Promises were meant to be broken.

Zayn's P.O.V

i stood in the lou, shirtless, facing myself in the mirror. My eyes were puffy and red from crying so much and my hair wasn't its usual perfection. I sighed sadly and brought the small razor up to my arm taking a deep breath. The cold metal against my skin made goosebumps form across my body. I dug the razor deep into my skin and drew a few lines. I flinched to the pain at first but as I watched the red liquid slowly ooz out of the wound, the pain vanished. I watched the blood slip down my skin for a while until I heard the doorbell ring. I sighed and put on a hoodie.

"I got it mum!" I yelled as I made my way downstairs. Once I opened up the door I was greeted by a smiling Niall. But his smile slowly disappeared as he looked my over.

"Zayn." he sighed before bringing me into a hug and I couldn't help myself but to cry onto his shoulder. We stood there, in the doorway like this for about 10 minutes until he pulled me inside.
"Mate, what's this about?" he asked as we sat down in the living room.
"I can't take this. I thought that when I came back everything would fall back into place. But everything is so different. She's so different. She broken to the point where I don't think she wants me to fix her. When I decided to go to her house, I thought she'd jump into my arms and we'd pick right off from where we ended. But we cant. We just can't." I cried. Niall nodded trying to make sense of my words. But I knew he couldn't because he doesn't know what I'm going through, the thoughts crossing through my mind.

"Mate, I'm sure she'll come around. You said it yourself that you two could never stay mad at each other doesn't matter how bad the fight." I shook my head.
"I think it's different this time, Nialler. Before Johan was the one who would squash the problems between us but now one of the problems is Johan."
"What do you mean?"
"He's dead. I wasn't there for Johan or Samantha. And she hates me for that."
"Samantha?" he asked more to himself.
"Yeah. Why?" I asked sitting up straight.
"Um well it's just a weird things because I just met a girl named Samantha today and she reminded me a lot like you. You know like characteristics." he explain. I just shrugged, I don't really remember me and Samantha acting alike. A smile broke across his face and his cheeks turned a light shade of pink.
"What?" I asked looking at him weirdly.
"You should have seen her, she was just.....perfect. she didn't even recognize me and I just felt so right with her, you know." his smile grew even bigger.
"You really like this girl, huh." I pushed glad to be getting my mind of my problems for a minute.
"God yes!" he sighed leaning back in the couch in a dazed way. " I didn't even say anything stupid or embarrassing. I just played it totally cool." a small smile spread across my face before I felt my phone vibrate.

Sammy<3
I need you to come pick up the boxes.

"Hey Nialler. Can you come with me to pick up a few things?" I asked the love struck Niall .
"Yea of coarse mate."

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