P.S. I Love You

Niall's P.O.V. As I stand at the podeum I have a lost for words as the pain entruding my heart is growing more and more by every second. "Harry was the best guy I've ever know.He,had a smile that could light up an entire room and then some. And thats why I'm proud to say..." My throat gets right as I try to get out my last sentence and I start to cry. UZayn comes up behind me and grabs my shoulder "I AM ROUD TO BE KNOWN.AS MR.STYLES!!!"----------- "I know that had to have been hard Ni', but you were strong and tats what harry would have wanted" Liam Says "Yeah I know.....hay listen I need some time I'll talk to you guys later" I say to all of the guys I don't even wait for them to reply, I just start off walking to my car.When I get to my car I just lose it, I start banging on my steering wheel, and crying heavily. I hear a tap on the window. "Niall are you alright" he says "Yeah I'm fine Josh" I say "Hay do you need me to come ov-" I stop him in mid sentence "No I'm fine" I say starting the engine "I think I'm just gonna go home" "Hay, my cars kinda not starting and it's about to rain, so maybe I should rephrase it diffrently, could I stay the night with you until tomorrow" Although I really don't feel like having company, me a.d Josh have a......history together and can't leave him hanging. "....Get in" I say---------------- I hear the pounding rain against the windows of our..........my house I grab my glass and throw it at the wall. Josh comes running in shirtless with a pair of joggers "NIALL WHAT HAPPENED!" He says worridly "Nothing.....just me and my thoughts" I walk over to the window and just stare ate the tree's swaying back and forth in the wind and rain "Josh?" I say "why are you here?" "What do you mean?" He ask I quickly become irritated " YOU AND HARRY FUCKING HATED EACH OTHER! SO WHY THE BLOODY HELL ARE YOU HERE!" I scream at him He looks down at the ground and walk towards me. "You cut your hand." He says plainly "Answer the fucking question Josh!" I scream He looks behind the couch and grabs the first aid kit "Well....I'm waiting" he says fixing up my hand "Waiting for what?" I ask "I'm not sure yet but when the opportunity presents itself I'll take it" he says "You're full of sh-" the doorbell interrupts me "I'll get it" Josh says I take a few deep breathes and look out the window. The trees moving back and forth is calming to my settling rage. I hear Josh talking to someone downstairs He walks into the room with a box "Niall a box just arrived for you, I hope you don't mind but I signed for it?" He says "Just give me the bloody thing" I say coldly He shrugs it off and hands me the box. I grab a letter oppener lying on the desk next to me and rip open the box. I open it to see a gigantic picture frame of me and Harry on our wedding day after we tried feeding each other cake, we failed epically but we didn't care we were just happy to be with each other I feel Josh's hand caress my face, and his thumb move under my eye "Don't cry Ni'" he says "It's okay" I say J take the frame fully out and see a letter and the bottom of the box "Whats that?" Josh ask "I'm not sure"I say I see The front of the letter and it has a heart with a one inside I treat it open and read the letter "My dearest Niall, if you are reading this then its the day of my funeral. I know you're probably grieving and I just want you to know that you made me the happiest husband alive and being married to you will go down in history as the best momment in my life, Sincerely Harry. P.S. I Love You" As I read the letter I feel a since of relief and yet sorrow with a bit of joy. "who's it from? whats it say? NIALL!" Josh screams "It's...from Harry, he wrote it before he died" I say Some how that word...that awful, awful word broke me down 'died,dead,deceased.....gone' I start crying into my lap heavily "Niall it'll be okay I swear" Josh pulls me into the embrace of his chest where I feel theWarmth of his body, I find the crook of his neck a nuzzle my head in it. "My husband is dead, Harry Styles is dead. NOTHING WILL EVER BE ALRIGHT AGAIN!!!" I scream cry "Maybe you're right?" Josh says "Maybe the world has ended because Harry died...but we'll never know if we give up now we have to keep moving and never stop" "You almost sound like Harry" I say I look up at Josh and look into his eyes and remember the hardest choice of my life. He slowly leans down and connects our lips, he grabs tge side of my face and continues on, he slides his tounge across my bottom lip, I have to feel some thing other than a void in my heart I start to push on his chest and kiss him faster much faster he starts to unzip my pants and I rip off my shirt. He slows down and stops kissing me. He pushes me off of him and walks to the fireplace, and my back hits the couch "What is it? I thought you wanted me?" He looks back at me and grabs my hands "I do in every single way....but not like this I love you to much to risk it on one stupid night that you'll regret the next morning" he says "But I wa-" Josh's lips cut me off "This was out final kiss for the time being, I will never kjss you again until you ask for it. Because right now you're blinded by sorow which does the same as alcohol, I lov a you Niall and I know you can only handle so much...the next time we kiss it'll be because you're ready to" "I'm going to bed now" I say I walk out of the the room in tears. I run to my room in tears and jump into the bed. I can still smell Harry every time I lay in here "YOU ASS WHOLE HOW COULD YOU LEAVE ME WE'D ONLY BEEN MARRIED FOR 2 YEARS.......why Harry? Why did you have to go? I walk downstairs to see Josh with a bottle of Vodka watching TV, "Hay it's my firsy night.ca lone by myself and I was wondering if you could come and sleep with me.....JUST FOR TONIGHT THAT IS?" "Niall." He says "Please?! My husbands gon' and I just want some one to hold me......please" He takes a deep brethe "I'll be up in about 3 mins" "Okay" I say I go upstairs and strip down. I dont csre if it's Josh or my mum I always sleep in jist my trousers. I get under the sheets and wait for Josh not even seconds later does josh appear. "It's gonna be okay Ni', I swear I'll be here 24/7" Josh cuddles me into a blissfull sleep "Goodnight Niall" "Goodnight Harry"

Notes

OOkay so I was watching the movie P.S. I love you and just started crying..........AND THE FANFICTION WAS BORN Okay so I'm going to write a new fanfic about Liam and Niall and well......it's going to be very dear to me because it's going to be about my love story wit my ex-boyfriend and it's going to let you inside my life so I really hope you like it and I'll be Niall :)