about it I can see why she left." Zayn calmly spoke.
"Yeah it was Cara I was talking about. But in my head I was thinking about you Rina. I was thinking about how amazing you felt-"
"Okay Haz we get it." Louis falsely gagged. Making us all laugh a bit.
"Look baby I'm sorry... I dont think and I get too caught up in you." He shrugged slightly.
"i'm sorry for storming off..again"I laugh and Louis grabs me and stands me up.
"Well even if you are all makey-d up, shes still staying with me and Zayno for film night. Right Rina?" He quips, I nod despite wanting Harry.
"Can I atleast join you and my girlfriend for this film fest?" Harry laughs and Zayn throws me over his shoulder, much to my annoyance.
"Onleh if you promise not to dry fuck again!" He laughs and I scream, hitting his bum.
"Where are the girls?" I ask.
"They went out, Niall and Pagen are at dinner or some shit and then meeting her- your auntie and uncle? Perrie and El are staying at Perries mums to get ready for tomorrow. So were having a movie night. Hope were good entertainment!" Louis shouted again and pulled me between he and Zayn on the sofa. Harry frowned and Louuis qupped "Well you get her all of the time, we love her too" He smiled and Zayn and Louis throw and arm over me shoulders, pulling my legs over Louis' lap Harry is sat the other side of Zayn and begins stroking me hair.
"Ours" Zayn and Louis chorus as the first film begins.

The Rocky Horror Picture Show.

Notes

I love Zayn and Louis as her brother types... watcha guys think?