Trying to stay calm and cool, Lux nodded. “So... things ended badly?”

“Bad is an understatement. She's twice my age, you know. Well, nearly is anyways. So at first it was really good, we got on really well and I was having great sex with an older woman who knew what she was doing, right? I didn't think it could get any better than that. Until I fell in love with her.”

He paused, a pained look on his face as he thought back to the moment he knew he loved her.
She nodded slowly, waiting for him to continue, reaching her hand out slowly and locking her pinkie around his. His body relaxed at her touch, squeezing her pinkie before he continued on.

“I think she was just waiting for me to fall in love with her. It was like the moment I told her, everything changed. She was taking advantage of me in every way possible, manipulating me into thinking she loved me when all she really wanted was all the media attention and all the attention I gave to her. Little did I know she was getting more attention elsewhere as well. She started to treat me like.. well, like my age, like a teenager and it broke my heart. I wasn't like that with her, I wasn't just some kid, I tried really hard to be the things she wanted me to be, I tried to be mature. It wasn't enough for her. She still had to make fun of my age consistently, and I think a lot of it had to do with all the negative reactions she was getting for dating me. Nobody was happy, everyone thought she was too old for me, especially my mother. So I had a girlfriend that didn't even like me who I was hopelessly in love with, and everyone in the world hated her for being my girlfriend, which she took out on me, as if it were my fault that nobody liked her.”

Lux sighed heavily, rubbing her forehead. “When did you guys break up?”

“Not too long before we came to America, a month or so back.” He sighed, “She just did it, like it was the easiest thing in the world. I suppose she found someone new to play with, I dunno why else she would dump me when she was having so much fun torturing me while I worshipped her..”
“I'm sorry, Hazza.” She whispered, looking over at him slowly. “Was she your first?”

Harry laughed, turning to look at her with raised eyebrows. “Are you serious?”

“I meant your first love, not your first – how do you put it? - shag?” She smirked, nudging him with her elbow as he smiled back over at her, nodding slightly.

“Yeah. She was.” He murmured, looking away from her hard stare.

“Ah, those are the worst ones. Most painful.” Lux nodded, “I was 16 when I found mine.”

“Who was he?” Harry asked slowly, seeming as if he didn't really want to know.

“His name was Damian. He was two years older than me, 6'4” and had tattoos. A bad boy, I suppose you could say. He was sweet to me though, we just ended up drifting apart. No serious drama, but it hurt like hell when we broke up. I'll never forget that feeling.” She whispered, sighing as she stared at the floor, her head resting against her knees which were pulled tight to her chest.
“I know what you mean. After it happened, I swore to myself that I would never let anyone get that close to me again.” Harry chuckled humorlessly. “Then I met you.”

She turned her head to look at him, studying the color of his eyes and the expression on his face.

“You don't make it easy, you know.” She said quietly, reaching over to him to fix a curl.

“I know.” He frowned, “It's been so hard, pushing you away and pretending you aren't everything I need, standing right in front of me within reach. I only push you away because I know there will be a time when you won't be within my reach. I'm going back to my country.. you're gonna stay in yours and become the greatest singer ever... and life will go on.”

Lux smiled, but it was forced and painful, so she looked away from him and frowned deeply.
“Glad I'm spending time with you, Debbie Downer.” She said quietly, trying to smile again.
“What is a 'debbie downer'?” Harry laughed, which made Lux laugh as well.

“What's a 'twat'?” She replied, and he laughed harder, leaning his head against the wall as he turned to look at her. His laughter slowed until it came to a stop, but his eyes stayed on her face and his eyes sparkled like the ocean under the sun.

“You make me happy, Lux Gallagher.” He whispered, still smiling with those dimples of his.

“You drive me crazy, Harry Styles.” She replied, smirking and wrinkling her nose up at him.

Harry laughed lightly as he reached out his arm and grabbed her, pulling her body closer to his.

She allowed her body to curl into his side as he tightened his arm around her shoulders, planting a soft kiss to the top of her head. He kept his lips there a moment, inhaling and exhaling once before pulling them back. She tilted her head to look up at him, biting her lower lip lightly as she did.

“I still want to see you.” He whispered, watching Lux tilt her head slightly.

“You're seeing me right now.”

He smiled, shaking his head. “No. I still want you.. the way I wanted you last night.”

“Oh?” She asked, quirking an eyebrow up, “I thought you were all about being selfless now.”

“I want to be. I want to walk away from you and never look back so that you can be safe and win this thing. I want you to live your dreams and be happy. But every time I try to walk away from you, I end up going in a circle and coming right back to the beginning, where I left you. And when I find you waiting for me, and when you let me return to you without asking any questions about my walking away...how can I let you go again? I don't know a lot of things, but I know that walking away from someone who has been waiting for you... that's one of the biggest mistakes you can make.”

Lux turned away from him to hide the emotion in her eyes, blinking furiously. She swallowed harshly, turning her head halfway back towards his. “What happened to you? You weren't like this before.”

“You told me you would go to hell and back with me.” He murmured, and she looked up to see him staring at her with wide eyes, looking serious and terrified.

“I would.” She replied, knowing without a doubt that what she spoke was true. She was quickly becoming one of 'those' girls who would do anything for the man they loved. Anything.

“So.. to answer your question,” He touched her cheek, smiling. “You happened.”

Before Lux could process this new information or reply or kiss him like she wanted to, she saw a man at the end of the hallway, heading toward them. It wasn't anyone she recognized or anyone important, but that didn't matter, so Lux stumbled back from Harry over to her door. She knocked 3 times loud and then sat up normally, hoping that she didn't look as guilty as she felt.

“What on earth are you doing?” Harry laughed at her, but she shook her head and smacked him.
“Shh. Try to look like we don't want to have sex with each other.” She whispered, and his eyes widened as he held back another laugh. God, she was cute.

“You are more paranoid than I was during my competition.” He said, shaking his head.

The man was walking past them down, slowing down slightly as he looked down at them, but then he continued on his way without even making a tiny movement for her bedroom. False alarm.

Lux let out a long breath, turning to look at Harry who was sitting there with a smile on his face.
“And just what do you look so happy about?”

He turned to look at her, “You just admitted you want to shag me.”

“That's against the law here. Actually, what you did to me last night was against the law! I could go to jail, you know.” She smirked in a mocking matter, folding her arms lightly across her chest.

Harry looked dumbfounded, his eyes wide and his mouth hanging open. “How am I supposed to know your stupid laws? You're technically only 2 years older than me, I turn 18 in a few weeks!”

She raised one eyebrow, a technique that made Harry jealous, and stood up slowly.

“Okay then, Styles. If I get through tonight... I will see you in a few weeks.”

His lips parted to protest, but she shook her head with a laugh, turning to walk away.

“Finish covering for Niall and Sara, yeah? Let them know it was a false alarm. I have a show to get ready for.” Lux smirked over her shoulder, and then Harry sat there and watched her swinging hips as she walked away from him this time.

And boy, did he enjoy watching her walk away.

Notes

I will update a third time tonight so come back to me later and readdddddddd!!!!!!