Fix Me (Liam Payne Fanfic)
I wake up ever morning with an empty feeling in my heart, like I didn't have a soul or something, but then again that's just me.
I do what I normally do every morning, I vent and let out all that I need to say in my diary, like today I'll be writing about why I woke up feeling like complete crap.
"I'm damaged, I'm a mess, I'm not good enough and I don't think I'm right for anyone. So why doesn't anyone see that? Why doesn't anyone see that being with me is no good and everything that everything i touch falls apart and that is why no one wants me?" I wrote down in my diary as my phone kept ringing,
Damn it, who feels the need to keep calling me and bothering me. I like keeping to myself, I don't like people in my business and I don't get into others business it's as simple as that.
I picked up the phone seeing its my best friend, Callie —I've known her since I was born basically, our moms are best friends too, so guess they passed that onto us.—
"Where have you been?! I've called you ten times already!"
"sorry I was busy, what's up?"
"what's up? I'll tell you what's up, hottest new guy just walked into our class and you need to see him and die inside with me!", I didn't know what else to say so I faked a laughed and told her I'd be there as soon as I can.
You see we are freshmen in college, we both moved from the smallest town in Texas to California about 6 months ago. Callie loves it here, she can't stop going to the beach and loves that there is no snow here, and as for me, well I'm just happy to be out of that place where I don't have to walk around and have the person i thought loved me everyday and my family falling apart. But other than that, I liked it here too I guess you can say.
I got out of bed, took and shower and got dressed. I'm not one to impress anyone so I grabbed a pair of jeans putting them on, along with a white long sleeved shirt and my converse.
As always, I was late for class. — I'm always 5 minutes late and I always get crap from Callie about it. That girl is like my mother—
"Ms. Connors, glad you could join us". my teacher said to me as I walked in through the door.
"I'm sorry, I slept in.."
"When have you not?", everyone laughed as he replied to me but I just nodded and smiles then took my seat beside Callie.
"Are you ready?" Callie Said
"To see the most gorgeous guy ever."
"everyone gorgeous to you Cal."
"Shut up and look!", she pointed to the other side of the class, last table to the back away from the teacher and as far away from everyone else.
I turned my head to see who this "gorgeous" guy was that had my best friend gushing so hard but when I turned, mr. "gorgeous" was no where to be found.
"I swear he was just there!!"
"call down I'm sure we will see him again", Was it bad that I was hoping I wouldn't see him again? I mean I know what would happen already, Callie would crush over him for months but not really want to be with the guy because she wants to wait for the "right guy" and then moves on and I'm left with walking around the campus knowing every detail about a guy I don't know.
I promised myself once I moved here that I'd start new, no drama, no drama and again no drama. Before I moved here I broke up with a guy I was with since I was 15 years old. why did we break up you wonder? he broke my heart. screwed half the cheer leading team and did things I don't think I will ever tell anyone.
"class dismissed" my teacher said, which was funny because I didn't even listen to a single word he said.
I got up and walked out with Callie, our arms linked together.
"Today will be a good day, I promise you" Callie said to me, as we walked down the hallway.
I look at her with my eyes empty, my body feeling as if its numb and I faked a smiles and told her it would be a good day. even though she knew that I wasn't okay and haven't been for a long time. No matter what, she would do her best to make me smile and that is why she's my best friend and sister.