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LOST AND STILL FINDING(larry stylinson)

chapter 11*


Louis’ p.o.v.

When I woke up, it couldn’t be more perfect than seeing the greek god sleep in front of me. His faced kinda glowed from the sunlight that was entering the room. I liked it but I’d rather leave and get ready coz I think its late already! I look up at the wall clock and it was 8:30 and I leave at 9:00. Oh c’mon I was damn late!

I slowly slide down the bed and walk out of the room quietly not even making any sound of my continuous yawns. I didn’t wake him up coz maybe he’s still tired with everything that happened last night.
I enter my room and hurriedly do the necessary things that were supposed to be done and got ready. This time it was very fast and I was quite happy to wear a fresh tee!

I was done within 15 mins and I decided to make something for the breakfast for myself and maybe something for harry too. I still had 15 mins left.

I walk out of my room and head towards the kitchen. But I see the balcony door open as the cool breeze entered the hall. My steps now were guided towards the balcony. I peep through the curtains and I see harry standing there holding his head.

“hey, harry goodmorning!” I say as he stood staring at the sky. “are okay?”

“umm yeah I’m fine. I guess. Just a little headache” he says as he turns around in a way he didn’t expect me to ask him that.

“I’ll get you the pills….where are they” I tell him as I scratch my head as I didn’t know where they were.

“oh no lou. I’ll be fine without them.”

“I know how much u’ll be fine. Just please tell me” I ask him again coz I know he wouldn’t be.

“ur already getting late” he then again says.

“I’m never getting late to help my friend” I pressire him as I was sure enough to feed him medicine before I leave for work. I wasn’t going to leave him this way.

“okay. If you insist but I don’t like having medicines for petty reasons….”

I give him a serious glare this time acting as if I was really angry.

“umm its on the shelf above the kitchen sink. Right corner at the back” he says as he saw that I really meant what I said. I quickly run upto the shelf as I was told and take out two pills as I rushed back to him with a glass of water.

“here, have them. You’ll feel good” I say handing over the tablets and the glass of water.

I look at my watch and I had spent 10 mins convincing him to have the tablet. I rush back to the kitchen and prepare a cheese and lettuce sandwich for harry.

I’ll have something in the bakery itself.
“hey harry, I’m leaving.” I shout out from the hall as I jump on my right foot as I wear my shoes. I heard harry coming into the hall.
“I think I’ll stay at home today. I’m not going for work. I’m not feeling better.” He says as he held his head. He looked still tired.

“yeah you better get more sleep, u’ll be fine by the evening I suppose. If you feel bad just have another pill. It’ll help. Trust me”

“okay. As you say mommy”

“me, mommy?” I say confused as I chuckled at his words.

“yeah you. You’re a typical mommy”

“I don’t think so…anyway I’ll hurry” I say as I rush out.
I heard harry shut the door behind me.

I stood inside the elevator for about 2 mins. I wasn’t really getting late. I just couldn’t see the amount of hurt he has held within himself. I couldn’t look him in the eye that way. I just couldn’t. it hurts me inside to see him. Anybody would wonder why such a nice man would hurt himself to death. Why would he? I know my head wont rest until I know the reason why.


HARRY’S P.O.V.

Why did I have to drink so much? This couldn’t get worse. My head was now pounding even harder after having the medicine. I know if I go get some sleep I’ll feel better, but there’s no chance this head is going to get me sleep. The cool breeze is the only thing that can help.
I walk towards the balcony again. I somehow loved his place. It was always cool.

But today there was something different in the air. My thoughts occupied Louis. The only reason being how much of a caretaker he was and the way he didn’t talk to me straight today. Ewhy didn’t he? Did I do something wrong?

“ouch…” thinking hard made my head ache.

I must’ve done something. I know. I know I do things when I’m drunk. Shit. What must’ve I done now? zayn must be knowing. Seriously he’ll know. He’s the only one I can go to for now. I slide out my phone and text him immediately.

oi hey zayn. I know I troubled you again last night. But I wanted to talk to you about the whole night. I can’t remember anything for now. I need your help. Please.
~harryxx”

I get an instant reply from him
its obvious harry. I’ll be there in 20?
ZAYN”

faster plzzz.
~harryxx”

After waiting for him for maybe 15 mins, he was sitting in front of me on the couch and was explaining each and everything.

“what do you mean I had tossed in a more than 50 shots in?”

“that is real. I paid for it and I know” zayn says confirmed.

“hell. I wonder why this headache doesn’t leave me.”
Zayn was quiet for a moment but he hesitatingly said which I wish he never asked me.

“harry…harry? have you been crying over the stuff again?”

“Yeah. I have been.” I say straight not even thinking once. He already might’ve guessed.

“but you promised me a few months back you wont do it. And when you weren’t calling for me I thought everything was fine. But here again. Again you’ve started thinking stuff.” He was very annoyed by me now.

“umm..i did not know what made me go behind the thoughts. I was not planning to do it. But just something made me do it. I can’t control my thoughts” I say something, not really knowing myself the reason why I thought about that stuff again.

“that isn’t a reason I suppose for you to going back in time. C’mon don’t you know how to keep promises harry?”

“I know I know ,b-“

“how do you know harry. I don’t think this way we’re taught to keep promises. Even a seven year old would know what a promise means. And this isn’t the first time you’re doing this harry. Its happened a million times before that you broke your promise. And you can see what you’ve done to yourself.”

“don’t you think I’m trying?”

“is this how you try harry? C’mon you’re not a kid anymore!”

“I thought you understood me” I say as my voice cracked.

“if I didn’t do that I wouldn’t be sitting here with you right now. its been over two years now harry. You have to get out of it.”

“I am trying zayn. I am trying. I’m myself too much tired of doing things
to myself. I want somebody to just help me out of it. I’m tired of doing It alone zayn . I’m just sick of it.” I say as I tear rolled down my cheeks. I see zayn standing up from the couch and came to sit beside me.

“I didn’t mean to make you cry. If you want I’ll stay here for somedays?” he says as he wipes my tears off and sooths my upper arms.

“I would’ve agreed with that but I don’t have a spare room.”

“that’s totally fine. I’ll share your bedroom”

“why? Do you wanna get pregnant?” I say.

“are you gonna try all those tactics on me?”

“I sure would. Coz I turn horny every nite” I say laughing.

“ohh my god. I’ll have to think about that” he say laughing at me as he raises his eyebrows. His hand had now shifted a bit lower on my arm and he was now rubbing on my scars.

“ouch.. its hurts bro” I mouth escapes these words. His gaze immediately shifts to my wrist. I did not want him to know this atleast. I’m gone for now. he’s gonna scold me to death.

“harry?” he says in a louder tone. “what is this?”

“umm.. nothing you can ignore this for now” I say smiling at him roughly. He picks up my hand and gently traces his fingers on them.

“I’m so disappointed harry. You promised me” he sighs at the end of this sentence.

“why did you want me to cut more. Is that why you’re disapointed?” I tried making it funny.

“it s not funny anymore harry. Stop doing that . when are you gonna grow up and be something that I want you to be and get out of all this?”

“it just happened…” I say shrugging. Not knowing what to say.

“when are you going to understand this is not what you’re supposed to be doing.” He was very very angry. he could slap me right now.

“I’m really sorry zayn. This time I promise its not going to happen.”

“the same old story” he shifted away from me and was staring at he ceiling instead of looking at me.

“no this time it’s a P.R.O.M.I.S.E. I seriously want to stop all this. I’m tired myself.” I say again trying to convince him for the final time.

“ promise?” he looks at me.

“sure. I promise. I seriously want to”

“okay. I believe you for the last time. Okay?”

“yeah. The last and final time. No promise will now be broken”

“are you sure harry?”

“very sure sir!!”

“then I think I can expect you to be safe till you break the promise again”

“zayn that is not going to happen. Trust me for the last time.” I pleaded
him.

“I’ll trust you always” he says as he gets up from his seat and heads towards the door.”I’m getting late harry. I’ll leave stay safe okay?”

“ yeah sure” I too get up as he opens the door to leave. he heads towards the elevator as I peep out of the door and watch him go.

“THANKYOU ZAYN” I shout in the corridor. I know he would be smiling by now coz he did not turn around to look at me. I shut the door close as I leave a sigh of relief. My head was now feeling a bit better. I was glad I talked it out to him.

One thing had struck my head right now. and I think that is going to be pretty difficult if just one day Louis comes to me and ask me reasons. He will eventually one day.

LOUIS’ P.O.V
The whole day went taking orders for the cakes for the Christmas. I wondered how easily one could spend soo much for a Christmas cake? my family had just always managed to spend either for my birthday or Christmas cake. Either of the two. It was atlast decided that I was a gods gift from heaven so my birthday will have to be celebrated with jesus christs birthday. and I had to agree with it.

The thought of celebrating my birthday alone this year made me sad. Yeah I was sad that I’ll not be there to celebrate my birthday for the first time with my two new little sissies!.

I winded up all work as I exited the bakery and sat inside my car as I pulled out into the streets to head home. In the way I bought two icecream bricks, chocolate flavoured. We could have this after the dinner.

As I rang the doorbell and I waited for the doors to open and they did. I saw harry dressed up all untidy in an apron. I laughed at his appearance.

I enter into the house and lock the door behind me.

“what are you upto harry?” I say laughing a bit hard but I wanted to control my laughter.

“nothing. Was just preparing dinner for us” he says as he tried mixing something which was inside the pan.

“like this?” I point out to him at his condition.

“it’s the first time I’m cooking chicken. That’s why” he says as he chuckles and those cute dimples appear again.

“you need some help?” I ask him but I was actually tired.

“no no no. u just freshen up I’ll serve the dinner in 10 mins?” he sounded so orderly right now. it was 8 in the night.

“okay I’’ be here in 10….oh wait see I have something for the dessert” I say as I walk towards him to hand him over the packet.

“I was just thinking about the dessert” he nods as he says and he was quite happy to see the chocolate ice creams. I think he likes this flavor. Maybe I can guess.

Notes

hey guyzz. sorry for taking such a long time. here's a chap for the fans!!
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6/5/20

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thanks for reading and staying!

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2/9/19

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Well, it has been the death of me!

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12/13/18

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I should be thanking you for writing such an interesting story. I love how its so unique and not like the other typical stories on this site. There much more depth to it. The chapters always keep me on my toes. PS I love love this chapter and Harry is trying to be brave and intimate with Louis.

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12/3/17