Roxy's POV

I closed my eyes, and felt tears running down my cheeks. I felt a huge pain streaming through my whole body, but not that usual pain, that horrible pain deep in my heart. Than pain that comes only when you heart is broken, when it wants to jump out of your chest. That’s the pain I felt now. I slowly opened my eyes just to make sure this is not a nightmare. As I opened them, I fell on my knees and screamed like never before. “OH GOD NIALL!!” I was on my knees, crying…He was there, bleeding in front of me. The bullet was deep in his chest, and he was breathing very hard. Harry cried in anger, swearing loudly. Then he fell on his knees beside me, and wrapped his big arms around my shoulders. I was shaking in pain. I touched Niall’s harmed chest and he sighed, I instantly removed my hand from his wound and grabbed his hand. “You won’t die Niall. This is not the end. I love you! No…this is just a dream” My hands were covered with blood, with Niall’s blood. I watched small drops dripping down his body, while Harry called the police and an ambulance. I was lying next to Niall, trying to convince him he’s not going to die. But I knew that wasn’t true. He lost a lot of blood and soon he couldn’t breathe. He gathered the last piece of air that he had left, and we knew he wanted to tell us something. Harry sat next to us and grabbed his other hand. “This is the end, huh... I couldn’t imagine a better way to die…” “No, this is not the end!” I screamed. “Roxy…” Harry tried to say something, but Niall cut him off with his last breath “take care of her man... Do-o…don’t forget me Roxy” he was slowly closing his eyes, letting us know he’s done. Pain streamed through my body, and I leaned against him, slowly kissing his lips for the last time. Tears left his eyes, and I wiped them saying “I love you Niall” Then he smiled and closed his eyes forever.

.

“Now when you’re gone, I understand how much you meant.

Those three sweet words left my mouth, just in time

To show you I care. Maybe it’s too late now, but I love

you, I loved you and I always will. My heart is broken,

Now when you’re not here. If I could go back in time,

Believe me, I would love you even more.”

I said on the edge of tears, standing in front of Niall’s grave, on the cloudy day of his funeral. His mother was crying hard, and Harry hugged her, trying to calm her down. I wore simple black dress that reached my knees, and black flats. My hair was in a bun, and I had black Ray Bans, to hide my watery eyes. Those were Niall’s Ray Bans, his favourite ones. I took a deep breath and continued. “Why did you die? Why did you left me here? I loved you. We could’ve stopped this.” Now I was crying hard. “We could’ve done things differently…We could’ve still be together.” I stopped and left. I ran as fast as I could. But someone grabbed my hand. “Let me go Harry” I said, now crying like never before. His eyes were soaked too. “No! Niall told me to take care of you, and that’s what I’ll do.” I sighed and he pulled me in his tight grip. We cried together for a while. Then we got back to the funeral. Harry lost his best friend, and I lost my first true love.

*1 year later*

Harry’s P.O.V.

Since Niall died, Roxy is crushed. She feels no lust to live or to love. Although I love her now more than I’ve ever loved her, she seems like she doesn’t even know me. Niall’s death broke me, and I almost failed school. I’ve been in mental hospitals a few times, but Roxy somehow kept her mental health normal. She never remembered anything from before the accident, but that wasn’t important anymore. “I wish I have more memories of him.” she always said. “I wish I have more nice moments to remember”…. And now one year later, things are little bit better. I’ve got out of the hospital two months ago, and since then I’m spending every moment I have with Roxy. One year later she still cries when she thinks I’ve fallen asleep. Sometimes I get up and hug her, but mostly, I let her cry it out. When I’m alone, I still cry…but not that much. She’s still as beautiful as she was before, but her eyes are always covered with Niall’s Ray Bans. Everytime I see her wearing them, I feel like crying. Sometimes she comes over and starts to kiss me with no words, and she makes me feel loved...but I know she still loves him. Last night she did that again. She came into my room and sat on my bed, she said nothing. She just came and kissed me. I wanted to back off, but I couldn’t. Every time I hoped I’m gonna find that little piece of love she had left for me. I pulled my hands under her shirt and unclipped her bra. Still she said nothing. I tried my best to make her feel good, loved...But I guess I wasn’t doing a good job. With every kiss she gave me I felt even more hurt. But I continued, until we were both stripped. I slowly planted small train of kisses down her neck; still she didn’t said a word. “I love you Roxy, you know that right?” “Yes” “Do you love me as half much as I love you?” “I don’t know...” ”That night ,one year ago, you told me you love me.. Where did that go?” “I don’t know…I can-” ”So you feel nothing for me? You don’t love me?” ”NO Harry! I love you too much. I love you so much that it hurts. Every time I kiss you I remember that night when Niall died. I remember his last words.” Don’t forget me” How can I forget him and love you-” I kissed her lips with such passion that I thought I’m gonna burn. Suddenly I felt that peace of love she had for me. She really did love me. Niall told me to keep her safe, and I will. As long as she’s in my arms, nothing can hurt her.

***

Roxy’s P.O.V.

“Are you ready?” “Yes” Harry rushed down the stairs. He looked so charming in that black suit. I wore simple black dress and black flats. “You look stunning” He said and I gave him a weak smile. He hugged me and we both sighed. We were going to Niall’s grave again. One year passed since he died, and we wanted to show him respect. That day I felt so sad, but again so happy. I was finally happy with the person I love-Harry. And that doesn’t mean I didn’t love Niall. I loved him more than my life, and I still do. But I can’t love him in the way I love Harry. He’ll never be with me again, and I can’t let myself love him while he’s dead. It hurts me too much. “I wish you’re still here Niall.” Harry said “I wish I can see you smile again. I wish we can hang out and do nothing like before. I wish you didn’t die” He wiped a small tear that rolled down his eye. “You were so young. You should’ve seen the world, but you couldn’t.” he sighed “I love you man” He said and I hugged him, while he cried on my shoulder. Then his mom said a few words and everyone left. Harry and I stayed a little bit longer. We both sat on the grass beside his grave. I passed my hand over it, like Niall can feel it. “Some people say he can hear us...I mean his ghost, or...” “I know...” I continued. “Maybe we should talk to him, say the things we mean.” “Yeah.” I looked at the grave and lit a small candle. “I didn’t forget you Niall. I’ll never forget you” Harry squeezed my hand and started “This is so hard…I’ll just say everything that’s on my mind. Niall, you were my best friend, and if there was I way, I would die instead of you. Then, you could be happy with Roxy and...” “Harry don’t.…this hurts you too much.” Tears rolled down his cheeks. He wasn’t ashamed to cry in front of me. He cried and he didn’t care. I hugged him and he was sobbing on my shoulder. We cried together for a while and then we got up and left. Harry whispered something before we left; I guess he said something to Niall.

*2 months later*

The day was warm and sunny. We walked through the park, talking about random stuff. Mostly, Harry told me about my life before the accident. It was so hard to have a blank brain, and memories from just one year, mostly bad memories. But I enjoyed being with Harry, listening to him while he’s talking with his deep British accent. I love that. “You loved to draw. You drew me few times” I laughed. “What else did I love?” “Well you loved me” “OH you silly” He pulled me closer and rubbed his eyelashes on my cheek. “You loved that too” “I see” He kissed me and we both smiled into a kiss. Then I felt some strange pain in my head. It wasn’t terrible, but it was strange. “Are you okay Rox?” “Yes, I just feel...I don’t know I...” I felt dizzy, and almost fell, but Harry picked me up and we sat on the bench. “Roxy?” I closed my eyes and all of the sudden, flashbacks trapped my brain. I remembered my first kiss, my first steps, my mom, my dad, Niall…Everything! Memories were just coming and I screamed. “Roxy, what’s happening?” “Harry, I’ve just remembered everything.” He looked at me and I could see the happiness in his eyes. Then he wiped the small tears that were rolling down his cheek and I hugged him. He kissed my lips, and we got up from the bench. “Tell me everything” he said and we continued walking through the park, now talking about everything. “So what did you said that day when we were on the graveyard?” He smiled and said. “I kept her safe, just like you wanted.” I smiled and tear rolled down my cheek. I squeezed his hand and we both smiled. This was pure happiness. This feel I had in my stomach. Happiness. I’ll never forget Niall, and how happy he made me. I’ll never forget how much I loved him. That’s impossible. Even now I felt happy because of Niall. He made me and Harry so happy. He taught me a lot and I will never be more grateful. He thought me how to love, how to love him, just so I can be happy with someone else. He was a great man. He was Niall. The last words he said to me will always stay in my head “Don’t forget me!” I won’t.

Notes

Sorry guys, but that's it. :/ I hope you liked it. :)