I really hate my alarm when it rings in the morning. I mean really! It's way to early to wake up. It feels so warm and wonderful in bed and I really don't want to get up. Then I remember Lea, probably feeling worse, and I sit up rubbing my face with my hands. Louis doesn't wake up beside me, he just grumbles and turn to lay on his side. I sigh and step out of bed, shivering by the cold.

I must say that it's so much harder to get up in the morning when you have someone else in bed. I really just want to crawl back and snuggle up to him. But, no. I can't.

I step into the shower, trying to wake up and warm my body. The water feels good against my skin and I quickly feel warmer and more alert. I wrap a cozy bathrobe around me as I step out of the bathroom and head for the kitchen. Some tea and a sandwich is exactly what I need before work. I sit and watch out through the window as I sip on my tea. It's grey and windy outside and it's probably going to rain. This weather is really depressing. I do hope for a little snow for christmas at least, that would be nice. I wonder what I should get my dad for christmas, it's not like he's missing something. I have to think about that.

I sigh before standing up and putting my cup in the sink, before I walk back into the bedroom. I try to be quiet so I don't wake up Louis. He's looking so sweet while sleeping, hair messy around his head, body relaxed and lovely covered with tattoos. He do have an extremely sexy body. I tear my eyes away from his sleeping body and put on underwear before heading to my wardrobe to find something to wear. Since it looked cold out, I put on a white and grey knitted sweater and a pair of jeans.

When I've packed my purse with the things I need, I walk over to the bed. I sit down on the edge, looking down on this handsome man lightly snoring. I smile and run my hand over his forehead, pushing some hair away. I hate to wake him, but I have to.

“Louis.” I say in a normal voice and he stirs, but doesn't wake up. “Looouuiis!” I sing a little closer to his ear. He groans quietly and it makes me snicker. “Hey, I'm leaving. Are you awake?” I ask, rubbing his earlobe and he hums an answer. He's so cute. “You need to be a little more awake than that.” I say and snicker.

“Give me a minute and I'm ready to go.” His raspy voice mumble.

“You don't have to. I left a spare key on the counter in the kitchen, just lock up when you leave.” I say and smile at his dead body. Wow, he's tired.

“mm...good.” He mumbles, never opening his eyes. I snicker at him before leaning closer and pecking his lips.

“Bye!” I say before I leave the bedroom. It's hard, but I have to.

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When the clock strikes three I'm thrilled that I get to leave the bakery. I'm exhausted and feel like I could sleep for a decade. It feels like I slept an hour last night, though I got several hour sleep. I don't know why. I pick my phone up as I leave the bakery and head to the store.

“Hey!” Lea answers on the second ring.

“Hi sick girl. How are you feeling?” I ask as I put my other hand in my pocket, trying to hide from the cold wind.

“I'm better, hasn't thrown up today, but I'm beat. Feels like I've partied everyday for the last month.” She say and sigh, making me laugh.

“Well, you should know.” I smile. She do sound better than last night.

“Ha. ha.” She says sarcastically.

“I'm heading for the store, do you need anything? I could come by.” I offer as I see the store sign as I round the corner.

“Oh, that would be wonderful! Can I text you a list?” She say and sound so grateful that I feel my heart squeeze a little. I realize how easy it is to do nice things to others. I need to do it more often.

“Of course. I'm heading inside the store now, so just send the list to me.” I say and we hang up. I grab a cart and start dropping things that I need into it as I wait for Lea's list. It's a pretty small store on the corner from Lea's house, but they have the necessaries. After receiving her list and I find everything, I head for the checkout. I divide our groceries into two different bags and then head for her apartment.

I ring her bell and smile as she opens in pajama pants with sunflowers on. She looks like she's four years old.

“Hi little girl!” I say as I step inside. She snickers at me.

“Did you get it?” She asks with a big smile and I shake my head at her eagerness.

“Yes. Let me get inside.” I say and get my shoes off before heading into her kitchen. I put her bag in the counter and pull out what she's so exited to get, a box of ice cream. I get chills only thinking about eating it. I'm chilled enough from walking outside. I pull my jacket off.

“Yay!” She exclaim as she gets a spoon from a drawer. I laugh at her as I put her groceries in her fridge. When I'm done I sit down on the couch beside her as she eats her ice cream.

“Do you feel better now?” I smile at her and pat her knee.

“Yes. Now I'm good.” She say and take a spoon full of the chocolate flavored ice cream. She laughs with her mouth full. I just shake my head at her. I look over at the TV-show that she is watching.

“So how is Louis?” Lea ask after a couple of minutes. I look over at her with pink cheeks.

“He's good.” I say and rub my lips together. It feels weird talking about it since it's suppose to be a secret.

“Really?” She asks with a cheeky grin. “And how often do you see him?” I roll my eyes at her curiosity. I shrug. “When did you see him last?” She asks with narrow eyes.

“This morning.” I say low, looking over at the TV.

“Oh! And before that?” She snoops.

“We were at the dinner together.” I say and bites my lip. I'm not good at charing things and specially not about this.

“Yeah, but before that.” She presses and I sigh.

“Yesterday morning.” I confess and feel my cheeks turn red. Lea's smile is huge.

“So you basically spend every night together?” She ask and I feel very exposed where I sit. It feels so strange to talk about it and specially since we haven't really talked about us too much me and Louis. Maybe we should talk about it? Though it's going pretty good as it is. He didn't want me to go on a date with Perrie's friend, so that's something right?

“Not every night.” I say, but it has basically been every night.

“Wow. It's going better than I thought. So when are you going to come out?” She ask with big eyes. I look over at her, with a small frown.

“I don't even know if there is anything to come out with, we haven't exclaimed any relationship or anything.” I say uncertain.

“Oh, really? You spend every night together and I guess it's not playing cards. What is stopping you?” She asks, now so interested in this that she puts the ice cream down.

“I don't know. No one has brought it up.” I shrug. “I don't want to pressure him.” I confess, knowing that I hasn't told Lea about his ex and I'm not going to. That is too personal and not my secret to tell.

“You think he isn't up for it?” She asks, leaning her head on her hand on the back of the couch.

“I don't know. He's had some stuff hurting him before this. I don't know. He did tell me not to go on a date with a guy Perrie wanted to set me up with?” I say and frown. What does that mean? Are we exclusive? Or is he seeing someone else also? Oh shit! Lea sees the panic in my eyes.

“What is it?” She asks worried.

“What if he's seeing someone else also?” I ask, feeling kind of disgusted.

“And when would he have the time for that if he's spending every night with you?” She ask, trying to comfort me.

“On daylight time?” I say and start biting my thumb nail.

“Talk to him, okey? You will feel better then. You don't have to become boyfriend and girlfriend, but at least find out if your only dating each other.” She say and I nod, sure that I have to do it, even if it scares the shit out of me. What if he says that he is seeing other girls? What do I do then?



I excuse myself from Lea after a little while, I feel too exhausted to be social, besides she looked kind of tired too. My mind is running wild and I can't stop it.

After eating some noodles I wrap myself in a blanket on the couch and put on a movie. I lay my head on the pillow and yawn, knowing that I will not make it through the whole movie. It's good though and I manage to stay awake for most of it before my eyelids get too heavy.

I get startled awake when I hear the front door open. I frown in my sleepiness. Who the hell is coming here now? I blink my eyes a couple of times to get used to the light in the room and sigh as I see the shadow of the person stepping into the living room.

“What are you doing here?” I couch out, my sleeping state evident in my voice.

“Coming to visit you, sleeping beauty.” Louis say as he comes closer to the couch, crawling up and hovering above me. I close my eyes as he nuzzles into my hair and I can feel the wonderful aroma of him. I'm wrapped up like a cocoon in the blanked underneath him. I get goosebumps all over me as I feel his lips give me light kisses on the side of my neck.

“I should take that key back, otherwise I'm never going to know when crazy people like you come barging in.” I say low with a smile on my face.

“Nope. I'm keeping this one. It's pretty handy.” Louis say and take my earlobe in between his teeth. I let out a sound between a moan and a yawn. Louis vibrates as he chuckles on top of me.

“Tired?” He asks, picking his head up to look at me.

“Yes. It was way to early to go up at five thirty.” I say and caress his chest with my hands that has been stuck underneath him.

“Yeah, I slept to eleven.” He say with a cheeky smile and I shake my head with a grin.

“Unfair!” I pout, pushing my bottom lip out.

“But you have tomorrow off right?” He ask, before lightly kissing my outstretched lip. The action makes me smile from within. I nod at him and close my eyes, I'm so tired. I want to sleep for a couple of days at least. “Come on sleepy!” Louis say as he climbs off me and I groan in objection to moving. I'm good here on the couch. He chuckles before pulling his hands under me and lifting me up. I squeal in surprise and my eyes flash open. Louis carries me to the bedroom with a huge grin on his face and I just enjoy seeing the muscles in his arms and chest flex.

Louis puts me down on the bed and then walk over to the cabinet to pull out a drawer and then he throws one of the shirts I usually sleeps in over to me. I smile as I watch him. It's very cute what he's doing. He comes over and starts pulling my socks off and I can't help the grin from my face.

“Will you pee for me too?” I ask with amusement and his eyes look up at me and he laughs.

“I would if I could babe.” He say and his hands caress my feet. I feel a shiver going through me at that word. Babe. He's never called me that before. My mouth drops and I feel Louis tense a little, I don't think he meant to say it. He looks away and I sit up quickly, the weirdness in the room too thick. I pick the shirt up and walk into the bathroom to get ready. I take a deep breath as I look myself in the mirror. What just happened? Did he not mean to say that? Did he regret it? Fuck, I hate not knowing. Maybe is just slipped. I need to ask him. I need to know about us, this will tear me apart otherwise.

When I get back out into the bedroom Louis is already under the cover. I put my old clothes on the chair beside the bed before I get in, sitting on my knees on the bed. I'm constantly biting my lip and haven't been able to look at Louis yet. I'm so nervous. What will he say?

“Are you okey?” Louis ask concerned and sitting up, leaning against the headboard. I pick on my fingers that laying on my lap.

“ehm...I have to ask you something.” I say, my voice low and shaky. I still haven't looked up at him, even though I can feel his eyes burning into me.

“Okey, what?” He asks and I can hear the frown on his face.

“Is this... what are...ehm..” I stutter, not knowing how to ask it. Shit, this was harder than I thought. Louis puts his hands over mine, stoping the shaking of them.

“Just say it.” He say low, his voice soft and comforting. I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

“Are you seeing other people?” I spit out and feel his shock through his hand.

“What?” He asks shocked and my eyes slowly open to look at him. “Why would you think that?” He looks hurt, the frown is deep on his forehead.

“I d-don't.” I stutter. “I just want to make sure I know what this is.” I explain, feeling my cheeks heat. My eyes lock with his as he leans forward, resting his hand on my cheek.

“I'm only seeing you.” He say low and his eyes look honest. I close my eyes for a couple of seconds, feeling relief flow through me. “And I hope you're not seeing anyone else?” He say and my eyes meet his again. I shake my head and his thumb stroke my cheek. “Not even Perrie's friends.” He state and I give a little smile.

“I'm getting out of that.” I say soft and he smile back at me.

“Tell her you've gone for the ladies instead.” He say and raise an eyebrow and give me a cocky grin.

“You do realize that she would only set me up with one of her girlfriends instead?” I say, pouting my lips.

“Yeah, but I'm fine with that.” He say cheekily and I punch his chest.

“Such a guy!” I mumble and shake my head. He leans even closer to me. “We're good?” He ask with raised eyebrows and I nod with a smile before his lips caress mine.

“Well, it depends.” I say as I pull away from him, pulling both lips into my mouth as I try to look serious.

“On what?” Louis ask, frowning.

“What you have planned for tomorrow!” I say and can't keep the smile from my face. Louis pushes me so my back fall down on the bed and starts to tickle me. I squeal with laughter, wiggling underneath him. My hands are pushing his chest to get him to stop. His hands move from my body to my hands, taking my wrists and pinning them above my head. The mood in the room quickly changing to something more electric.

“I've got it all planned.” He whispers against my lips before I get to taste them again and I moan into his mouth. I feel a little fire starting up in my body, the exhaustion I felt just pushed to the side.

“Do I get to sleep in?” I ask as his lips move to my neck. He chuckles against my skin.

“Yes, you do.” He say before lightly biting down and my breathing kicks up. His right hand leave mine over my head and slide up under my shirt, our other hands intertwine and I somehow forget that I was tired.

Notes

Whaaat..? I go from not updating in almost two weeks, to updating two days in a row? :P

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